This is unedited and I didn't proofread it which unedited means lol. Also a TRIGGER WARNING. If you've had trouble with drugs, cutting and suicide be careful reading. Or don't read at all.

I had no clue why I felt this way.

I had no clue how I started.

I had no idea why I started.

I never though I'd get addicted.

I never thought I'd end up this way.

I guess it was my own fault, my own stupidity.

It was me. All my fault.

~~

"Annabeth!" Thalia yelled and I slipped the pills into my pocket so she wouldn't see.

I looked her way and saw her running over holding some dudes wrist who had black hair pulling him over to me as I stood up from sitting under a shady tree.

They stopped and panted Thalia a happy look on her face, but the boy's face held a confused expression as I looked at him quizzically wondering who he was.

"Annabeth, this is Percy. Ya know, my cousin that I told you was moving here." She said and my memory sparked reminding me of my conversation with Thalia about her cousin.

"Hi." He waved a bit and I let the side of my lip go up a bit signalling I would smile but I didn't care that much about him to even tell him I heard him speak.

"Percy, this is the Annabeth I told you about."

Percy sighed and slumped his shoulders. "I know Thals."

She smiled and pushed some stray hair out of her face.

Percy offered a hand to shake and I sighed, why not?

I shook his hand as I shook slightly.

Percy gave me the slightest look of curiosity and strangeness.

We pulled away and he noticed my other hand clenching the pills in my pocket.

"What's in your pocket?" He asked and I glared, but before I could spit at him with my hurtful words the schools bell rang and we all had to go inside for our classes.

As we walked in and as nobody was looking I slipped the pills into my mouth or else I was gonna have some serious problems.

~~

A few weeks later at lunch I went to sit alone but Thalia called me over to sit with them.

I flinched and started walking over hearing the sound of wheels. I didn't care but I ended up hearing a "Move out of the way! OH SHOOT!"

Then I was knocked over and I felt another body laying over mine.

My head felt like it was spinning and my wrist hurt badly. I looked to see if my sleeve had pulled up, it hadn't, which I was definitely thankful for.

I sighed and heard a groan feeling hot breath on my chest, I didn't really care though.

I looked and saw Percy was the one who had skated and used me for a safe landing.

He lifted his head from my chest as I looked at him with a blank face his cheeks slowly covering with a light pink.

"S-sorry Annabeth." He got off of me and offered to help me up which I took him wincing when I grabbed his hand.

"Man your hands are cold." He said once I was up.

"Thanks." I said before looking to see I had food on my leggings and some on the floor.

I sighed, there goes my lunch.

I sighed and crossed my arms covered in long sleeves and walked out of the lunch room alone before starting to head to the bathroom.

"Annabeth! Wait!" I didn't look back but heard Percy's shuffling feet run after me.

He ran and stopped in front of me.

"Let me buy you lunch." He said a little breathless. I gave him a strange look.

"You mean, leave school?' I asked and he smiled and nodded.

"I have to keep up my grades." I said remembering them falling down and my mother wouldn't let me out of the house so I couldn't get my fix.

"Don't worry." He reassured grabbing grabbing my arm causing pain from the cuts. "We'll be back in time."

He paused for a moment, "I think."

I actually smiled making him smile also.

"Alright." I said. "Just let me was my-" Suddenly I got dizzy and I started to lose my balance as I shook slightly but jut enough where you could see it.

I fell forward and Percy caught me.

"Whoa, are you ok? You're shaking." He said before standing me back up as the episode finished.

"Y-yeah. I'm fine. I just haven't eaten." I lied and he looked me in the eyes a moment before nodding.

"Let's get you lunch then." he helped me outside to his car and drove me to the nearest fast food place which was Mcdonalds.

As he ordered I slipped pills in my mouth and let them dissolve somewhat before swallowing with a satisfied sigh.

He ordered a lot of food which I didn't eat mots of because I was high on pills. I didn't need food. I didn't need anything or anyone right now. I felt so good.

I smiled and nibbled at the food as he drove us back to school as he ate a Mcchicken.

"I always though you as a beef eatin' kinda guy." I said watching him before he glanced over as I noticed his leather bracelet giving my legs a numb feeling even though everything was pretty numb anyways.

"Well, like Chick Fil a says. 'Eat more chicken'!"

He cracked a stupid joke. and I shouldn't of laughed. I should've rolled my eyes at him for being childish.

But I didn't. I burst out laughing my laughter filling the car with the sound of my joy. Percy chuckled a little bit at me before we turned and pulled in the schools parking lot.

Percy stopped and grabbed my hand and I looked him in the yes as he looked into mine. Why were his green eyes so gorgeous?

He smiled and kissed my lips. 

"Be mine?" He said and I giggled before kissing his lips again. "Sure."

I got out of the car a grin never leaving my face as we walking in and went to our different classes.

I couldn't stop grinning, I just sat down beside the person I usually sat down next to who had no filter.

"Annabeth." Thalia whispered grabbing my attention so I looked at her.

"Why are you grinning so much? You look like you just had your first kiss."

I not thinking laughed out loud. "Thalia! You know I've never had my first kiss!"

Everyone looked at us and Thalia's eyes widened.

"Ms. Chase!" The teacher yelled glaring at me but i just grinned at her.

"No, speaking in class unless I call on you."

"Huh, whatever." I scoffed and I barely felt Thalia kick my leg.

Th teacher gasped and students started whispering amongst themselves

"Detention for you!"

~~

Detention was boring. Let me tell you that, but being high made it wonderful. I didn't care about a single thing. but all through detention the drugs were starting to ware off.

But when it was time to leave my high had ended, so I left with an emotionless face as I suddenly came back to reality which was the worst thing ever.

I frowned and walked to my locker feeling my legs start to shake. Not already.

"Hey! Annabeth!" I straightened up knowing who had just called my name.

Percy smiled at me. "Whatcha doin'?" He asked.

"I-I was a-about to leave s-school." I stuttered to my boyfriend feeling weak and sick to my stomach.

I needed more.

"Well, how 'bout we go out for the rest of the day. Just you and me. doing whatever we want." He smiled and I pushed a halfhearted smile to my lips.

"Sounds good."

Just then my mom, my real mom walked through the door.

She looked like she was a bull ready to sick someone through with her horn.

I sighed as she stomped up to me and Percy ignoring me before she started yelling at me.

"You got detention!?" She yelled a bunch of colorful names at me.

"You're worthless! I taught you better than this! You stupid child!" She yelled as Percy watched with fearful eyes. I just nodded looking at the floor my vision blurring.

My knees started to wobble and I feel down hitting the floor hearing a satisfying crunch pain shooting through my arm as it twisted the wrong way.

I laid there and my pills fell out of my pocket out onto the floor and my mother gasped as tears from my eyes fell onto the floor. I wasn't sad. They just started coming out. I don't understand why. Cause the pain felt like bliss compared to reality.

The last thing I saw was Percy leaning down in front of me a sad look on his face as he had a phone up to his ear.

~~

So i was found out. Yes, I took drugs. I was sent to the hospital and was later sent to therapy to talk about my horrible life. that's when they figured out I hurt myself so they put me in a straight jacket for a while until I could be trusted.

When I faked it all and got out I got a call.

"Hello?" I didn't know who would like me enough to call me.

"Hey beautiful. Wanted to check up on you. How are ya doin'?"

It was Percy, he actually cared about me a bit.

"I'm ok."

"so, uh about that date. You wanna go?" I remembered several months ago him asking me about a date just him and me.. alone.

"Sounds good."

~~

we met up in the park with Percy acting casual giving me a hug.

"Hey beautiful." he breath out on my neck and I shivered hugging him back.

"Hey." I said and he pulled away and smiled at me before we went to Starbucks and ordered coffee's while we sat and he starred at me smiling.

"I've missed you."

I breathed out.

"I-I missed you too." I stuttered remembering what I had planned.

I reached over and grabbed his hand. "I want you to know I love you, and I-I've enjoyed being with you." Percy smiled and gently squeezed my hand. 

"I love you too."

I felt like crying. I wanted him to figure out what I was saying.

"I just, I wanna say goodbye. In case I never get to again."

He looked at me strange for just a moment before nodding.

I almost choked on air.

"I-I've gotta go."

I got up and walked out of Starbucks wiping tears out of my eyes as I left.

He can't save me now.

~~

I wrapped the rope around my neck standing at the river before attaching the rope to a very large rock.

I sniffled and took my flats off before I threw the rock into the water jumping after it as it pulled me under the currents and to my death.

I watched the light fade as the rock went down pulling me down also. I blinked a few times and opened my mouth to take the water in.

But I heard a splash making me open my eyes and see someone paddling down to me.

I knew exactly who it was. I started choking. 

He came down and grabbed me in his arm before noticing the rope around my neck pulling me to the bottom.

He looked from the rope to my eyes asking if I wanted to be saved. To live.

I couldn't decide weather to let him save me or let me drown.

I gulped and grabbed his arms with the last of life I had in me.

Percy took it as a good sign and untied my neck from the rock before swimming me up to the surface as I turned blue suffocating from lack of air for so long.

The currents fought him as he pushed up, they kept pushing us down back where death lurked pulling me in to where I didn't even know.

Percy's grip tightened around me and swam to the surface.

Finally we breached the surface Percy gasping and swimming to the muddy shore laying my cold body down on the cold mud before looking at me my vision blurring.

"Annabeth, stay with me." 

He started to give me CPR until I finally coughed up the water that had found a home in my lungs.

I coughed the water up my body shaking as Percy sighed as he straddled me.

After I caught my breath he leaned down and kissed me.

"Don't ever do that to me again." He ordered me glaring at me with a stern sound in his whisper.

I gulped before nodding.

Percy smiled and helped me up before hugging my soaking wet body.

"I love you Annabeth."

I whimpered.

"I love you too, Percy."

<~~>

Feeling terrible lately. Hence the sadish oneshot.

Peace.