*Y/N's P. O. V. *

~Several Days Later~

Most wholesome break-up ever.

That is what the public's opinion is with mine and Patrick's break-up few days ago and I have to say that that puts a bittersweet  smile to my face.

We announced it by posting a brief video of us telling everyone that we're calling it quits. Both of us made sure that the video is straightforward and lighthearted, we explained the fake reason why we're breaking up which is just your usual we need time for each other and our careers and things like that. We clarified that nothing bad and negative happened, that we'll still work with each other in the future and that we don't hate each other in any shape or form. The video was actually funny, but if you're someone following our story, it could really make you tear up.

Thankfully, our fans have accepted it immediately and gave out no hate to anyone. Everyone was sending their crying and brokenheart emojis because our ship has sunken down. Some are also saying a lot of hopeful things that maybe we will work out in the future, but I try to avoid reading those as much as I can.

I still have my own hopes up and hanging, that'll already take a while to bring down. I don't want anyone adding up to that hope anymore.

Patrick and I also said our goodbyes and goodlucks to each other after that. I managed to not look so hurt about it and thankfully, I pulled it off. Patrick seemed to be doing the same thing, but I think he's really better at it than me.

We promised to keep in touch and still stay as friends of course. It was bittersweet, but I'm really finding myself wishing we could stay together longer.

For now, I decided to take a roadtrip with myself. I honestly don't have a destination, just planing to drive state to state while alone in my van. I needed the silence and vacation so I can also think about what to do after this.

I'm currently driving on these long roads when I decided to turn on my radio. I'm trying to find new music to listen to so I could get some inspiration for future projects. I adjusted the stations, briefly hearing songs and broadcasts as I turn it.

"So, Patrick, since earlier you allowed us to ask you some questions about this and is still open about it, what's your thoughts about the fans calling it 'the most wholesome breakup ever'?" I suddenly heard from the radio.

I just remembered that my manager said that Patrick will have a radio interview today, but I had no idea that the topic will get to this. I don't blame the station though, it's the juicy news of the week. At least, they asked Patrick's if they can ask him this before the interview.

I heard Patrick chuckle which made me smile, I hate that he affects me this much now.

"You know, I'm happy that they call it that. Y/N and I never really want to give out any negative energy with that announcement and them calling it wholesome says that we both handled the breakup and announcement well. We genuinely just want them to know what's up and I'm glad they all took it well," he answered.

"I saw the video and I have to tell you that I cried a bit. I do agree though, you both handled it well and it's the most mature breakup I've ever seen. I'm hoping the best for the two of you," the interviewer replied.

I feel guilty that all that was only a lie. Just something fake to get genuine emotions from people like this. I'm now feeling dirty that I did this, but it's all been done now. As long as we both take this secret to our graves, we'll be good.

"Y/N and I have really thought that through. It was a mutual decision and there was never hate or anything like that. We ended on good terms, we're still friends and still open to work on future projects. But honestly, I don't want to call it an ending. Maybe just think of this as a season finale, the whole story is not done, we'll only be entering a new season," Patrick said and I caught myself nodding at his thought.

"Very well said, Patrick. Well, we have kept you here for a long time already, but let me just ask you this fan submitted question if you dont mind," the interviewer said.

"Sure, ask ahead."

"Okay, a fan submitted this question on our Twitter. She first said 'I'm really sad about their breakup but I respect their decisions with all my heart, but can you just ask this question to Patrick, even if this will be the last question about Y/N in ever...' and then asked,  'If you can describe Y/N in one word, what word will it be?'"

My heart beat sped up after hearing that question. I know this is so stupid to listen to right now because this will only end in one way - me feeling some unsolicited heartache.

"Wow, that's a powerful question," Patrick said, I could hear him smiling genuinely.

"It really is but it seems like everyone is now curious. Of course, if you're not comfortable, you have the option not to answer, but if you do want to answer...what one word will you use to describe Y/N?" he asked again.

Silence was up for some moments and for some reason, everything around me is slowing down. I'm eagerly waiting for that answer which will obviously make my moving on process a lot harder.

"Home." he answered.

I wasn't able to hold back an audible whimper while having a wide bitter smile on my face. Tears were quick to build up in my eyes that I had to pull up on the side of the road to compose myself, "I hate you for saying stuff like this, Stump," I whispered to myself.

It hurts more because I know that there was a chance. I know Patrick also feels the same way about me, but he's holding back...a lot. I could feel that he wanted the very same thing that I wanted, but he couldn't just let me in, he wouldn't let me in.

It's unfair thus making this more hurtful and frustrating, I never failed to always let him know that he could trust me...but I guess he really had enough of this serious relationship stuff.

But even with these thoughts, I couldn't bring myself to blame the guy. Past experiences broke him enough to this point, it's just a shame that I wasn't enough to change him back. I'll never be someone that could make him reconsider this.

And I can't do anything now but to live with that fact.

A/N: 🙃
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