I close my eyes
And it's still there

Mocking me
Locking me

In a grip of
Sadness and grief

Sinister smile
Bearing teeth

Wondering when
It's going to leave

The squatter stays
My life replays

In the fog of
My mind's eye

Deep, deep sleep
Preparing to die

It's shadow
Still lingering

Feel confused
Peace refused

Polluting my
Every stride

Restricting me
With utter pride

It mixes in
With all of me

I can't tell
It's like hell

It's no longer an
Unwanted guest

But a lifelong thing
Which gives no rest

No I can't
Just save myself

It's too strong
Journey's too long

So why don't
I just end it here

At least that feeling
Is sincere