We understand death only after it has placed its hands on someone we love

V

I felt numb after the explosion. Everyone around us were panicking. Jimin and Mark were shouting to leave the building immediately and people were running out. I looked around and saw Namjoon punching his uncle who was barely conscious. There were lot of explosive materials. We have to get out of there before building goes down.

I got up and pulled Namjoon away from him. "We have to get out of here" I pulled him out knowing he won't fight me. Jimin and Mark were moving downstairs. "Others got Y/n a while back. So, they should be safe" Jimin informed me. I hope she is safe. We made our way of the building quickly. Once we are out we heard huge explosion and most of the building collapsed.

I groaned when I felt the pain shot up through my arm. "Are you guys fine?" Namjoon asked looking at all of us. We all nodded saying we are fine. Jimin got a cut on his side and Mark looks completely fine. "Where is Yoongi?" I looked at Namjoon who was looking at now collapsed building. He couldn't survive I guess. Our silence gave away the answer. "Let's go to the hospital" we all piled up in my car before leaving the place.

"You got shot" Jimin yelled at me when we were in car. "I am fine" I shook his hand away but he took his jacket out placing it on my wound. Mark was driving the car and Namjoon was looking out of the window. I can't see what is going on in his mind right now. I just hope everything will be fine now though I know it won't be.

We walked directly to emergency room as soon as we came to hospital. The more I get close the more I got scared. I am not sure I can handle her condition right now. "How is she?" Namjoon asked Jin who was sitting on the waiting chair. "No update yet. They are still doing the surgery" I looked at others and noticed all of us look pretty bad with scratches and bruises. This is not new for us but the chance of losing someone we love is new to us.

"Are there any relatives of Y/n?" Doctor asked when he saw all of us. "I am her brother. How is she?" Namjoon asked when doctor walked towards him. "We got the bullet out. She is stable and out of danger for now" we sighed in relief but our happiness was short lived when he asked us the next question. 

"Did anything happen before to her?" Namjoon explained the incident how she was shot and survived last time. He said she used to get migraines if she stress herself much. That might be the reason why she fainted last time in school too. She have a bullet in her mind and she never told anyone about it. 

"We had to remove that bullet too. Surgery was successful but it seems her brain has been damaged and her nerve system is not working actively. If it doesn't get better she might die or end up in coma. We can't say anything as it depends on how her body reacts to this" Namjoon face paled after hearing the doctor words.

All of us were same I guess. There is a chance she might not wake up. Even if she did wake up she might end up brain dead in coma. I fell on to the ground when reality sink in to my brain. 

She might not wake up. I had a lot to tell her and ask for her. She can't just leave me now. I didn't get to tell her 'how sorry I am' and 'how much I love her'. I will never be able to hold her in my arms like that night. I won't be able to hear her laughs or voice.

I choked on a sob as the vision around me blurred. I rubbed my chest hoping to ease the pain but it didn't help. It hurts too much and I can't seem to bear it. "Hey" I felt Jimin sit beside me and pat my back. "I can't lose her" I grabbed his shirt and cried in his arms. He stroked my back and told me she will be fine. But I couldn't stop crying no matter what I did.

I sat in her hospital room looking at the pale girl in front of me. multiple tubes are attached to her body and her head is wrapped with huge bandage. She lost too much weight that it made me wonder how can a person be this thin within a week. Her lips were blue with sign of sickness. I sniffed and wiped my tears not wanting to cry again.

I have been crying whole week. She didn't wake up and doctors said she is in coma. They don't know when she will wake up or if she will wake up at all. Everybody has been a mess since that day. Namjoon and I barely left her room but others forced us to eat and shower. I have been living like robot except crying. My life feels useless now that she is not here. 

"Y/n, I am sorry. I should have listened to you that night. Maybe if I did you would have told me the truth then you couldn't have been alone when you were kidnapped. It is all my fault" I gently held her hand in mine and placed it on my forehead. "I have lot to tell you. I didn't get to tell you how much I love you. I didn't get to apologize for how much of an idiot I was. You can't leave me like this. Please wake up"

"Tae" I looked up and saw my friends standing at the entrance. "Don't lose Hope Tae. She will wake up for soon" Jin patted me while others shuffled in to the room. They told me how much Y/n helped them last week which made me cry more. They were my friends but I never worried about their lives while she did everything to save them. 

She helped Jimin to cure his sister. Jin has abusing father and Y/n put him behind the bar to help Jin. She convinced Hoseok and Jungkook to leave the gang soon. She even forgave us and didn't tell her brother about it when she learned about our gang activities. "You should eat Tae. Don't forget you are also injured" 

"I don't care" I ignored my injured arm which has been wrapped with bandage and a sling. The pain of losing her is more than the physical pain. I walked out giving them space to talk to her. I lit cigarette and took a puff.

"Right, I forgot You smoke"

She didn't like it when I smoke. I smiled as I remembered her annoyed face that day. My smile faded in a second when I realized where she is now. I dropped the cigarette on the ground before throwing the box in dustbin. I closed my eyes and though about her.

"You should smile more. You look good when you smile"

"I really like you Taehyung" 

"No matter what happens you won't leave me right?"

All the things she did far for me and I couldn't even tell her how much I love her. I miss her smile, kisses and warm hugs. I can't imagine my life with out her. please wake up for me. I broke down in to sobs once again.

AUTHOR NOTE:

Double update today guys... hope you enjoy the chapter

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