Chapter :7 17 -oct -2016
Dear diary !
I know you always wonder that why Iam so outdated who still prefer you to write her all frustration the reason is very simple because i like you ...when I made you dirty and filthy from my writing you never ...never complaint me about it ...and I don't want to choose any software or notepad option on you ....because for me you are special ...so now I have done enough flattering on you ....whether you allow me or not I will write all my thoughts over here ... As Iam doing it now
DIARY ! I don't know whether Iam write or wrong but I think every girl on this earth build numerous castles in her mind and in heart ...but those castles are usually made from the glass ....a one hard touch and the castles can shatter in billion pieces ..Iam referring to the castle of thoughts...yes the thoughts ...a common human do each and every minor or major action on the basics of thoughts same goes with the girls ...I felt that the girls like me think a lot ...but they can't express themselves properly ..because they think if they will do it ..the world will pull them down ...too down that those girls just fear the deepness of depth ...I don't want to judge anyone but I hope that the boy I had encountered yesterday wouldn't have these ground thoughts and I hope he hadn't crushed any castle .... I just hoped and  pray ....
By writing this I closed my diary and put it on a shell  ... I blew a huge cool sigh I texted my rosy on messenger like usual I was running out of balance so I chose the option of texting instead of calling ,to tell her the incident which had happened today with me

Arsalah: Asssalam-o-alaikum ...Red rosy ❤️

Rosy: waliakum -us-Salam my antique friend ... 💛She replied me within ten seconds ..whooooaaa the biggest miracle on earth

Arsalah : rosy I wanted to discuss something with you ...are you free right now? .....

Rosy :yup ...Iam totally free ...hey listen arshooo you are forgetting something .....

Arsalah : what am I forgetting ?

Rosy: remember last time when we had talked ,you had promised me to send your niece cum teddy bear photograph and now your promise is floating somewhere in air...because you haven't sent her photograph till yet ... First I want her
Pic then I will listen you....😝

Arsalah : okay ...I am trying to send it coz Internet is slow by the way all of sudden why you want her pic ....❓

Rosy: uffffffffffff ....you are asking me questions like CID basically yesterday I saw a cute baby in a mall so your Ayesha just came into my mind ....I haven't seen her since she is born ....come on naaa send me the pic

Arsalah  : okay relax ....reddy rosy its loading ... Finally its sent

Rosy:ohhhhh my God! I don't believe this that this cute niece is yours ...I mean you are the khala of such a adorable baby ....my poor Ayesha Iam feeling pity and shame for this little baby ....she seems to be like a vanilla ice cream topped with red strawberries and the two big cherries  which are her eyes ....I wanted to squeezed her , wanted to hug her I wanted to give billions kisses to my ice cream ......if you don't mind will you TCS her to me ....URGENTLY😉

Arsalah :  it's okay we both knew that science is getting advance day by day It is not that advance that we can send the 3 months old baby in a parcel to another city ahhhh come on Larki you and I both knew that it is impossible  ....and madam are you insulting me or complementing my niece ? 😑|flat face|

Rosy : to be honest with you my friend ......I AM DOING BOTH😜😜

Arsalah : ha ha ha !!! Very funny Iam dying from laughing |seeing from the corner of an eye |😒if you have completed your un laughed jokes so shall I tell you my incident ?😤😤

Rosy: listen arshoo ! My professor has arrived in class ...I am switching off my mobile cause he always got problem when any mobile ringed during his lecture as it happened to me at once ...if you don't mind so shall we talk later ...

Arsalah : alright ..no problem sweetie we will talk later ... next time Inform me when you are inside of your university because I knew how much parhai matter for a medical student ...so I will not disturb you ....

Rosy : hahaha ..chipmunk ..you never disturbed me you just enlighten my mood every time when I talked to you ....allah hafiz Jani

Arsalah : allah hafiz .....happy boring lecture 😬

I switched off my mobile and just threw it on on the bed with frustration ,vexation , and remorse feeling ..I wanted to tell my encounter with him to anyone but it seems that no one is ready to listen and if someone is ready ...so I just don't want to tell them and put them into another misery  ..rosy is the only person who can listen but now she is busy , may be its not the right time to discuss this with anyone ...but since I have came from there my faults and my asinine behaviour towards him is irritating me I closed my eyes to remember what he said and what I had replied him ...

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"Do you like this book " a deep voice which I have heard in the launch distracted me from my book

I gently closed the book and put it on the table I stood up and turn my face to answer I found a boy having a callow look in his eyes seeing me in concern he was wearing a green t-shirt a great black bold text was written on that t-shirt " see me I will see you .but broke me I will broke you " I hesitantly took my eyes off from that text because I don't want to laugh in the situation in which I was trapped by maintaining little amount of confidence in my eyes I replied

" no ...emmmm I was just kind of checking that which writer have written this book " as I further added another lie " I don't like this book personally " I have said the word "personally "with the little bit stressed

"Ohhhhhhhhhhhh! I see " the three words which came from his mouth in which he had stressed on ohhhhhhhh for about 2 seconds ...by pasting the charismatic smile he murmured something else as well to himself which was un audible for me to hear so I asked
"Sorry ...have you said something " I said by looking up ,as earlier I was playing with my fingers

"Noooooo nothing ...I haven't said anything " he pasted the same previous smile " by the way my mum was saying that you need some books for preparation of the course ...."now he was scratching his eyebrows to remember the course name

"IELTS " I excitedly completed the sentence , he paused for bit and looked at me but as he continued

"Yeah right IELTS ...so I had done that course about 4 years ago ..I hope I will find some books that might will help you but ....."

"RINGED"
"RINGED"

" excuse me for a second " his mobile ringed he took out his mobile asked me to excused him and with his mobile he disappeared in his room now among the four I have seen the one room which door was opened although I was standing in the launch and that room was just two feets away . I was really not standing outside of the room to hear his"personal conversation " but there was silence everywhere so I was unintentionally hearing what he was saying ...

" hey my honey ....how are you I have heard you are wearing red in the prom , listen Jani don't wear red .....just wear black it suits on you too much "

"You wanted me to buy the black dress for you ....but "honey" I don't have a single penny even to buy my own necessities".

His voice was audible that I was doing my best to avoid hearing what he was saying ..even in a lauch and waiting for him like the fool I have heard the starting of two dialogues which he said to his "honey " and then he closed the door of his room for the maintenance of privacy I guess ....all in all my blood was boiling caused he didn't give me any signed to leave as he didn't give me any book or books as well ...I thought that I should again engaged myself in reading ..but my instinct was continuously  warning me that he knew I had lied him and may be this time he will find out the truth ... I Sat on a couch and had burried my face in my hands my  yawns weren't leaving my  lips my eyes were feeling heavy amount of tiredness ...its been half an hour since he went to his room with his cell and there is no sign of his return ....

"If it wasn't for my own benefit ....I wouldn't have waited for anyone this long " I murmured to myself in anger

CREEKKKKK !!!!!
I heard the door opened ...and he came out of the room ...for a while a ray of hope enlighten my heart ...but when I saw he was coming bare hands without any book ...I stood up with the inside anger by having the neutral expression on my face

"Sorry ...I was just sorta busy ...I hope I hadn't kept you on the wait that long I didn't have a time to hunt the books and I am really tired to do it now ....if you don't mind will I give you those books some other day?"

He spoke those lines so easily ...I tightly closed my eyes as I clench my fingers this is what I usually do when I wanted to hold my infinity anger and and don't wanted to burst

"Are you alright " again he interrupted me

"Of course Iam alright , thanks for the precious time which you had given me ...and thanks also because today I found the new habit in me which is how to remain patient in weird situations ...not to forget and thanks as well to made me wait for tooo long ....now I don't need your help or your books ......"I hid my anger but I got fail in holding the strong words which came out of my tongue  so easily no one in my whole life have ever done this kind of act with me ...what he think of himself that is he the only one remaining who can help me out? ...or without his help I am unable to do anything? ...his wrong perception really ....i didn't t give him the chance to defend himself as I straightly went to the stairs I have said those lines In just one breathe in the middle of the stairs I stopped my legs and then ponder what I had said to him ....what If I was little bit harsh towards him .....but I brushed off my thought with this feeling
"No Arsalah he really deserved it ....next time he will be careful with every single girl " with this feeling I went to my mum when aunt had asked me about why you didn't get any books from my "beloved son " I replied her that he said he will give me some other day and I hadn't also narrated her about how he kept me on wait for too long and had also cut the part which I had said to him .....because I thought it is not necessary for her to know everything ."as sometime for the sake of other happiness and smiles you hide the bitter encounters and moments "
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"Arsalah why hadn't you go to university today "
Arsalah is your off today or you are not feeling  well "

"Arsalah for heaven sake reply me Iam asking you something"

"Haaaaann yes mum are you asking something " I was engrossed in the yesterday thoughts that I hadn't realised my mom was saying something for too long and Iam not paying attention towards her

" now I have to repeat all my questions ...beta where are you living Iam noticing that since we had arrived from dawat you are busy in your train of thought is something happened with you there "

On her question I didn't blinked my eye I just felt that I am so blessed that Allah has given me a mother the one to understand me when I feel depressed , the one to hold me when i felt broken , the one to courage when Me when I  feel discourage the one who understands my words when i can't speak them

"I didn't slept well so Iam bit sleepy today "I replied calmly "by the way what you were asking " I diverted her

"I was asking why didn't you go to your university today " she asked

"Coz my sweet mum we are having a fun week in our university ..and you know your daughter the one who never participate  in anything ...so I thought I should give myself some break .... By not going there "I give her a congenial smile

"Yeah right a break from your subjective books and then to read some random books " she provoke me as she further added "I can understand your BREAK from studies "

By saying this she left my room again leaving me alone in my thoughts ...I was feeling miserable for my own self because I have lied to her ...not to her but to aunt as well ....but  It was probably not the right time to tell anyone about his boorish character and secondly I don't want to be a back stabber ....I should leave him in his own world and I should focus on my own goal  ....in which my future resides and in which I have to put my whole tiresome efforts ...he is not even a worthy man to think about ....I don't want to be judgemental but what he had done with me .....he really deserves this hatred from my side .....

No votes ,no comments Iam just demanding one thing from my readers tell me do you like the baby pic which I had posted ...just tell me in your comments and in private msgs ....I wanted to know how many of you like this baby ...of course this baby is extra cute Masha allah but I just wanted you all, to encourage her cuteness ...because it matters to some one a lot

Shhhhhhhh"don't ask who that some one is "☺️❤️💞💗

Stay sane and same +blessed
Yumni 💙