~•Chapter two~•
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"Is that the truth?!" I tried to hold my anger back but I know how dominant anger gets in my system. I stared at him expecting answers.

With mum behind me I fought the truth in my head.I didn't know a day would come when I would be this angry at dad. But putting aside my guilt,he totally deserves it.

From what I certified minutes or rather seconds ago, he happens to be the only one in approval of this divorce, he is the only one who hasn't altered the words sorry to anyone and yet he's been the one yelling.

Mum had come out of the blue to say that he has a mistress, and not just any mistress, The lawyer I was directed to. Mrs. Edmunds

"Ciara, listen to me, your mother has no idea what she is talking about, for god sake sweetie, she's holding an all too empty bottle of vodka in her hands. She's high in the head."

No way. He cant be serious right now. I wanted a simple yes or no, before I wanted any explanation. He shouldn't make the situation worse by stating the obvious.

"I may be drunk Mike but I can see clearly that you still love that woman! and you say I'm the bad one here? I will not let you make me look like a fool in the presence of our daughter. Much-less make you talk rubbish about me when you know you're the one with allot of things to hide Mike, why don't you tell your daughter the  truth and stop trying to run away. Do you still have feelings for Diane Edmund?"

I stared at him as he struggled with the truth. He couldn't hide that  mum's words were lies due to the fact that he avoided eye contact.

As I stared at him finding it hard to speak, I couldn't control my body. for the first time I  felt different. My pelvis began to ache, and my throat ran dry.

All liquid had ran up my system and had fallen into tears.

He gave me every reason to realize that everything was true; I didn't  need an answer to assure myself, and so did mum.

"I'll take that as a yes." she simply said and I saw her  walk out of the room. I knew it was difficult to know your husband had a mistress, and now he suddenly wants a divorce. of-course you would be forced to think he wants to be with her.

"Tell me it isn't true." I said beneath my hearing as he sighed out of frustration. I still hoped this sadness in me was just a phase, and I didn't really want what I felt in need off.

I wanted him to clear my thoughts just so I don't do what I  have learnt to stay away from along time ago. Anger. I can't let anger come to me again!

As i stood there in tears, and hopes for an answer, he only walks away from me, like I didn't deserve an explanation, like I didn't have a say to anything that's been happening. With just the words;

"We leave for the U.S by ten tomorrow after the court."

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"You see! nothing good ever comes out of that family! can you imagine?!" I was completely blunt at my environment when I sat on the furry comfort of Adams rug. 

I had arrived at his house few minutes ago after he picked me from the my house. Without emotions, I heard them argue endlessly and believe me or not I have never felt worse about about it.

I needed silence, I needed to be alone. Adam had promise me silence but you can't make a promise that easily when Esther happens to be concerned.

"You always act over dramatic about every thing." I heard Adam say above me,as he patted my hair in unison with his words and for once it didn't have any kind of impact on me.

Every action kept flashing back,every scene kept coming back as I stared at his aquarium without any emotions. The place I call a home was now washed into pieces and drowned in that evil, black ink of secrets. Terrible secrets that have led to this dreadful feeling in my stomach.

I never imagined.

"How exactly do expect me to react ? Mr. calm about everything that has to do with Lisa?" At this point I was trying to think of the best possible solution to the dreadful turn my life just took.

I would be leaving for the United States in five hours and I have no idea where to start, or who to go. I couldn't turn to this two, they can't even talk to themselves now.

As much as it pains me, they sound really stupid. They need to be responsible and help me because I really need it but, no. They are acting like children!

"Will you guys just shut it?!" I yelled suddenly, "I'm here expecting you two people to help me because my life is literally falling apart here! And instead I sit here listening to you doing the exact opposite, with your stupid arguments! And i am sick, and tired. Do you think its easy hearing your parents argue all day and come here listen to you argue like a sick married couple?! what difference does this make between you and my parents?!"

Their heads feel flat as I yell at them, and I purposely ignore the shock in their eyes. I may have never yelled at them before but I don't care.

I cant go through anymore yelling,and for the first time in my life I didn't want to see their faces. After all I would be leaving soon so whats the need of letting them make me feel worse?

"Junior were sorry-"

"No you're not sorry because i'm leaving you two so you can argue with yourselves! Because nothing I feel happens to matter anymore." With that I grabbed the car keys on the table my elbow was formally placed.

With my jacket in my hands I shut the door loudly behind me, but not without ignoring their objections. I knew exactly why they were so sudden and loud with their words, begging and pleading for me to stop, but driving isn't that hard.

"Ciara, you do realize you're about to do the most stupid thing this situation can take. You can't drive, who knows where you're going and you know its highly dangerous at night here. Don't be your own victim." Adam caught up to me.

"I can't afford to listen to you two anymore, you don't care about how I feel if you're going to ignore me the whole night, that was the last thing I needed." I yelled into the cold air that hugged my skin.

It was about to rain and due to position of Adams house, it wouldn't be an easy one. I didn't want to do that, I had no idea how to drive, the road was dangerous and I had no idea where to go or how to get there.

I was already feeling weak as the very cold air and rain drops pierced my bare skin.

"I'm sorry. But I'll manage." I was stupid, but I had to do it. I wanted to be alone and they weren't making it any easy for me to think.

I loved those two so much, and doing this would probably send daggers to their hearts, but I have to learn to do things without them, and I had to start now. If they cant stop my life from being a living hell, they can't stop me from this.......