Imagine #33: Everybody Wants Somebody Who Doesn't Want Them (Part 2)

*Patrick's P.O.V.*

I've never seen Y/N this happy throughout the whole course of us being friends, she's just more cheerful and optimistic now, and that really makes it hard for me to get back what I just told her.

I love seeing this girl happy, I mean, I'm her best friend I'll always want to see her happy, but maybe this situation is different...she's being like this because of a fucking false hope I gave her. She's like this because I made her think that I also love her the way she loves me...and it got all worse when we started officially dating.

It's been a month since that little incident and I just continued to get on with it. I know it's stupid, I know what I'm doing is bad, but Y/N seemed so happy right now and I don't want to ruin that and honestly, I have no idea how to get what I have said back. I can't just go up to her and be like "Hey, about the kiss...that was just my stupidity working. Don't get the wrong message." I just can't! And that's why I am taking responsibility for what I did and just continue, even I know to myself this is just a lie.

"Hey, Patrick. I'm sorry I'm a bit late!" I suddenly heard Y/N as she approached me and I just came back to my senses, realizing that I was waiting for her at this cinema.

"No, it's okay. I just got here to anyways. Let's go?" I asked and she sweetly smiled at me then nodded.

I'm actually just thinking of these dates as our usual 'best friend' dates...even if I know that for her, this is different. Nothing much has really changed between us since then except the fact that we're boyfriend and girlfriend now and sharing a kiss once in a while. I still enjoy going out with her and doing stupid stuff, I just have to think that now...I'm doing those because I'm her boyfriend, not his best friend.

We continued on and watched the new Wonderwoman movie and I enjoyed the movie, but once in a while, I found myself looking at her, trying to make myself feel something for her. Don't get me wrong, I am feeling something for this girl...I love her but only as my best friend...I'm really not romantically attracted to her. I know because I know how to be romantically attracted to someone, and I'm feeling that with Elisa...she's one of our friends. And honestly, only Pete knows about my feelings towards Elisa. I haven't told that to anyone else, not even to Y/N.

"That was honestly great!" Y/N suddenly stated that pulled me back to my senses. I smiled at her and agreed. "Are you okay, Patrick? You seemed quite a bit off today?" she asked worriedly as we walk out of the cinema.

Get it together, Stump. She's noticing!

"Yeah, totally. Maybe I'm just a bit tired today, princess." I said, suddenly putting my arms around her shoulder then holding her close. "Don't worry." I playfully said then kissing her head.

Y/N's pupils dilated when she looked at me again and her cheeks are bright pink. I really find her cute and I want to tease him just like a brother. Suddenly, as we are walking, I bumped into someone and immediately apologized because I wasn't paying attention.

"Oh god, I'm so sorr---Elisa?" I said, then realizing the person who I just bumped into is her.

I suddenly felt my heart pumped faster as I look at her. Elisa smiled as she seemed to recognize as too which suddenly made me look back at Y/N and without thinking I pulled my arms back to myself, leaving Y/N there.

"Patrick, Y/N! Good to see you two in here and finally you two are getting intimate." she teased and I let out an awkward laugh...

"Good to see you too, Elisa." Y/N murmured with a smile.

"Who are you here with?" I suddenly asked.

"I'm here alone, I just badly want to watch Wonderwoman immediately." she answered and god knows how I almost spill out the words "I'll go watch it with you" and god also knows how much of a fucking jerk I am now.

"Aw, you could have called us. We just finished watching it. It's really great, I know you'll enjoy it." Y/N told her.

"Yeah, next time call us if you need a companion." I immediately said.

"I'll keep that in mind, I'll see you both around!" Elisa said and then went off. I found myself following her with my gaze until I realize that Y/N is in front of me.

"Let's go?" she asked...patiently waiting for me to get my attention back to her and honestly, that made me feel guilty.

"Y-yeah," I answered and we walked away while having this awkward silence between us.

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*Y/N's P.O.V.*

It's been a month since the confession and I swear I still couldn't believe this is happening, but really, I'm thankful that it is. I'm really happy that nothing much had changed between us too, we're still like best friends, but kind of more intimate now, but I'm all good with it. Besides, I never even thought he'd have the same feelings, I should be thankful for anything after that.

Movie nights is one of the best things we've been doing these past few weeks and now we just finished watching a movie, but somehow, I'm worried about Patrick. He seemed distant tonight...and I think he just got back when we bumped into Elisa.

We haven't seen this girl in a while and I really missed her too and of course, Patrick would feel that. Besides, the two of them were close to each other back in the days too. But somehow, I felt something I can't explain because the moment Patrick saw her, he made a space between us. He even took his arms over my shoulders away. I decided to brush the thought away, maybe it's just because he's trying not to be showy around. We continued to talk with her, just to catch up a little bit and suddenly I find myself staring at Patrick.

"Yeah, next time call us if you need a companion."  he told Elisa and I seriously have no problem with that...it's just that I'm stuck looking at him as his eyes dilate while looking at Elisa.

'A person's eyes dilate if they see something they are attracted to.'  I heard my own voice inside my head and I honestly hate myself for think about this. I'm getting paranoid, I don't want to be a paranoid girlfriend. Don't be stupid, Y/N. 

I kept on scolding myself till Elisa decided to go and finally my thoughts silenced. I was about to talk to Patrick, but then I saw him...just lost in his thoughts while gazing at Elisa as she walks away.

Honestly, I've never seen Patrick look at me with that excitement in his eyes.

I pushed myself to act normally and when he looked at me again, I just told him that we should go and he agreed...and after that, a weird silence took over.

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Patrick just left after he drop me off at my house and still I couldn't get that disturbing thought out of my mind. I honestly want to punch myself, I know I'm being too paranoid and clingy here and I don't want that. I don't want to be that kind of girlfriend.

"Okay, Y/N, get your shit together! That just happened because it's been a while since they saw each other and besides, there's nothing to worry about! Patrick chose you, that's enough information for you. Calm the fuck down." I told myself as I let myself collapse on my bed.

Actually, those words helped me. It's right...he chose me anyways.

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