Now guys I know most of my stuff is happy or when I'm upset and I start posting. Today is not going to be that happy post. I'm going to tell you about some things that may end up making you pity me. I don't want it. I live with this everyday. I try to be a happy person and sometimes I'm not. I'm on one of those jags when I'm not.

Broadway saved my life. Finding Sierra Boggess, saved my life. I was depressed then and I had to figure a way out. It was 7th grade year. My Choir teacher showed a video clip of someone singing Part of your World. I didn't know at the time that it was Sierra Boggess but I started looking up videos and found the same one that I had watched in choir. It showed her name and I looked her up. After I looked her up I became obsessed with Broadway shows. I started working harder on my singing. My dream had changed from a Chef to a Broadway star. My life changed that day. My world became bright again. Now I'm in one of my dark spots. I think about what everything I want to accomplish and what I have.

I showed my biological father that I can make it. I can make it. Everyone can make it.

Finding Sierra Boggess changed my life for the better.

I'm bringing this up because my nerves today in choir got to me. I was singing a solo and I stuttered........like a maniac. I couldn't get back on the solo until the end. I started thinking I can't make it. I'm not good enough. I'm useless. I'm still thinking that. After school I have my first voice lessons of the year and it's with one of my Choir  teachers. He is going to yell at me for stuttering today. I know he will. He will push me.......I can't help it. Stage fright is real. I don't have my headphones to listen to Sierra Boggess. I don't have my headphones to make me happy again. I can't play music. Music is my life. My family knows this. It's why they won't bother me when I'm singing. I need something to cheer me up. I'll find another way. And I just want to thank

Erika_Destler
ErikPhantom
The_Christine_Daae
Epius1832
EvitaChristine
PhantomGirl321
And finally
bjscharacters

For helping me through it. These people help me on my worst days. Thank you. Everybody.