"He cleared his throat, " I think it's time for me to say what has happened in my life and you need all the answers. Once I finish you can decide whether you want me or not. I..am fine with whatever you choose." He whispered the last words. " I trust you and I will be with you. I know what you gonna say. But I want your side of the story." I said to him and gave him a reassuring smile. I connected my hand with his. Boy, It was a perfect fit."

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She took my hand and connected our fingers. I can't help but think about how my hand engulfs hers. She gave me a reassuring smile which encourages me to say my story. I don't know whether she will stay with me like this once I finished mine.

" I don't know where to start...I did something I won't ever forgive myself and  what I put those people who care for me the most." I felt ashamed of myself and all I want to do right now is get out of here. Leave all behind and never return here. She is holding my hand like I am gonna disappear if she let free.

I bowed my head down but a hand lifted my chin. Then I felt a small wet kiss on my cheek which I didn't expect from her that too in public. My first kiss from her. I looked at her face and she held an emotion which I could judge. It's love, concern, hurt, understanding, and need.

Need to know about me.

" I know! When I was studying 12th grade I heard a story about a teenager who took drastic measures to take his life because he got cheated." She said those words which left me astonished.

I can relate it's about me but how could she know. I frown at her and she smiled at me.

" Yes, I know what others know but I think that's not the reason which made you do that. I want to hear your side of the story. The real one." She demanded me.

" You don't want to know. You will leave me once you heard mine. I don't want to get hurt. But...I think I'm already in deep shit than I thought." I said to her but she smiled at me.

" Do you really think I would leave you after I know about your past? A hell no! As you said I am already in deep shit than I thought with you." She said those words and blushed.

" Is that so?" I raised my eyebrows at her but we got disturbed when our orders came.

We were silent for a few minutes and it was calm and comfortable. I took a sip of my coffee and started.

" You know I dated like two girls in my life. The first one was puppy love. I didn't know anything about relationships. I just did that one for fun and it didn't last for more than 3 months." I chuckled remembering those times.

" Just three months?" She looked at me with a smug smile.

I just shrugged and said, " Well, I wasn't interested. I got into it because of my friends and I thought why not give it a try? but it was an utter failure."

" Hmm...just for fun. Good, what was her name?" She asked me.

" Do I smell jealousy?" I teased her but she glared at me.

" Okay, okay. Her name was Afra Begum." I said to her. She paused sipping her drink and looked at me.

" Afra? Muslim girl?" She questioned me.

" Yeah... She is. She was a beautiful girl but also very possessive and controlling. I didn't like it and too much of commitment." I said about her and she laughed at me.

I can't help but smile at her. She always makes everything simple and free without even trying. I felt light now and so I started speaking.

" After school, I joined my dream college PSG College of Technology in Coimbatore and took B.E in computer science and engineering. It's always my aim to join there and my interest was in the computer field. I'm good at studies so it was easy for me to get in." I said.

" Why PSG college was your dream college? And why not colleges here in Chennai." She asked with a confused look. She looked cute when she is confused.

" Bucket list and It's my birthplace. Mom is from Coimbatore and I used to spend my vacation there. So I decided why not?" I shrugged off and she rolled her eyes.

" Remain me to check your bucket list and I want to know, What's in the list." She said to me.

" Anything for you baby. But don't laugh at me." I said to her in a warning tone.

" No promises, Rithu". I rolled my eyes at her.

" I decided to live with our grandparents and everything was settled. My ex-girlfriend's name is Dharani. She was my classmate and we became friends. She introduced me to her other friends. Sanjay, Murali, Rithika, and Naveen. Rithika was in my department, the rest belongs to a different field." I went on with my story.

" I did have a few other friends Kamalesh and Shafar Ali. When I look back, they were the only true friends who stood by me. We three were close and spend time with each other more. One thing is that no one knows I'm rich and has an empire to run. I didn't like that. So That's also a reason for me to move over there. To be me, discover me and create my empire and not in my father's name."

" Dharani is a beautiful woman with everything. She was playful, jovial, free going, take it easy policy, independent girl, fashionist, rich, etc. You could say the perfect girl with the perfect body. "  I paused and looked at her she had an uncertain look.  I rubbed her hands with my thumb softly.

" What happened?" I asked her. She was silent and asked me to continue.

" What she lacked was a character. It's a very important thing for an individual. It decided who you are." I told her.

" She was always good to me. But not with Kamalesh and Shafar. She thought we all belong to middle-class people and maintained a 'hi-bye' friendship. Our first year of college was great and I had a good time with them and also realized I had a crush on Dharani. I didn't make a big deal out of it." I should have been with them. I sighed at my mistakes.

"  The second-year started and a new start. It was the same with projects, assignments, and business ideas." I continued.

" I met with an accident on the college campus and got a fractured hand. It was a fight between seniors and juniors. I was leading the group." I chuckled at remembering the fight.

" It was a petty issue regarding our rights in our department activities. But it led to fighting. Parents were called and dad came over there. That's when everyone got to know who I was and my cover was blown up. I was left off the hook but dad didn't and asked them to suspend me. For the way, I took my matters. Anyway, I was on complete bed rest. Kamal and shafar were there for me." They were with me all the time.

" We had our annual meeting in college and my dad was invited as chief guest and let's say the whole college came to know me. This had Dharani to take interest in me. She started to socialize with us but always avoided Kamal and Shafar. Dharani was attached to me most of the time" I said to her.

" We started partying a lot. Kamal and Shafar didn't like it, so they didn't involve. But that created distance between us. More new friends came in and as I was a teenager my thoughts started to deviate. I developed a drinking and smoking habit just to impress Dharani. It was stupid and I acted like one. We started to chat for hours with each other and developed a bubble for ourselves and she was interested in me. Or that's what I thought."

I took another sip and continued " Everything was good and I was exploring my new life. It was Naveen's birthday and his father was an MLA. So, he threw a party for us in a club. I was slightly drunk and so was Dharani. We were dancing and enjoying our time. I don't when but I had my first kiss from her and I was on cloud nine because my crush, the girl I like was kissing me." I said and looked at her. I know she was processing the information I had given her.

" From there we started our relationship. I spent more time with her, Doing all the teenagers were doing. I introduced her to my parents but they were not happy about her. Especially Amma, ...." I sighed at that thought. Shri smiled at me.

" Are you okay to continue?" She asked with so much concern. I don't know why but I kissed her forehead and said 'I'm fine'

" Ma, didn't like her and that's when Harish got married and I brought her home. But they kept quiet only for my happiness. I started to argue for her and started calling my parents names. That was my first fight with them for her. I was a different person back then. She was changing me differently. I barely passed my classes and my business ideas were long gone. I didn't have contact with any of my family. Even my grandparents." I said.

" I was in another world with her. Our relationship moved forward to the next step and I lost my...my virginity to her." I looked away from her.

I thought Shristi would move away from me but did the exact opposite she held my arms and rested her head on my shoulder. We were quiet for a few minutes.

" Then what happened?" Her voices were soft.

I wrapped my arms around her. It was comforting me, just having her in my arms gives unexplainable satisfaction.

I continued my story, " I started to fall for her hard. I dreamt myself marrying her and having children. I didn't return to Chennai once my finals were over. I stayed with her. It was Sanjay's birthday, he said we could try different this time and it was drugs."

" I didn't take it but others did. Even Dharani took it. That was my first fight with her. It got worse day by day. Once, she had me smoke weed and pot. I was fucking high and thought nothing but being high." I was ashamed of myself.

" I loved her so much. I would give anything and everything. I bought everything for her. Harish didn't like it and so he blocked my card. I fought with him also. I was limited with money. Dharani didn't like that and started to talk about my family. That made me lose my temper with her and we had a gap with a lack of communication. But I thought we are going through some rough times and we will come around. After a long time, I met Kamalesh and Shafar. They said that they saw Dharani with Sanjay. But I fought with them for her. Soon I was hearing different stories about her. But I was again stupid and the idiot who believed in her." I closed my eyes to calm down.

" Our relationship became different. I didn't feel the love from her. I tried harder to make her happy. Be with me and try to mend our relationship. We had another argument and I didn't speak with her for a few days."

" Rithika was a sweet and humble girl. I still can't figure out how she was friends with dharani. I was in my class but Dharani was not there. Soon it was lunchtime. Rithika asked me if she could talk with me for a few minutes. Then we made our way to the library. She said to me that Dharani was cheating on me and she was just with me for my money and no more." I gave an awkward chuckle.

" And the stupid me didn't believe her. And then she put some sense into my head. Why would her best friend talk bad like that? This made me realize what people were saying. I can't comprehend what was the truth and lie. I moved away from her and reached the last section of the library." I inhaled deeply and waited for a few seconds and continued. I started to relive that moment.

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At the library.......

I couldn't believe what Rithika said to me. But then Why would she lie to me. Was Dhari lying to me? No-no-no. Don't think stupidly. She is my girl. She won't do anything like that. We will overcome this and start our new life. I love her and the proof was we made love with each other. How will everything be a lie? For the past few months, I hear things like Dharani is cheating on me. What is wrong with these people? Even Kamal and Shafar said that to me. I was too busy thinking but a familiar voice caught my attention.

"Well, how was your appointment with your doctor yesterday? Everything is fine right?" Sanjay asked someone.

" Fine. But I was scared. I took complete rest and I wanted to see you. That idiot Mrithun can't understand what space means. He is like a puppy following me everywhere." It was Dharani who said that. I waited to know what they were up to.

" That he is, baby." Sanjay said to her and I heard a shuffling sound.

" when are you breaking up with him? I can't wait to have you. Since he came into your life you didn't notice me." Sanjay said and I heard a kissing sound. I held my fist so tight.

" He was better than you and was great in bed. He showed me love but who wants that. He had good money and I had a great time with him." Dharani said. I can't believe what I am hearing. What the fuck she is thinking about me. I am controlling my anger.

" Oh...really. Then I should show you how good I am and I was." I heard that bastard mumble.

" No, I can't until I break up with him. So you have to wait, mister." She said in a slutty voice and I cringed at it.

" Are you gonna say that you were pregnant with his baby or not?" Sanjay said and my world stopped at that moment. She was pregnant? What the fuck?

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Authors note

Wow...what a chapter. Dharani was pregnant with Mrithun's Baby. What might be the reason for her to cheat on him?

Wait for the rest of his story and Mrithun's suicide attempt.

Stay safe and happy

#loveyourself😎

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