Family.

No matter what anyone faces, there is always a set of people who will forever care and those people are family. Family might not only be one's parents and siblings, but friends can also be one's family. And I was too selfish and all in my head that I forgot my family.

I spent a couple of days alone in my ward before visiting was allowed. My parents were seriously worried and sad, they were hurt. My mom cried and begged me to please not leave her alone in the world. I couldn't help but cry also, I felt really bad and terrible. They tried to reassure me that I was beautiful the way I was and didn't need to lose some weight. That, my beauty was my fat. I tried hard to listen to them and reassure myself also, but their words didn't really sink in. It was like my mind was made-up. My next means was planned, set, and ready. I was going to go for surgery and my dad was going to pay. I didn't tell them my plan, but I had it deep in my mind.

Set and ready.