Imagine #36: Everybody Wants Somebody Who Doesn't Want Them (Part 5)  

*Patrick's P.O.V.*

It has been a week since Y/N had gone back and everything became normal again, it's like she never went away. I'm honestly happy with that because we're still the best friends like we are before and it's like nothing happened, I really appreciate that, but of course, I promise I'll never fool her again like that.

I'm currently having a tour for my Soul Punk album that had been released last month and everything is just amazing, and now that Y/N is back and volunteered to be one of my guitar techs, I think it just got better. I'll have more time to spend with her now.

"Hey, it's my day off now, want to go out for a while?" I asked. We are currently in New York for a show but now is our free time.

"Yeah, sure! Just like the old times." she excitedly said and with that, we went out.

We just went to drive around the big city, we never really get a chance to fully go around the place since we're always busy when we're here. We also grabbed some snacks along the way while sharing talks and laughs with each other. We both decided to go to one of the biggest amusement parks here in New York and just let loose our child self.

We're actually having the time of our lives here and I'm glad not many people have been recognizing me, well, since I really lost a lot of weight and my hair is super blonde right now. At least, I got to spend my time just with Y/N now. We went to the park, just trying all the rides we can try, taking all the wacky pictures we can and it's like we've made up the year we were separated.

Once in a while I also find myself stuck staring at her, and I'm really doing my best not to do that...I know I'm feeling something for her now and I have to stop it, I just know it won't work...not after what I did to her.

"It's about to get dark, Patrick. Just one more ride then let's head back? You still have a show tomorrow, they'll kill us if you tire yourself out today." Y/N stated with a chuckle and I agree with her.

"Let's go that for Ferris Wheel, then," I suggested and we both went there.

Soon enough, we're both sitting side to side while riding the Ferris Wheel. I really love this time of the day, it's about sunset and the sky is orange. It was just so relaxing and after this happy day, I think this is the best way to end it.

"I really missed you, Y/N. I'm really happy you came back." I suddenly murmured while looking at her.

"I promised, didn't I? And I really missed you too, Stump even with all that," she said with a cute giggle and here I am again, feeling something tugging my heart as I stare at her. "Let's just forget that, Patrick and continued on with this perfect friendship we have...this is all I could really wish for." she continued.

"Y-yeah. Same here." I said, but I know somehow...there's a hint of a lie in what I just told her.

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I'm actually thinking that her being a part of the Soul Punk tour is a bad thing...a bad thing for me, because I'm continuously getting more attached to her. 

I know this is a different kind of attachment, it wasn't like before when the band was together. I just know this is different. I am falling in love with my best friend now, I just know it.

I really tried to stop myself, but how could I? I just hated it because it all came to me too late! Why now? After what had happened...why now?! I've been really frustrated for the last few days, I couldn't even be with her without my heart beating so fast. And I just realize this what she was feeling for me before and she kept that for too long and the moment she confessed I just lied to her, it's really a douchey move.

But now I'm thinking of confessing to her, I don't know! I just want to tell her! It's been months since she came back and since then I just know it's always her that I'm always looking for. 

I know it may be a douchey move for me again, I don't know if she'll believe me again, but now I really am sincere...I just want to tell her.

I have a show tonight and I plan to tell her before it started and now I'm pacing back and forth in my dressing room, I'm really nervous now! "Okay, Stump! Just get it over with!" I told myself and went out to go to the staff room. I knocked gently, but no one opened the door for me so I turned the knob and opened it, thankfully Y/N was the only one inside and she seems to be on her phone.

"Yeah, sure. I miss you too!" Y/N said cutely on the phone as she giggled. She sounded so sweet and her laugh was different. "Can't wait to see you soon again! I love you too, Jon." she murmured and suddenly I became weak and stared at her dumbfoundedly. This is it, it's my karma. Now she loves another person too.

It's official then, this will never work out.

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*Y/N's P.O.V.*

'I'm just hallucinating it, there's nothing going on with Patrick! Yeah, I'm just hallucinating it!'

Those words have become my mantra for the past few days because I don't even know what to think anymore. Patrick's acting different, and I don't want that kind of different now. I can see him extra caring for me, I can see him making extra efforts for me, and I can see the way he looks at me...I don't know what's he's doing to me, but as far as I know, I'm not ready for this...and I stopped myself from being ready for this. I was done already, but now this?

I never want this to happen, I thought it was over, but now something is happening again, and I really don't want it to happen again. Besides, I don't want to hurt Patrick...and also, I have a boyfriend now.

I met him during the time I went away from the band, he's a YouTuber famously known as JonTron {Hallelujah! Holy Sheit! Love you guys if you know him!}  We just started dating a month ago, I was really meaning to tell the news to my friends soon. Also, I'm not doing this to hurt anyone...it's just that I moved on and now have another love interest.

Jon just called, but I told him I have to go since Patrick have a show tonight. The moment I hung up and turned around, I was shocked to see Patrick by the door.

"Hey, how long have you been there?" I asked with a smile.

"I...I just entered when you put down your phone. I just came here to...uh...tell you something." he said while stuttering. He couldn't even look at me straight now. "I would just like to thank you...I mean for being here in the Soul Punk tour. It really means a lot." he said with a chuckle.

"Awww, my best friend is getting emotional." I teased him, going in front of him then hugging him. "It's my pleasure, Patrick. Besides, that's why we're here for each other right? To be the annoying but supportive best friend to each other." I said while we hug.

"Y-yes...annoying and supportive best friend indeed," he said lowly and I suddenly felt him hugged me a little tighter as if gesturing that he doesn't want to let go anytime sooner.

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"You're all wonderful tonight! Thank you for being here!" Patrick said as he's down to his last song for the crowd tonight. I was by the VIP area, just watching him as always.

"Now that I'm down to my last song, and actually this is the first time I'll be performing it live so I think you guys would love to know why I made it." he said with a cute chuckle. "Everybody Wants Somebody is a song that really speaks to me, most especially now. It's conveying a sad truth about how people would fall for someone that already wants somebody else. And really it's sad and the thing you can only do is...don't get hurt. It's really ironic for me to be saying this because I've done a terrible thing before that is connected to all of this and I think I am the only one that deserves to be in this situation now." Patrick said and I found myself staring at him, this is actually breaking my heart.

The music started after that and my eyes were just fixed on him.

"I, tonight? I feel like being alone.

If you don't mind, if you don't mind
Would you please be so kind
To close the door behind you.

It's been a long, long time
Since I've had this line of doubt out loud.

So I, tonight? I feel like...
I feel like...I feel, baby now" Patrick sang passionately and I am feeling all the words in this song.

"EVERYBODY WANTS SOMEBODY

WHO DOESN'T WANT THEM,
WHO WANT SOMEBODY ELSE, BABY
You want somebody?
Oh, you want someone?
Somebody else, somebody else
Listen now,
Don't get hurt, DON'T YOU GET HURT
Don't get hurt, don't you get.
Don't get hurt,  DON'T YOU GET HURT  
Don't get hurt, don't you get." He continued to the chorus. He was looking at me once in a while and I know it's about me. He probably heard me earlier. Somehow I felt a tear fell from my eyes.

I wasn't just hallucinating then...but why on earth is this all happening in a wrong time?!

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