Imagine #37: Everybody Wants Somebody Who Doesn't Want Them (Part 6)  

*Patrick's P.O.V.*

Y/N introduced her boyfriend to us for the first time. He's in Chicago now to visit Y/N and I found out they've been together for almost 6 months. He seems a funny and nice guy, but what's important is Y/N is happy with him. That's all that matters to me now.

My Soul Punk tour has ended last week, but still, we've kept in touch with each other as always. I didn't confess to her, but I know after that one particular show where I played that one special song of mine, she had an idea of what's going on with me. Of course, I stopped myself to continuously like her, hold myself back and respect her relationship...besides, I'll come out as a jerk again if I confessed it'll be like I'm playing her again, so I just chose to keep it inside...but I can't deny that I really love her now.

We're all currently at Pete's, it's supposed to be our group's night out, but Y/N can't stay since she has a date with her boyfriend. She just came here for a while so she can introduce him.

"I'm really sorry, guys. Jon also surprised me with his visit! I'll just make it up to you." Y/N told us and of course, we said it's okay. I'm actually a little disappointed, I thought she'll be with us tonight, but who am I to stop her?

"Sorry if it seems I'm taking her away." her boyfriend said and again, we disagreed and told him it's okay.

"I'm just going to the bathroom for a while. I'll meet you out, Jon." Y/N said and head over to the bathroom.

"I'll show you out," I said politely to her boyfriend and walked with him out of the house.

"She's lucky to have a best friend like you," he suddenly said with a smile that shocked me.

"I like to think I'm the lucky one for having her as a best friend. That girl is a rare gem, I'm lucky to have someone like that close to me." I said with a smile and I had to stop myself before I can say anything more. "So, you're really lucky to be her boyfriend," I said. 

Suddenly, he chuckled. It was a happy but sad chuckle.

"I am and I feel so honored, but I do think, I'm becoming a hindrance now," he said and I really don't understand him. "I appreciate her so much and I'm happy with the time she spent with me...but now, I'll think I'll initiate a change in her life because it seems like she's a bit lost and confused now." he continued and I just looked at him, puzzled.

"I...don't really understand what you're saying," I truthfully said and he smiled at me. He tapped my back as if telling me good luck.

"Take care of her, okay? Just give me this one more night." he said.

"Heeey! Let's g--- Oh, hey, Patrick!" Y/N suddenly appeared and is it just me or is there a change of tone when she called my name?

Y/N looked at me with an apologetic and guilty gaze...and really, I don't understand why. I'm just in a confused state right now. "Hey, have a good night, okay?" I told them as I just decided to go back inside the house.

Soon enough, they both went off with their car and I was still left while being so confused. I really don't want to think about this because I may just be assuming it, but is he planning to let her go...to lead Y/N back to me?

That would be impossible? But deep inside, maybe, just maybe, I was hoping for that.

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*Y/N's P.O.V.*

I hate that I'm back in this state again, telling myself I don't feel anything more for this guy - Patrick. 

I knew I've moved on, I knew that I was done...but why is it all coming back again. I thought it'll be okay if I came back, but things have been the way it used to be again and it's currently confusing the hell out of me. Most especially now that I have a boyfriend and Patrick is hinting something to me, and I know this time...it's not a white lie anymore.

I hate this because somehow I feel like I'm cheating.

My boyfriend and I met when I went away from the boys for a while and we became together officially by then. I really do love him and appreciate him up until now, it's just that something has happened again and my old feelings are being lightened up even if I don't want to. Seems like it's a fire that I can never put off.

I actually want to be honest with my boyfriend and planning to tell him...actually, I really need to tell him because I don't know what to do anymore. I just became distracted for a while because he surprised visit me here in Chicago. IT was honestly sweet of him to do this, but this may also be a sign for me to tell him and I promised myself that I will.

But honestly, I feel like he's the one that wants to tell me something since he got here.

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"Thank you for this, Jon. I really didn't expect you to be here." I told him after we ate at this fancy restaurant.

"It's nothing really, Y/N," he said, he's just looking at me and I just know he's been dying to tell me something.

"Tell me honestly, why did you come here?" I asked him, I wasn't angry...it's more like a very curious question.

"To lead you back where you truly belong?" he answered and that just made me more curious. Jon chuckled and suddenly he held my hand that was on the table. "I really am honored to be a part of your life, Y/N and I tell you, you're really one of a kind. I know you loved me too and I'm really thankful for that, dear."

"Jon, what are you --

"I'm not angry, Y/N...but I know, I just know that it's still there, right? You know what I'm talking about...your feelings towards Patrick," he said with a smile. I know he wasn't lying, he's not angry which really makes me feel guilty.

I didn't realize that my tears just fell from my eyes by then. I feel like I've betrayed him.

"I-I'm sorry, I didn't understand either. I moved on from him, I thought that'll stay like that...and after what happened before, I thought I'll have enough. I...I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you." I told him with my shaking voice and he chuckled lowly, wiping my tears away.

"Don't say sorry, you have nothing to apologize for. And, Y/N, I know you moved on back then...but I also knew it'll just be a temporary distraction. Honestly, I think you can never put off that kind of love even how hard you try. It's like you've just paused a game back then...but then when you came back, it resumed." he stated and I was just listening to him. "I honestly find it beautiful and I think you should get back to this fully, Y/N. I won't hold you back, I'm choosing not to hold you back. Besides, I know this time that guy is totally in love with you for real. I've seen the way he looks at you." he continued.

"I hate you for being like this, I'm feeling all guilty," I said and made a sound between a chuckle and a whimper as I wipe my tears away.

"Why are you guilty? Come on! Actually, you've also made it all easy for me. I was honestly thinking of letting you go too because things have been going busy for me...and I seriously think that I'll want to lay low on this. I'm the guilty one here, Y/N...I just gathered another reason so I don't seem like a douche." he joked and we both chuckled with that. "But that serious, besides, I don't want to continue this with all that's happening around me, I'll just hurt if that happens so now, I'm giving you back where you truly belong," he stated.

"Then we'll think of this as a mutual decision, then," I said with a smile. He really did solve everything.

"That's actually it, Y/N. Thank you for everything, and I just came here to do this properly. I never want to be a douche to do this over a phone." he explained.

"I know, Jon. Thanks for the memories too." I told him and with that, it's like we've promised each other to keep in touch and continue to be friends.

And honestly, this night ended better than I thought.

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*Patrick's P.O.V.*

"Hey, Stump. You're a bit quiet. Something wrong?" Pete suddenly asked me. He's right I really am quiet, maybe because of what happened earlier when Y/N's boyfriend talked to me or I'm just disappointed that Y/N is not here.

"Nah, I'm fine," I told them, I know they're all looking at me worriedly...besides, they know about my feelings for Y/N now.

"You miss her, don't you?" Andy suddenly asked.

"Psh! We're always seeing each other on a daily basis, why will I...

"You need her, don't you?" Joe asked which caught me off guard. This guy is really straightforward. "And you're disappointed that --

"No, of course not," I said on my defense quickly which actually gave away the fact that I'm lying when I said that.

I sighed and looked at the clock, it's almost 3 in the morning. She's probably back to her apartment now or maybe they're together, and I SHOULD REALLY STOP THINKING ABOUT HER! GOD, I WANT TO SCREAM RIGHT NOW BECAUSE I'M FEELING JEALOUS EVEN IF I DON'T WANT TO!

"Patrick, are you really sure you're okay...you can call Y/N to ask if she's alri---

"I SAID I'M FINE!" I shouted that really came out loud and I even stood up. Their eyes landed on me worriedly and I immediately felt guilty for shouting at them. "I-I'll just get some fresh air for a while," I said and walked out of the house.

I walked by the garden, trying to calm myself down. I don't understand why I'm like this, it feels like I'm nervous, I'm jealous, I'm curious, I'm disappointed, and everything! It's like every emotion is mixing up that I might just throw up here. But suddenly, the feeling of nervousness is getting stronger now and when my phone suddenly rang, I really jumped in shock. I immediately picked up my phone.

"Is this Mr. Patrick Stumph?" a girl on the other line said.

"Yes, who's this?" I asked, suddenly my heart began racing.

"You're  listed as the emergency contact person of Ms. Y/N Y/L/N and I would like to inform you that Ms. Y/L/N is in the hospital right now and on a critical condition. She was involved in a car pile up near the main streets. Please get here as soon as you can." she said and told me the name of the hospital.

I think I'm lucky I was still able to understand the name of the hospital...because the moment I heard Y/N had an accident and on a critical condition...everything just went spinning that I almost blackout.

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