Imagine #46: Ex-Lovers

Heart beating fast. Sweaty palms. Panicked expression.

"Y/N! Why are you so tensed?! This is a freaking club party with some if the best pop punk bands in this world, but you look like you're going to be interrogated for a crime or something." Your friend told you and you couldn't disagree to that.

Yes, she's right, this is supposed to be a party with a lot of bands...the only problem is that his band is here; meaning he will be here.

You really are trying to calm down, just kept murmuring your mantra 'you'll be fine, you wouldn't see him' to yourself. It's not that you still hate him nor the fact that you don't want to see him. God knows you still loves the guy so much even with what had happened back then.

"Calm down...you'll be fine..."  You kept on murmuring to yourself, trying to ease the weird feeling you are experiencing right now.

Soon enough, the club was packed and the loud dance music was booming through the speakers. Your friend was already gone, partying with anyone she can find. Everyone was having fun, meeting and flirting with other people and you're just there, trying not to move even an inch thinking that it might help you not to get noticed.

Suddenly, bands began to perform one by one and you became more tensed. You'll hear him...that voice that you always longed for and the voice that makes you weak.

You wanted to go outside, just to escape this and just leave your friend for a while, but it's quite difficult to make your way out from all of these partying people...and beside, you know it was too late.

"Now please welcome, Mr. Patrick Stump." The host announced and it was followed by a loud cheer.

You looked away from the stage. You can't, you still can't push yourself to look at him.

"I hope everyone's having a good night. Um, I'm not really a club person, but I'm enjoying my time here." Patrick said and chuckled after.

He's already sober, you thought. You know that guy from inside out and by the way he talked, you know he's already drunk.

"So, um, I'll be performing alone...since my band mates are busy with something in here." He said and the crowd laughed. "So this song...it was from our Save Rock and Roll album and I dedicate it to someone who I, unfortunately, lost years ago but I still find myself missing her so much. This song is called Miss Missing You."

The music started and you felt like you were stunned in there, you found yourself staring at him while he stood on this small stage and the moment he began to sing, he spotted you. And you know his eyes lit up the moment he saw you again.

 Don't panic
No not yet
I know I'm the one you want to forget
Cue all the love to COME AT US
It's time for US to FALL AGAIN

Now you're BACK
THEN I'll be okay
Your hot whiskey eyes
Have fanned the flames
Maybe WE'LL burn a little brighter tonight
Let the fire breathe US back to life  

The lyrics changed, he changed it on the spot just to sing all that to you. Patrick never left your eyes, he was directly speaking to you and his voice, it was so caring and passionate, he was definitely singing to you.

Baby, you were my picket fence
I miss missing you now and then
Chlorine kissed summer skin
I miss missing you now and then
Sometimes before it gets better
The darkness gets bigger
The person that you'd take a bullet for is behind the trigger
Oh
We're fading fast
I miss missing you now and then  

You felt a tear roll on your cheeks that made you move. You pushed yourself to ran away, anywhere but there. You heard the sound of the mic dropping, Patrick is following you, you know this time he wouldn't let you go.

You kept on running to the back of the club where there are no other people, the music subsided and you can only hear your heavy breathing and running footsteps together with his following footsteps too.

"Y/N, please." Patrick caught you and he immediately pinned you against the wall gently, just so that you couldn't escape. "Please not this time princess, I won't let you go this time." he said, his voice so caring like it was soothing all of you. He was already holding your cheeks, guiding you to look at him. You can also smell the whiskey in his mouth, but that didn't mind you. "Please, look at me." he pleaded like a lost kid and finally, you pushed yourself to open your eyes.

The first thing you saw was his beautiful eyes that had been staring at you like you're the most precious thing in this world right now. He smiled, the kind of smile that made you love him everyday. Your tears continued to flow as you leaned on his chest and the guy hugged you lovingly.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry , Patrick. I'm so so sorry for leaving you, I've always believed you back then, but the pain...it was just too much." you started to murmur and he was just kissing your head.

"Princess, you have nothing to say sorry about. It was all my fault, it was still my fault. I do understand everything; your actions, the way you left and everything. I forgive you if that's what you want to hear. But please I want to know...can you also forgive me for what had happened back then?" he asked in a pleading manner. You saw all the guilt written in his face.

He was talking about the time you caught him cheating, but you know it wasn't planned and it wasn't his fault. All of it was the plan of that bitchy girl that tries to destroy your and Patrick's relationship and you can't believe that she won, but at least, Patrick left her too. You were too angry and devastated back then when you decided to just leave Patrick even when you know to yourself that it wasn't his fault...and because of this action, you hated yourself. You always regretted leaving him behind, that's why you had no face to look at him now.

"Patrick, I was never angry with you. Yes, I was hurt, angry and devastated that time, but now with you...I've always regret leaving, I let my feelings decided for me and I faced the consequences. I lost the face to go back and I'm so sor--

"I understood, Y/N. But now what matters is you're back, you're here again...with me. and now, I'll ask you one more question and I want your honest answer here." Patrick said, his face going closer and closer to your that your lips are already brushing together. The excitement and fulfillment you are feeling right now was too much. "Do you still love me?" he asked.

"I never declared that I stopped loving you, Patrick." you answer him and you felt him smirk. 

Patrick hugged you tight and it described how much he missed you and you hugged him in the same manner.

"I never stopped loving you too, princess. My life was better, a lot way better when you're with me. So please, come back and I promise you that I won't make the mistakes I've done before. We'll start again, and this time we'll do it perfectly." he said, looking deeply into your eyes and you smiled and nodded at him.

"It's already starting perfectly, Patrick." you said and with that...for a long long time...your lips have met once again, and this time, you know you'll always have this sweeter taste for the rest of your life.

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