So this is me.....not much here. It's saddening. I don't like to talk about it but when I get on a roll I don't stop. Ask Erika. Who already hates my biological father. A lot of you probably will too after this.

Well, I was born exactly a week before 9/11 happened which I'm not a big fan of. September 4, 2001. I came into the world. I wasn't a small baby but I was big either. I had to spend an extra week in the hospital because I wasn't doing very well. I never got to see my Grammy because she was dealing with breast cancer. All the Chemo and radiation would've hurt little old me. When I was 6 months old she died because of it. I never really knew her but I still miss her.

I was about 15 months old when my father first started trying to hit me. I apparently wasn't listening to him so he wanted to beat me into next week. Luckily my mom stopped him and about a year later their divorce became finalized. A lot of people don't like how my mom left. She just packed everything up while he was at work. She did this because his previous wife. My big Brothers mom. When she told him she was leaving and taking my brother, he went ballistic and threw her up against a breaker box. That stayed broken all my life.

When I was 2 my sister used me as a battering ram. She wasn't getting everything about the divorce. She locked herself in our room and wanted to get out. I was the only thing in that room. So I was used.

Years passed and I was scared to go to my fathers. He always had spiders in the house. His cooking sucked. I would be woken by my baby brother. Who was so kindly c-sectioned on his mother's birthday. 3 days before mine. So from the time he was born to when I was 14 we had to share a cake. And it wasn't even a cake because he hated cake. He got everything. He chose where we went for our birthdays all but one year and it was the last I went. It was hell. I never got anything and if I did it wasn't much.

When I was 6 I busted my chin open on the bottom of the pool and that ended my swimming. I was on the swim team. I can still swim just not as well as I could've.

School. I was a loner. I never really had friends. The only two that stayed with me was a friend that my father introduced me too and a girl who was in my Kindergarten class. They most of the way stayed that way till 4th grade. Then it was just one. And then I moved to a completely different state.

By then I had gotten used to the slaps upside the head for no reason from my father. He treated me and my sister like trash. My older brother had stopped coming making him upset. He took it out on me and my sister. Then my sister stopped coming and it was just me and my little brother. And in 2012 his trailer burned down. We borrowed a house from a friend that was selling for a few months. People had donated stuff to us. I had a mattress and box spring in the middle of a room. I slept on that for a few months. Then someone bought the house and we had to move out. By that time he had found another girlfriend. We started to live with her. My brother had a room and her daughter and granddaughter shared the other. I had no room. No bed. I slept on the couch by the front door. They had my bed from the old house. But then her daughter used it for her and her boyfriend at the time. I again had no bed. I woke to every little thing. Living in the worst part of the city near a front door not a smart idea. Her daughter would come home at ungodly hours of the night. I had to get up a few time and unlock the door for her because she couldn't get her keys in the door. I had to listen to every little thing. I once got woken up to the daughter and her fiancé have damn sex. I thought I was going to puke right then and there. I'm still scarred. I didn't have a bed for 3 years of being there. 3 years of living there and I slept on the couch every night. I stopped going. The head slaps had gotten a little less but they were there along with all the yelling.

My mom met another guy in 2009. He is now my dad and I have my step brother. He's more of a dad than that bastard will ever be.

I have all of you guys. I have my beautiful girlfriend The_Christine_Daae. I am happy the way I am now. I am happy that I have you guys. I probably wouldn't be here if it wasn't for you guys. The_Christine_Daae I love you. I know you're kinda depressed right now and this probably didn't help but I love you. I love you so much.