"You're getting too involved with this guy, don't you think?" Lin turned to me with an indignant look on her face. It felt like committing a mortal sin to fall in love with Aaron. - No, I wouldn't say that. - I tried to pretend to be as focused as possible on my way to college. But deep down, I knew she was right. For the last few weeks, I had really been drowning in this guy. We saw each other almost every day and were always in contact. Sometimes, I even felt that I couldn't live without him. It might be bad, but I just couldn't stay away from him. He was like a drug for me, and it seemed infinitely important and necessary to see and talk to him every day. Of course, there were times when he would disappear for a while, but that was hard for me. Maniacally, I checked my phone for his status online. To be honest, I wasn't sure if it was normal.

I didn't want to admit to my best friend that our relationship was slowly destroying my personality. Because then he would worry and start looking for strong enough arguments to convince me that I didn't need him and we should break up.

- Let's go to the countryside for the weekend? I heard about a cool recreation center from a friend. I just received money from the last order.

- And I have classes at the cafe this weekend. I don't think we can go. Sorry, honey.

We drove all the way in silence. The boy seemed sad and looked at his knees. We usually went out together, but now we had to combine that with studying, which made it harder. It felt like the road was longer in the silence. When we arrived, he got out of the car and awkwardly looked at me.

And if Aaron had asked you, would you have agreed? Would you cancel your job and all your plans for him? To be honest, I was a little confused by this question, but my subconscious mind already answered the question itself: "Yes, you would cancel everything and snap at him." "No," I replied, slightly quickening my pace. It just seems to me that it's not just about work and good employment. There is a feeling that you've pushed me away as your best friend and now you're completely immersed in a relationship with him. It's like I don't exist at all. Even though he was partly right, I still don't understand why he feels that way. If they didn't even know each other a week ago, Lin asked if I thought he might offend or deceive me. I told him not to trust him fully until I knew absolutely everything about him. Today, that thought came to mind: Are you jealous?

I do not know how my brain could interpret all his actions exactly like that. But I still asked. Lin looked at me as if I were a fool and twirled his finger at his temple, then laughed loudly. Despite my certainty about my guess, his laughter was like a balm for my soul, and I instantly calmed down.

In the story, I sat next to Yukio. Today, he looked pretty tired. Terrible bruises under his eyes betrayed his fatigue. His skin tone was already light like many Asians', but today Yuk looked like a piece of paper. All his veins on his arms were translucent on such fair skin. It was attractive overall. His hair was disheveled and his lips were completely cracked. It just hurt me to look at him like that. He was silent and looked at the first couple secretly. She did not dare to ask anything. Sometimes he got lost and fell asleep for a couple of seconds. After that, he tried to catch up. Often, he peeked at my notes to not miss anything. We exchanged phrases about the lesson sometimes, but nothing more.

During the break, although it was short and lasted only 15 minutes, Yukio fell asleep immediately. That was enough time for me to walk down to the first floor to buy water. Before the second class started, I woke up the guy gently and felt guilty instantly. Confused eyes looked at me expressionlessly, and I nodded my head towards the teacher who had entered the classroom.

Yuk stood up ready to listen to the lecture, but questions were bothering him. He didn't know how to start the dialogue, so he wrote in the margin the question "What's wrong?" and moved the bottle of water and chocolate to him. It seemed like an insignificant gesture, but the guy grabbed the chocolate and drank half the bottle.

"I've been sleeping very poorly for the last few days. I haven't eaten much. My appetite is gone. I don't have any strength at all." he said in a whisper and swallowed. "But what is the reason for this?" Yuki asked. He paused, tormented by anticipation. Slowly lowering his eyelids, he spoke so softly that it was difficult to make out his words, "My mom is in intensive care and my brother crashed into a car the other day..." It was an electric shock after those words, shock, compassion, everything got mixed up and I couldn't speak. Initially, I thought the guy was just preparing for classes or hanging out somewhere. But such news from a classmate and only one person I could call a friend crushed me too. For a moment, I imagined being in his shoes and realized even my worst enemy wouldn't wish this on me.

– If you don't mind, I'm not really ready to talk about it yet. Okay? – In this case, it was more of a rhetorical question and I couldn't ask anything myself in such a shocked state, so I just said: "Of course." I read the silent gratitude in his eyes and tried to at least try to bring my thoughts back to the lecture, but the history of Ancient Greece didn't fit at all with what was going on in my head. So without realizing what the teacher was saying or explaining, I just copied his words down in my notes.

Fortunately, I had enough strength to get home while driving. My thoughts were spinning, and I kept putting myself in his place, projecting similar situations that made me feel worse. It seemed to me that everything was not in my world and was all so distant and fleeting. That someone else had it, but it couldn't happen to me or anyone I knew. Maybe that's why I felt so crushed. So much so, for the first time in a long time, I decided to call my mother.

– Hello? It sounded on the other end, and for some reason, I exhaled with relief. – Are you working? I hope I'm not bothering you.

– I'm always working, but there's time to talk. How's college? Did you like the city? The conversation with my mother took me far away, and my soul calmed down, as if some kind of closure had been reached. At that moment, mentally drained, I fell asleep on the couch with the phone still in my hand.

When Lin arrived home, he covered me with a blanket and began cooking dinner. Well, I had another difficult conversation in which I needed to explain why that moment in someone else's family affected me so much.

I woke up to the incredible fragrance floating around the apartment and singing songs to myself from my friend. Sleep clearly did its work, I felt better and sleepier, so I sat up to see what was going on at the stove. The guy was dancing, flipping something over, and obviously couldn't hear anything due to his headphones. "Lin?" I decided to call out to him, but he didn't respond. Then I thought it was best to scare him. I quietly got up, crept behind him, and abruptly touched his shoulders. "Holy shit, Ness!" Are you having dinner?" the guy removed his headphones and stepped away for a moment to show me what he was making.

- Oh, I don't understand what it is, but I will only do it if there is something on the level of the best restaurants! - I laughed and got up from the couch, smoothing my hair with my hand, even though I knew that witches couldn't help me with my palm. - Well, then, you're going to get bolognese anyway. He stated and began taking out the dishes. I didn't want to bring up what had upset me earlier in the day, and fortunately, Lin didn't ask. Dinner was quiet, we talked about our own things and laughed. The pasta was great, just like everything he cooked. It seemed like his talent for cooking was inherited from his mother. We decided to watch a movie for the rest of the evening. - I want this comedy - Lin asked. But I was in the mood for something more dramatic, so I finished off with that.

– Well, no, let's do this melodrama instead? I've wanted to watch it for a long time, but I haven't been able to get my hands on it. – It's impossible for you to suggest films, you always reject everything. – Please! – I pouted and made a frustrated face, and I think I came top ten. – Okay! Turn on "Love is Always Love" - the guy made a funny face and we laughed out loud. Why these comedies when I already have enough laughter in my life? Pleased with my crushing victory, I started the movie, but after 20 minutes, I fell asleep sweetly.