Tw: self-deprecation

Is it...selfish to feel like this...?
Is it selfish to want to do this...?
....
It's nothing too bad I promise....
At least... compared to y'know...

I just want to see how the others would react if I were to.... dissappear for a couple days...
Months.... maybe even years.... yeah, years would be nice....

Just to see how much happier they would be.....

Because trust me they would!

Especially Logan.....
Surely he's sick of me....
I am!
So he has to be....
Especially with the constant puns... and the stupidity.... and all the feelings......

Roman probably hates me..

And virgil.....
The amount of things I've done to virgil....
The whole babying thing....
I cant apologise enough for that......

God! How am I supposed to
Keep Thomas a good person.. if I'm not one.......

I shouldn’t of written  this....
This is selfish....
I'll probably rip the page out or something.... it really doesn't matter....
I'm probably fine....
I'm probably just doing this for attention...
I'm just.... selfish....

~The Happy Pappy Father Figure, Patton Sanders