I  entered my room with so much sadness.How could i let this happen to me, I mean I practice dream of how good this day will go for me. I practiced and practiced time and times again but still this is what I get. This is what I ended up with, not only i fail myself, I failed my family as well. They must feel so disappointed in me.

Even me,I feel so sad and disappointed in my self hence there were so much tears in my eyes and tears were running down my face. How could I have done this horrible thing to the people i care about especially my immediate family. I can just imagine the look of disappointment on there face right now. In that moment my phone rang i stood up and leaped a little to where it was to pick it up. The caller ID kept flashing  my dad name and i was contemplating on weather i should pick it or not

After it rang off twice I picked up the phone on the third ring only to hear  my  father's panicked voice at the other end. He sounded very sad from the other end and  I was doing my best to assure hint that I was fine. But he insisted and keep asking me what was wrong. He even advice me against modeling saying "You can forget about modeling if this will kept repeating itself. We just want to be happy. Settle down and get married to build a beautiful home you know. There is more to life than modeling"

I simply signed I thought my dad supported my modeling.then why was he saying all this, did I really disappoint him that much,  so much that he and my parents don't support me any more. That just made me even want to cry some more, cry so much that I would have nothing left to cry. I couldn't obviously do that with my dad at the other end,  it would only get him even more working up and I didn't want that . Instead I did my best to try and i pretend that I was fine even when I knew I wasn't. With the phone In my hand I spoke to my dad as calmly as I could. Even when my dad kept asking me what's wrong, I played it cool and assured him I was fine.

"Dad I am fine, I told you already there is no need to worry. I will be alright dad so pls get some rest and do not worry." He was a bit upset but decided to change the top any way. Besides there are other pressing this to talk about like my marriage that was few hours away. Thinking about it now just made my stomach turn, but because that was what Dad wanted to talk about I had no choice.

" you must be excited, my dear you are getting married soon."

" yes father. Indeed."

"Well that is good to hear. That is something you should look forward too, your glamour wedding it is going to be the talk of the town."

He said with so much excitement it lifted my spirits. I ghost of a smile was on my face as I listen to my father I said nothing as he kept giving me more advice. He kept giving me some advice and he apologized that he will not be coming to my marriage. I was surprised and hurt all over again how am I going to get married without my parents who is going to represent them in the wedding. I didn't like this one bit and it was a huge Surprise too and I began to wonder, how will I manage my wedding with out them, will i even be able to manage my wedding without my parents?

"My dearest daughter. I know you are upset about this news and this new development. But you must understand there is something important here in nigeria and me and your mother most complete it. So i apologize for my absence."

" it's okay dad,I totally understand, there are so  many things that are more important than your daughters marriage right?"

My statement was a bit harsh but I just had to say it. I had to let him know what I thought about the idea. Didn't he think of how it will make me feel how selfish it would look if he disrespected me like that by not coming to my wedding. Of course I was hurt and that was the best way to express how hurt I was.

" Zahra honey don't be like that. You know I love you and i want what is best for you. Please try to understand me."

He said, he kept trying to convince me trying to make me understand but i was hell bent on not hearing him out. Which business deal could be more important than your daughters marriage. A lot of fathers die before there daughter eyes, some even die before their daughter is old enough to get married so what was the problem. He should be more thankful and greatful that he is alive at the moment and he is strong enough to move about. He only scolded me not to think like that he was hell bent on convincing me he tried his best to keep convincing me until i finally understood.

" I know you are not happy about this but please, try to see this from my perspective. In the long run i am doing this for you and your mother okay. Now I will send you some money for daily use and wedding shopping. It's the least i could do."

He said telling me about about the money. I wasn't satisfied but it was the least a I could do so I just went with it When he said he will send some money to me for my daily use and wedding shopping. The call later ended after I told him to greet mom for me and immediately after the call, i saw the alert which after conversion it was 4 million Naira in Nigerian Naira should be happy, I was happy but it didn't reach my heart and my eyes.

First I am being married off to someone I do not love, someone that wants nothing to do with me, and now I have no other choice than to go and shop for the wedding so I could look beautiful. As if that wasn't enough to my family, my mom and dad aren't coming for my marriage. Could this day really get any worse. I sigh going back to sit on my bed all this was getting on my nerve and was really tiring for me. If only I could sleep my misery away, wouldn't that be nice, but too bad life doesn't work that way I thought as I close my eye.

Minutes later I heard a knock on the door and i opened my eyes to see Aliya walking into my room. She was holding a tray and that got me curious, I sat up on the bed so I could see what she was carrying I noticed it was noodles and I didn't know what to say.
I didn't think Aliya will come knocking and with a tray of food for that matter in her hand was a tray of food that contained noodles and pepper chicken.

"I am not hungry Aliya, why did you bring me food."

I asked her frowning but she just smiled at me trying her best to force the food on me even though I didn't want. I wasn't even hungry self so why was she forcing me I growled at her but she didn't listen to me.

" you are just being unnecessarily stubborn. Eat before it gets cold."

She said as she forced Me to eat while I ate. She told me that they are going shopping tomorrow and I was to come alone. It was going be in the afternoon with the all kamal's. I just simply nodded and played along because I didn't want to argue, beside i was try so hard to finish the  food. the shopping was just for the wedding which was coming soon. Everyone was going shopping even salman, mr and mrs kamal,aliya and mss smith we were all going together

Tomorrow arrived and Mrs Smith was the one who woke me up and got me ready for the shopping even though I didn't want to go. I got there and i was so surprised because the shopping was so amazing it was my first time that i zahra will go out with the whole kamal family, there were 2 bodyguards, and 2 police officers. The luxury cars that was used was so expensive and they were 4 in number.

I had no other choice than to enter the car with salman because Mr kamal told me to enter car together with him. I couldn't protest because the instructions was coming from Mr kamal him self so I had to obey. I kept my face and my gaze at the window the whole time, I didn't want to look at him at all because I could literally feel him glaring at me. While u looked out the window I could see that
Aliya was with mss smith as they entered one of the four car together With bodyguard's

The last car that followed behind up was the police car and it gave me a sense of relief that if anything goes wrong the police right behind us to protect us. The drive was a quiet one a very quiet one because I and Salaman said nothing to each other until we got to the shopping mall. We got the shopping mall around noon and the minutes I made an attempt to get down from the car I head him mumble something to him self. I signed and got done regardless choose not to pay any mind to him at all. I wasn't going to let him ruin my day not today.

The minute I Entered the shopping mall my eyes went while. I never seen such a place like this, it was the biggest mall ever and i am so glad. The mall was so beautiful and who ever designed it did more than a good job. The interiors of the place was just top notch and I couldn't help looking around the place to admire the beauty. I was still buying looking around as we walked round the mall looking for where to shop. That is until I noticed people looking at me.i knew I dressed well and it was thanks to Miss smith. But I didn't think people will be looking me like this.

They were all in awe saying wow so beautiful. Somewhere even surprised that I was this,That only made me smile trying my best to remain composed I didn't want to fall on my face at this moment because a lot of people were looking at me. Some Even had to stop and stare because they all saw I was walking the kamal family. I was feeling a bit nervous because of the amount of eyes on me but I knew I couldn't afford to embrace my self not inform of this person. I will never let it happen once but I am site as hell not going to let it happen again.

I could hear some people as they were saying wow they can't wait to attend the world biggest millionaire son wedding. In that moment I couldn't help but think about the wedding, how Will it be like if my father isn't going to be there. I just hope it would be too much of a broaden for me be though because I have never heard of a wedding with out the brides parents.

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