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Well sziasztok! Good to be back :>

Lemme summarize my evening today, I've been drawing my ass off, my bones still feel weird, my neck and head hurt like crazy and I almost choked on my food just now! :D

I know, lovely, ain't it?

But ignoring all that, I'm here to deliver yet again an art chapter! I do wanna point out tho that this chapter will be a lot less aesthetically pleasing, given most of them are just...sketches quq

But it's all important and fun! So, hope you enjoy!

Imma start things off with a contest entry, again xD

And once more for PumpkingxAngel! 

Erm, I'll be honest I kinda rushed this one quq"' Does this count as angst?

I mean, probably, right? The story behind this picture is Roman and István are angels who are dating (by the way, black-winged angels in my angel universe --that I made for FNaF a while ago-- are angels who used to be demons but got converted. But that's a whole different story) and Drea bumps in and uh...

Forces Roman to...do something quq

But ye, hope it qualifies!

Alrighty, now, partially a gift for this lovely bean, _Shipping_Addict_! (I've been tagging you guys a lot recently)

IT IS THE BOI GAMMA

So, Gamma's the first shipkid of Beta and Dawn (Add's OC), I was given an opportunity to design him and I'm kinda happy with how he turned out! qUq

He definitely has more of Dawn's features since Esp has more of Beta's--ooh by the way you guys should check out Add's drawing of Esp!

He's kinda unique with his black bones uvu I tried my best! Don't die on me!

Alrighty, moving onto more designs!

I mentioned before that I'd redesign my other persona, Snow since I already redesigned Lils and Lyrs--

Yeah, remember how I said I wouldn't change the gender since Snow was based on my first FNaF OC who was a girl?

Yeah, I changed that cuz' I didn't feel comfortable with it-

Lookit the pastel boi-

Snow's a genderless birb as well now uvu Just with different wings and a moon theme instead of a star one!

I'm really happy with them! And who knows, maybe soon I'll redraw one of my old profile pics where both of them were on it just for more colorfulness :>

Should I?

Now let's move onto a redraw! My friend FeliciaisanAngelR texted me some days ago, showing me an old drawing I drew and saying it isn't that bad if I want to redraw it-

Well I friggin took the challenge uvu

The top picture is the old one-

Ehhhhhh I could've done better with the hair, not gonna lie, I just got lazy with it-

But hey, I still think it looks cool!

Alright, now moving onto...more characters! xD

So, one of my first ever FNaF original worlds (besides the cringeness that is FNaF Heros) was The Puppet Master book series (of which I only finished the first, didn't start on the second and got halfway through the third-)

Then later, still young, I decided to rewrite the whole third book, "Alone" on Word this time instead of doing it on paper with drawings!

I didn't finish that either, in fact, it took me half a year to get so far and...I checked recently and it was only 9000 words??? Like??? I can do that in a week, c'mon-

You've seen me redraw the cover of Alone before, but I'm just gonna redo the whole thing with original characters based on the FNaF ones!

I was supposed to do Aliz ("Puppet"), the main character of the story first but didn't have time to quq She'll probably be in the next chapter!

But for now, anybody remember the triplets, Springtrap, Springbonnie and Springlock?

Well...

:>

I feel like I could've done better with their designs but at least they look like normal citizens! 

They're not humans, they're this species I named amechas (yes, they are based on animatronics) and they have fewer privileges than humans and their lives are basically worse because of all the discrimination, stigma and stereotypes-

So they can only work in establishments and stuff like that, including restaurants and pizzerias ;D

So this is Lost, Script and Trust (plus his lil' bud Ray) and yes, all amechas have weird names like this, which is why Aliz is not one of them-

Imma be hopefully redoing my versions of Fredbear (Free), Nightmare (Nerve), Toy Bonnie (Bravo), and a couple others too but for now, have these three bros cuz' I love them!

Their futures are very angsty and sad...quq"'

Oh, also have this dark cool version I made for some reason-

Dunno why I made this but it looks cool!

Alright, now we move onto the last and probably most important part of this art chapter- (this includes most of the sketches I was talking about)

Probably a lot of you are aware of the Trisha Paytas drama that's currently happening on Youtube. It's sickening and I hope Trisha stops but! There are good things that came out of it!

Like the fact I discovered some of the most amazing Youtube channels, like DissociaDID and Team Pinata! They're genuinely awesome people and have some great stuff on their channels, I binge-watched everything!

But, that binge-watching led me to get uhh...inspired? I've always been hesitant to put representations of different disorders into my worlds for my characters, simply because I was afraid I'd mess up!

But! I do feel like I've done a fair amount of research to do this,

I created a character who has Dissociative Identity Disorder

If you don't know what DID is, it was formerly known as Multiple Personality Disorder until they later changed it. This disorder is more common than schizophrenia, as common as bulimia and it is 1-3% of the population. 

This disorder develops before the age of 7-9 and it's caused by severe repeated trauma. 

Because the brain isn't fully developed and the personality of the child hasn't fully integrated yet, the brain develops this disorder as a self-defense mechanism and creates amnesia walls, creating multiple dissociative identities.

People can have "alters", the number of them ranging from two to twenty-something! It entirely depends on the traumas and the brain. 

The "host", AKA the main alter of the system (the shared name of all the alters and the body) typically doesn't remember all the childhood trauma, DID is designed for the person who has it to not know they have it

There are tons of different things I could talk about, switches, persecutors, dissociating, positive triggers, integrating, but I'm not gonna go on a full rant quq I highly suggest you check out DissociaDID's channel, they do an amazing job at making educational videos on the topic!

So, yes, I made a character with DID. Obviously I'm not trying to make it seem like a superpower, an ability, a choice or this fiction horror trope or anything, far from it! I just thought the idea would be cool? And I really want to represent it well! 

Plus, if this helps one person understand the disorder more, I'll be happy

So, everyone welcome... Ven!

There are lots of things I need to mention about it-

Let's start off with the appearance! Obviously it's easy to tell he's been through a lot of trauma, I mean he has 13 alters, that's not a light number! 

He's a Lime-part-Aqua Fairy, this is a condition even rarer than the one Florian has, basically he's mostly a Lime Fairy with mostly that kind of magic, but there's a slight part of him more related to Aqua Fairies. Like on his wings!

Their system is named the Rainbow system! Cuz I thought it'd be fun xD

He's the host! Meaning he fronts the most, he's basically the owner of the body and is kept away from trauma. 

He's basically a peacemaker in the system! Since the alters aren't perfect and do fight, he gets along with most of them and even gives persecutors ("bad" alters) a try! 

He's very friendly and he's actually good friends with Dax! (two bois who've been through trauma, my heart-)

Alright, now it's time to introduce some of the alters!

Lemme explain how the illustrating here works, on the left, it's Ven's body switching so the character I'm introducing is fronting. That's why his hair, clothing, and attitude will be different every time! On the right is how the alter actually looks in the mind, in the system itself because yes, they do have their own appearances

Meet Rae! He's the primary protector so he fronts almost as much as Ven does, he's one of the oldest (not in terms of age) alters, he's a Purple Fairy!

He was obviously not the one who came up with the name for their system xD

He can be kind of rude but he has good intentions! He's a good boi

I'm actually proud of how I managed to draw the hair slid back, wow xD

Here's Code! They're the gatekeeper of the system, meaning they have most of the control in the system, controlling who fronts in different situations and such

I realize I wrote gay there, I wanna note they're biologically a male, so they're romantically attracted to guys, before anyone gets confused xD

Lookit that, it's one of the ladies in the system!

Spirit's great, she's the caretaker so she takes care of the littles (young alters, there are three in the Rainbow System) and she's friggin sweet and nice and aahh, I wanna hug her like the rest of them quq

She likes oversized sweaters so that's mostly what she wears in the mind and when she fronts! 

She's also an age slider, meaning she slides between the ages I put up there-

And here's Project 57, commonly just referred to as Project or 57 to make it easier, he's very similar to Ven in many ways!

He's the sexual protector! He holds the traumas that are sexual and--ya get the point--although I do wanna specify that him being a Pink Fairy is merely a coincidence! 

I also forgot to draw it, but he tends to wear a lot of makeup, so frequently when Ven gets back to front again he just wakes up to see himself in makeup, it's kinda hilarious xD

Just like how he sometimes even finds himself in a skirt after a switch because of Spirit!

Now, I do have two more main alters I wanted to draw but won't, Tai, the physical protector, and QT, the soother/relaxer! There are also four persecutors in the system (one of which is an animal!) and three littles, but I'm not gonna draw any of them cuz' no quq

If I messed anything up or said anything wrong, PLEASE correct me! I don't want to accidentally spread any misinformation about the disorder! And if you have any questions, don't be afraid to ask!

That being said, take this to better understand the gravity of what Ven and people in real life go through if you don't already

"Dissociative Identity Disorder is not fun and games. It's very hard to live with."

"And I wouldn't wish for anybody to have it."

So, think about this before you start sensualizing it. It's not a trend and you definitely don't want to have it

ANYWAY damn, this chapter was partly just me making a PSA, damn-

Hope you guys enjoyed it! Now if you'll excuse me, Imma go cuz' this headache is killing me-

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