Imagine #135: My Amnesia Boy (Part 8)

{Some Feels ahead ;)}

You found Sam standing outside your house and you immediately felt that something isn't right. The girl gave you a small smile and you let her in your house.

"Sam, what are you...

"Don't pretend, {Y/N}, I know everything now." She instantly said and you cleared your throat.

"I don't want any problem, Sam. I'm not doing anything with Patrick." You explained. You are somehow lying and telling the truth at the same time and Sam just smiled at you.

"I know, but I think your daughter has something to do with him." She said and suddenly handed you some papers.

You reluctantly looked at the papers and it's really what you feared of. They're filing a custody case for your daughter. You quickly gave her back the papers.

"Who told you I'll let go of my daughter that easily?" you said to her.

"Patrick is her dad, {Y/N}! And I'm sure we can give her a brighter future."

"We? Patrick is the only right person who can give her that, Sam. I'm still Patricia's mother and I won't let you take her away from me!" you said. Fear and anger are your current emotions.

"The jury will have to decide on that now. But it seems like they already know you're struggling to give Patricia her daily needs. It's really better if she stays with us." The girl said calmly and you really want to kick her out of the house now.

"I'm going to ask you to leave, Sam. I'm sorry, but I can't let you do that. Don't bother me anymore." You said to her and closed the door at her face.

You began to panic while you are alone at the house. You can't lose her now, you'll surely lose your mind. You want to shout and cry, but you're too tired to do that...you've been doing that for three years now and it's really tiring now for you. You just said to yourself that you're not going to let them take her away. You also hated Patrick for doing this to you, that guy kept on hurting you no matter how you stay away from him.

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Patrick can't find Sam anywhere in the house and he's afraid that she might be telling you everything now. Patrick hurried to his car and drove to your house. He's always telling Sam not to file the case, but the girl just doesn't listen.

"{Y/N}?" he said while knocking. Patrick found out that the front door was opened and he got in. he immediately saw you crying on the floor and he run to you. "{Y/N}! What happened?" he asked.

You looked at him with a disgusted look and you slapped his face hard. Your anger filled up and that's the only thing you can do, Patrick was shocked, but he's still staring at you.

"What happened?! You're fucking asking me what happened?!" you said while gritting your teeth.

"I...don't...

"What else are you going to take away, huh?! You've done enough damage and you're still not done with me Patrick?!" you shouted at him and he looked so guilty and confused. You're crying, but your anger is non-stop now. "I've been fucking crying for years because of you! You've taken my happiness when you easily let go of me...easily forget everything about us...about me! You've taken a piece of me with you, you fucking wrecked me! You fucking promised you won't take her away from me!!" you shouted at him.

"I won't...{Y/N}...

"Fuck it!! Fuck it all! She's my source of happiness now and you're going to take her away from me too?! JUST KILL ME, PATRICK!! Shot me with a gun, stab me continuously with a knife, kill me in the most horrible way you can think of! I'm sure that that's better than this. I HAD ENOUGH...I'M SO TIRED OF CRYING...I'M SO TIRED OF HOPING...I'M SO TIRED! I'M SO SO TIRED." You kept on crying loudly in front of him.

Patrick's heart grew heavier and heavier each second he sees you like that. He caused this all, he wanted to say sorry, but he know it's not enough.

"{Y/N}, please listen to me. I'm really sorry, I never want to take her away from you. It's Sam's idea...I want to stop her but...

"She's the closest thing to you that I can have. I already gave way, I already gave you to Sam, isn't that enough to both of you? Letting go of you just like that feels like I'm stabbing myself every day and I won't just die. It hurts Patrick! But you know what hurts me more than that? THE FACT THAT AMNESIA SHOULD ONLY AFFECTS THE BRAIN AND MEMORIES but FOR YOU IT ALSO AFFECTED YOUR HEART! You did not only forgot about me, you pushed me out of your life, you've thrown everything away...every. fucking. thing. away!" you said while pointing at his heart. You're still crying and you can't really breathe properly anymore. "You know what, sometimes I'm asking myself 'do you really have an amnesia or you're just playing around to make things right with Sam?' And you know! I always chose the latter explanation, Patrick. Because if you truly have loved me, you wouldn't forget me or your feelings for me just like that...I'm left with nothing till Patricia came, and now you're taking her away? Enough is enough, Patrick. Just leave me alone...leave us alone. Or if you can't do that, just torture me to death...I'll be glad to accept that." You added.

Patrick's tear fell too, he can't imagine that he made you like that. He remembered the cheerful girl side of you in the video he watched. Where did that girl go? Patrick can only blame himself for all this. You are a wrecked, but Patrick can't do anything now. He's confused too, but one thing is for sure. He had enough hurting you.

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"Yes, I want to end the custody case of Patricia Stump. Yes, thank you." Sam overheard Patrick talking on the phone and she barged in inside his room.

"What is that all about?!" she said. "Why did you end it? Patrick that's your daughter!"

"And so as {Y/N}'s! Stop this bullshit, Sam! I didn't give you a permission to go to her house and tell her about this! I didn't give you permission to file a case and I didn't give you permission to barge in with my life!" Patrick shouted.

The scene he saw earlier with you totally woke him up. He knew you're not that kind of person and he awakened the dark side of you and it hurt him.

"I'm your girlfriend, Patrick!" Sam said. "We fixed almost everything now! Come on, if we get her...

"Not anymore, Sam. Now I understand why we never worked out. No matter how many times I lost my memory, we will never be for each other! I want to make everything right now and this is the start. I'm sorry, but enough. I had enough of you controlling my life..." Patrick said to her and Sam stared in disbelief.

"Patrick, stop it! You're not serious, right?" she suddenly became sweet again.

"I should have seen this before...I'm just blinded by my past desires. {Y/N} is all I ever wanted. I might have forgotten her, my feeling for her might have been thrown away. But fate is drawing us together again, and as far as I know nothing can't stop this from happening. So, just accept it Sam." Patrick said. "I'm going to my family now." He said, leaving Sam behind.

Patrick knows that you'll push him away, he saw the hatred in your eyes and Patrick was like stabbed in the heart, but he knows he deserves this all, he just wish that all this never happened. That all this is just a big messed up dream.

{Thanks for the support guys :) Lovelots :*}