*Patrick's P. O. V. *

That does it.

I've had enough.

I was lucky that I was assigned to someone like Y/N. I was lucky that she was always trying to make things equal even if some of her crew and most people at the recording label treats me nothing like a slave. I know. I'm well-aware of that but I was programmed not to complain, programmed to just accept it, programmed to be satisfied to do their commands.

But I won't tolerate this violent attacks anymore...not when she's getting involved.

That night was painful. No. Not because I was shot multiple times, but because I saw her suffering. I understood fear that night because of her eyes, and I never wanted to see her having those again emotions again. She didn't deserve it and that monster who caused her to feel that doesn't deserve to live anymore.

Adding to that was the fact that she heard the way those human destroyed me with no hesitation. No a chance was given to me to explain. Nothing. I was just kneeling there and gunshot after gunshot came until I was forced to shut off without having the chance to defend myself.

This is what we have to go through.

But I've had enough. I'm not having this anymore.

Somehow, I managed to force my systems to come back and the moment I was conscious again, I realized that I'm already at a junkyard - a big empty dumphole for broken androids. It was deep in the night and rain was heavily pouring down. My synthethic body was 80% destroyed, but I pushed through.

I got up, I searched for parts that I could replace mine with and I did it without stopping. Doing this made me change my appearance a little but I didn't mind it because I need that so they won't recognize me again. I also decided to get a more human clothes and not this uniform, I changed my hair color to a dark one and I forecefully removed the LED light on my temple. After that, I managed to get myself running efficiently again. It was nowhere perfect, but I have no other choice now.

As I was making my way out of the junkyard when broken androids around me began to say 'Go to Jericho'. I've heard of that place before...it was a safehaven for androids. I noted that on my system, but before I decided to search for it...I need to go back to her. It's been two days already...I need to make sure she's okay.

I cautiously made my way back to the places where she could be but there was no trace of her everywhere - not at the station, not at penthouse, not at her home, not in the hospital. There's only one more place where I could check so I decided to head there immediately.

As I was nearing the studio, I can see familiar faces...sad faces. Fortunately, they were too focused on their emotions that no one was able to recognize me. My compromised appearance may have also helped to avoid the recognition. I continued to go near the studio just to see more people - it was her fans...and they were crying.

Why?

Finally, I saw something...I saw the answer to my question but I didn't want to believe it. It can't be.

'In loving memory of Y/N Y/L/N. You will be missed.'

I think my systems are beginning to malfunction again. I'm failing to understand anything now...I feel like shutting down again.

"Thank you all for coming here. I know most of you are still wondering what really happened...it went all too fast," suddenly, Y/N's stage manager went out of the studio and she began to talk to the fans loudly. They were all crying already, "I know it's hard to believe but what the news reports say are true...Y/N, she couldn't handle the trauma that her android made her suffer through. It assaulted her and it affected Y/N to an extreme emotional level...we tried our best...but yesterday, we found her at her room with a note. She couldn't handle it, the shock, the fear, the broken trust. Our poor princess, she took it upon herself to end the emotional suffering ----

By then I stopped listening...I know some part of her story wasn't true. I wasn't the one who assaulted her, but the emotional after she'd have after that... I know there's a big possibility that she would really feel that. Eli almost took her innocence that night, she saw me getting shot at again...she heard me getting destroyed for real this time, probably believing I won't come back again.

Y/N did......she gave in......and I wasn't there to save her. I wasn't there to tell her everything will be fine like she always do to me.

She's gone and it's partly because of me.

I've lost her without having the chance to do anything.

*Y/N's P. O. V. *

~~~2 months Later~~~

My name is Patricia...and I currently have Psychogenic Amnesia.

Those are the first two things that I learned the moment I woke up in a hospital two months ago. I couldn't remember anything about me - who I am, why I was in the hospital, what happened to me. Nothing. I just woke up like felt like a blank paper. I couldn't remember anything.

Only two people were there the moment I woke up, it was my doctor and Eli, my supposed fiancé. I was in panic the moment I gained my consciousness back, I kept on asking but I didn't get any more information from them. The doctor said that's for the better. They just told me my name and my condition then Eli introduced himself to me - that was all that happened. But slowly as I recovered, Eli began to tell me the story piece by piece.

To sum it up. Androids exists, recently some of them were getting errors and becoming violent, and then one attacked me, not for a physical injury though. One tried to sexually assault me. The doctor explained that the sudden shock and trauma from that event resulted to this Psychogenic Amnesia. It was a coping mechanism, in other words.

Eli showed me the reports of the incident and it really seemed bad, besides, I wouldn't have this condition if it wasn't, right?

For two months, I have done nothing but to try to recover from this. I somehow wanted to remember but nothing seems to be working, I'm still so lost but thankfully, Eli was there to guide me. He slowly tells me things about myself and I'm glad that he's there. He also suggested that I should take a break from the city life and so now I'm here at a rural part of the state, living a quiet life in this mansion.

Eli often leaves since his presence is needed at CyberLife, most especially now that the tension between the humans and these dangerous androids is increasing. I just hope that they figure out something soon, or better yet, they agree to shut off all androids once and for all just to avoid this war...but I guess that's hard to do now.

I honestly don't know how to feel about this though. I know I should be angry, I know I should be against these androids because of what supposedly happened to me, but I feel...nothing, or maybe lost? I really don't. I just hope that my memories will come back soon, surely that'll help me decide.

~~~10 months later~~~

No memories have come back and I don't know if I'm going to be thankful for that or not. Of course, I wouldn't want that traumatic memory to come back, but somehow, I feel so lost without it. I also feel like a stranger to myself, even my face seems so unfamiliar to me. But I guess I can't do anything now.

I've done a lot of therapy, started medications, everything...but still nothing. All I have was stories from Eli and pictures from my past. Unfortunately, I don't have any more relatives so I can't rely on that, he was everything I have, so now he's giving me all information that he can.

Other than that, I can say that I'm doing great. Eli was always there to support me and he even encouraged me to learn more about androids - their structure, systems, and almost everything. He said I needed a hobby so this is what he gave me and honestly? I kinda enjoy it. I can say that I'm a fast learner and mostly learned everything now, besides it was like I was his apprentice. He's at the top of his game and he teaches me all of those things and now we're helping each other eliminate the problem of deviancy slowly.

I also appreciate the fact that he's not hurrying our marriage. Even if we're already engaged, he wasn't pushing me and he always tell me that we'll just do it if I'm ready. Truth be told, I still don't know, but I really do appreciate him for doing this.

By now, I'm just occupied with learning more about androids and coming up with a solution to end the problem, especially now that the deviants are more active in their acts of revolution. Violence is already happening and we need to stop that now...and of course, I have to be on the side of the humans.

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Sorry for not updating for a few days.

And sorry if this seemed cliché, but trust me more exciting things will come to this mini fanfic. So stay tuned!

Anyways, thanks for reading!

Love y'all.