Loving doesn't hurt. Loving wrong person hurt 

Y/N:

Classes dragged out very long today. It felt as two days for me.  I was waiting patiently for lunch time. "Y/N, come to the office" it popped from speakers. I got up from my seat to ask permission. "You may go" I walked to office wondering what it might be about. I peeked through the door and saw principal was looking at some papers.

"Good morning sir, you called me?" he looked at me and dropped the papers on the table. "Come in Y/n. Sit down" I took seat in front of him. "These are your reports from home. Your family requested to send them to school instead of your home for security reasons" I looked at those papers he was holding.

They were my health reports from hospital back in America. I just stared at them unaware of what to say. "It seems you are still on medication" I was playing with my skirt nervously. "Wait, are you taking your medicine?" I slowly shook my head.

I stopped taking medicine a while ago. "You shouldn't do that. They assigned a new doctor for you. You better follow this time. It's important to take care of your health Y/n" I sighed "I am sorry sir, I won't do that this time"

"If you have problem in school come to me anytime" I took the papers from him. "I will, thank you sir" I put them in bag when I went to class. It was almost over by the time I went.

As the bell rang everyone left quickly. I took my bag and started walking. Why would they send these reports to the school? They should have just mailed me. Why Mark didn't tell me about this when I video called him? 

First thing I did was call Mark. "Hey, how you doing?" I was majorly pissed at them now. "Are you crazy? Why did you send my reports to school?" he smiled sheepishly "well it was your brother's idea. He said that someone should know about you in school so that they can take care of you" I just closed my eyes to calm myself. "Guys... I am not a kid. I know how to take care of my problems. Just don't push me too much" he held his hands up "I know I know so stop lecturing. I will tell him too"

"Did you find anything?" he shook his head "stop worrying about us and enjoy there instead. If he knows I told you anything he will kill me" I rolled my eyes. My brother has always been over protective. "Don't worry much. I have to go" I opened my mouth to say something but he hung up already. Seriously they are too much. They are not even telling me about him.

I pulled out the reports from bag. Dr. Park. Wait. I have appointment today. If I skip this time my brother will definitely kill me. I have to go. I have to talk about photography contest with Kai and history project with V. Appointment in the evening seems a busy day.

Before going to lunch I went to washroom. I splashed water on my face. I have dark circles under my eyes. My face looks so dull without sleep. I don't know what I am doing. I can't sleep and I am continuously getting nightmares about that night. I still feel like something is missing that night. Something important which could lead me to find him and the reason behind his actions. I sighed before splashing water again. "Ouch" who the hell pushed me?

"What are you playing?" Hyemi was holding me by my hair. Her friends were blocking the entrance. She looked so furious. This is the first time I am talking to her directly. I have seen her lot of times in school but never had to talk to her. "What do you mean? Let me go" I tried to ease her hold but she wasn't buying. "You fought with V and befriended others. Now you are hanging out with Kai. You whore" I sighed "It is none of your business what I do with my life" I pushed her and her grip loosened a bit but not enough to break free. "Leave me while I am being nice" she laughed sarcastically.

"Or what will you do?" enough she won't listen with words. I pulled her hand back and turned back. I folded her hand behind her back and pushed her to front. "Don't mess with me. I don't like to get involve with you" she fell on the floor and hit her hand. She whimpered and glared at me. I glared back at her and turned around. Her friends looked a bit frightened. They rushed to help her. I left the place to get some fresh air knowing they won't bother me for now. Ugh I seriously hate school now. What is wrong with people? Can't they leave me alone?

I sat at the bleachers for the remaining day thinking. I have too many things in my little brain that I got slight headache. I sighed knowing thinking is not helping at all. I have to think of another way of what happened that day.

*ring*

I ignored my phone. Jia and Minjun have been calling me. I know I have to give them explanation when I meet them. I left my bag and jacket with Minjun too. I have to go and get it. I also promised to discuss the project with Kai. I have one hour before school ends. I went to art class directly. I can get my bag later besides this class doesn't need books today.

I must have been zoomed out cause I bumped in to Kai. "What are you thinking about? Me?" I rolled my eyes at his cockiness. He might be nice but he can be cocky when needed.

"You wish" he laughed "Sure" I shook my head smiling at his words. "I was looking for you in lunch" I  frowned remembering the whole thing "I was a bit busy" I glanced around to see everyone watching us "so why did you look for me?" he shifted around his weight from left to right leg. "I wanted to ask if you want to sit with us for lunch" he glanced around nervously. I realized everyone is still watching us.

"Taemin and Naeun were missing you" he covered instantly. Once we sat in our seats everyone got back to their works. "I will sit with you all tomorrow then" he clapped his hands and I chuckled at his excitement. "Great. Let's talk about project now" I nodded and opened his book which he gave me and waited for him to explain. "Project is about nature or beauty just like the one they gave us in our class. It may be anything people or nature. But we can't shoot pet animals or caged animals or improper things" I nodded knowingly. That is the basic at every contest. He told me he wanted me to participate in photography contest which is conducted between different schools. I agreed since I want to become a photographer too. 

"First we have to send a picture to them online. If we get selected they will promote us to second round. First round judging will be done by number of votes we get for our picture" I read all the conditions while listening to him. "So what should we chose for our picture" we looked at few pictures as basic synopsis mentioned on the contest book. "We will think about it. It won't be that easy" I agreed on that. Last time we spent two hours still got nothing. First round and our project are same. It will be like two birds one shot.

"You know these can help us in real life experience too" I nodded my head. "I know and we should work hard to win this" he nodded "we will do our best for this" we high fived and bumped fist laughing. Soon the bell rang and we went to our lockers. I saw Minjun and Jia waiting at the locker for me

"Where were you?" I smiled sheepishly "sorry. I was late so I went to class directly" she shoved my bag to me. "Kai this is Jia, my friend. And Jia this is Kai" she raised her eyebrows knowingly. Of course she already knows him. They both are studying in same school. I slapped myself mentally at my stupidity. "We already know each other" she smiled and shook hand with him. Are they on formal mode or something? Minjun and I looked at each other confusingly.

"We are not close. We just know each other's names" that explained it. "Hey guys" we turned around and saw all of the guys "we were thinking of going to café. Who is tagging with us?" Jia raised her hand while Minjun looked at me. "Sorry but I have some work so I can't come" Jia frowned at me. "Can't you come even for short time" I smile apologetically.

"What is he doing here?" V snapped at Kai rudely. "I should leave then" I smiled apologetically again this time to Kai "ok, I will call you when I am free then" he nodded "sure bye" I watched as he went. "So you are calling him huh?" I rolled my eyes Jia. Of course she will never leave a chance to tease me.

Jia and Minjun are happy about Kai but boys are mad. I can see that. I have to talk to V about project and I already forgot. "V, can I talk to you?" Jhope raised his eyebrows suspiciously. He walked out without an answer. How rude. "I will see you later guys" I followed him outside.

"What do you want?" he took cigarette out. I never know he smoke too. "About project. We have to finish the project by next week" he took a puff from his cigarette and turned to me "I told you to do it by yourself" I sighed loudly "I am not going to do it alone. Meet me tomorrow here at the same time. We can finish it early" he looked up then nodded agreeing with me. I turned around quickly and walked as fast as I can unable to stand the smoke anymore.

two things done and one more to go, which is the the most dreading moment today. I stood looking at hospital building in front of me. Let's get with this as well. I always hated going to hospitals. The sounds people crying and losing someone dear to us always scared me.

I went to reception. "Hello. I am Y/n" she searched the list and turned to me. "Mr. Park is waiting for you. His room is on 4th floor third room on the left" I nodded and left. I knocked before entering his room.

"Hello Y/n" he was in his early thirties and has a really nice smile. He looks like model more than a doctor. "Hi" he opened the file which has my reports and studied it. He told me to sit down while he studied my reports. "It seems you still have effects" I sighed knowing how conversation will end. "I do. I get severe headaches sometimes" he nodded as he wrote it down on some white paper. "Are you getting any nightmares or panic attacks?" I remained silent knowing what will happen if I answer.

He put down his pen and looked at me gently "I need to know about your condition completely so that I can help you" I sighed before answering "I have nightmares but not the panic attacks" he nodded before noting it down. "What are they about?" I thought about it recalling all the dreams I have been getting. "They are all of the same night"

He was making note of everything I am saying. He wasn't judging me like my previous doctor so I continued. "Every time it gets a little different" he paused giving me a pointed look. "Like what?" I played with my bag strap with my hands looking down. "The way he looked at me changed. Like he knows what he is doing is wrong. I didn't felt like this before"

"Our mind plays tricks sometimes to cope up with the pain. It might be your imagination or it could be real and you were too scared to notice the small details at that time" he wrote something else in another note. "Does that mean what I am seeing in dreams could be true" he nodded "It could be. If you have become mentally strong to accept the truth then you might realize the things which you didn't notice previously" I kept silent as I took his words in.

"It could be your mind making things so that you can accept the things too. So don't be assured on anything" this time all the thoughts collapsed. He chuckled at my bewilderment expression. "Give it some time it will come to you. For now I will give you a medication. We will have your tests run next week" I shifted my weight as he wrote down prescription.

"Don't ignore and take medicine regularly" I took sheet from him and kept in bag. "I will" I gave a smile before leaving his room. It wasn't that bad as I thought it would be. It was like a philosophy class more than check up. My old doctor would always say I am thinking too much and give me bunch of medicine. But he is different , he listened to me. If he is right I think I have a way to find out what happened with him that day. I waited for the lift. It opened but I was stuck when I saw who was in.

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