Hi, Flower.

Please don't hate me.

I don't think I can live the rest of my life with the fact that you hate me looming over my head.

Because I could never hate you. Not even for a second. Not even if I tried.

I love you. I really do. My love for you exceeds anything I've ever felt before. I just wish I wasn't having to leave you because I love you so much.

That's why I'm doing this. I'm doing this because of my love for you. That, and the fact I've completely fucked up our relationship.

All of my stupid mistakes have led up to this. I've brought you nothing but sadness and heartbreak. You deserve so much better. You deserve the entire world... and I can't give you that. I can't give you that because I'm not a good person.

But I'm not writing this note for it to be a constant reminder of all the reasons I left you. I'm writing this for all of the reasons I wish I could've stayed with you.

Even though I'm better at expressing my feelings through paint and a canvas, I'll make do with pen and paper.

Aurora. I love you.

I love you. I love everything about you.

I love your eyes. I love your smile. I love your laugh. I love the way you always smell like flowers and honey. I love the way your hand fits perfectly in mine. I love the way your hands feel like pure ecstasy when they touch my skin. I love the way your lips have the power to kiss away every single bad thought in my mind and can heal anything wrong in my life. I love the fact you'll only get a tattoo for the fact that it's sentimental.

You're my Flower. My paradise I can go to when the world feels like it's becoming too much. My Sleeping Beauty. My muse. My light. My world. My home. My everything.

I never expected to fall in love this hard. I never thought it was possible.

The love I feel for you is the type of love I thought only existed in books or movies. Where they fall so desperately in love with each other and nothing else in the world seems to matter. Just that person and whether or not they're right there by your side.

But I've realized all of that shit happens in real life. I know because it happened to me with you.

You're the person I want to spend my every waking moment with. I want to wake up every single day knowing I'm going to see the love of my life lying right beside me. You're the one who keeps me sane.

You make me feel safe. Even when no words are being exchanged between us and we're just lying together in silence, I feel your presence wrapping around me and it makes me feel like I'm the luckiest man in the universe.

And you make me feel beautiful. God, you make me feel so beautiful.

You make me feel like a piece of art. You make me feel like a masterpiece. I'm your Capolavoro and I always will be. I'll always consider myself your Capolavoro until the day I die.

You've taken over my heart, Aurora Honeycutt. You've taken over my mind, body, and soul. You're all I think about, honestly.

You're such a beautiful creature. To know that I've made you cry physically and mentally hurts me. I never want you to cry. I only want you to be happy. Because you deserve all the happiness in the world.

It feels like the world stops spinning when you smile. It's such a beautiful moment that you have to stop everything you're doing to just watch.

Oh my god, I feel like I've practically just quoted that Bruno Mars song.

But I do mean it. The amount of times you've inspired me to create something as beautiful as you are when you do the simplest of actions is immeasurable. Because you always inspire me. You inspire me to pick up a paintbrush and paint for days, trying to create a masterpiece that will somehow surmount to your beauty. But it can't be done. Nothing is as beautiful as you are.

Not only are you beautiful on the outside, but you're beautiful on the inside, too. Your mind is so, so beautiful. You care about the people around you it and it shows through every small action you do. Your heart is filled up with so much love for the ones around you, I'm surprised you made room for me in there. But somehow you did, and feeling your love is the best feeling in the entire world.

You make my heart skip a beat every time you touch me. You bring out the sun on the rainiest of days. You tell me you love me without having to say a word. You make me feel like all of my dreams are going to come true. You inspire me every day, a flower stuck in the crack of a sidewalk instantly making me think of you. You help my hands create art by simply appearing in my mind. You free me.

You're the one, Aurora. It took me too long to realize that. I'm pretty fucking dumb if we're being honest. I mean, what kind of asshole defends their ex-girlfriend? Me, apparently. I'm surprised you didn't leave immediately. I didn't deserve your love after that, I know that. Which is why I'm still in awe you're sitting in the other room at the moment. You must love me way too much for your own good if you're still in love with me after everything I've put you through. 

I read your note. The one you wrote after I had my nightmare. I know I shouldn't have, but that night I first told you I loved you, I thought I had lost you. I had screwed up and I had felt like that was our end, so I went home and read your note. You should have done it. You should have left me and found yourself. It would have saved me from having to go out there and watch you fall apart. Who knows, maybe you're here to tell me you're leaving me, which is what I'm about to go out there and tell you right now. But knowing you, you've probably decided against leaving me, which is something I'll never understand given all of the awful things I've done. 

I don't have the time to make this letter as long as I want it to be. If I could, I would never stop writing because that would mean I'd never have to leave you. I'd never have to walk out there and break your heart because that's the last thing I want to do. 

Thank you for choosing our first song. Thank you for calling me your Capolavoro. Thank you for being my Flower. Thank you for making me feel beautiful. Thank you for making me laugh. Thank you for making me happy. Thank you for braiding flowers in my hair. Thank you for slow dancing with me. Thank you for making me remember the meanings of flowers. Thank you for being my muse. 

Thank you for loving me... for letting me be your masterpiece when it felt like I was nothing at all.

Thank you for letting me love you... for letting me fall in love again.

My heart resides with you now, Flower. Take care of it. I'll be back to retrieve it one day. One day when I'm the man you need. Keep it next to yours and help mend it back together. Keep it next to yours so it feels like I'm still with you. 

I'll hope you wait for me, but I'll understand if you don't. You deserve happiness, my love. Find someone who makes you happy like how you made me happy. Find someone and make them feel beautiful... make room in that heart of yours. You did for me, and I know you can for someone else. 

I hope you slow dance with them to Frank Sinatra on top of a roof. I hope they tell you you're beautiful every single day. I hope you get to braid flowers in their hair and they braid flowers in yours. I hope they give you a ring and you give them your bracelet. I hope they love you just as fiercely as you love them. I hope they make you happy. I hope they're the one.

And if they're not, I'll still be here waiting for you. No matter what.

Never stop feeling like you're anything less than beautiful. You're that and so much more, darling. 

I love you, Aurora Honeycutt. The florist.

Love, Harry

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