Here With Me - Susie Suh & Robot Koch

Jeongguk can't see anything.

Everything is so blurred. Mixed with dark spot and a melting slide of the walls that shifts into familiar colors it once was a long time ago.

They won't stop screaming.

Make it stop, please.

"YOU AND JEONGGUK KEEP ME LIKE A FUCKING PRISONER HERE! I'M YOUR BOYFRIEND NOT A FUCKING ANIMAL!"

"YOU HONESTLY BELIEVE I COULD TRUST YOU AFTER WHAT YOU DID TO ME?!"

"YOU TOLD ME YOU FORGIVEN ME!"

A loud bang echoes the room. One that made Jeongguk's body tremble brutally and a weak sob escape his lips as he covers his ears.

Knowing well it was because of Taehyung's hand that went through the wall again.

"I CAN'T FORGET! I DON'T TRUST YOU ANYMORE JIMIN!"

"DIDN'T KNOW DOUBT ALSO CAME WITH BRUISING MY BODY!"

Jeongguk gently thuds his head back against the wall, hoping to block them out but it's still so loud.

So..... Present.

No matter how much he begged and begged for it to stop, it won't.

He heard them.

Shit he's even starting to see them-

A touch on his wrists came out of no where, provoking a scream out of his mouth even though he can't see anything.

They're coming for him now too.

Then they're going to fight, and then it will be a spiral all over again

He can't do this.

Not anymore-

"Jeongguk? Can you hear me?"

Who said that?!

Fuck he can't see anything!

"Jeongguk, it's okay. You're safe. You're not there."

W-What?

Slowly the walls he was surrounded by were not the same color anymore, but he can still hear the voices.

It's hurting his ears!

"Take deep breathes with me and count to five, okay? And then I want you to name five things you can see."

Is this an angel?

Or is Jeongguk officially going crazy?

However he just closed his eyes and took deep breathes. A deep inhale and a slow exhale, keeping a good pause in between before doing it again. Every time he did that, the more drifted those screams and images got, all the way until it was all just gone and his surroundings now were different.

Where is he?!

Why is everything so different?

Two people stood in were kneeling in front of him, one of them checking his pulses and flashing a light to each eye while the other was being an emotional support and gently caressing his hair.

W-What-

"Name five things you can see Jeongguk?"

The boy checking his pulses stated and Jeongguk was too terrified to even say something against it. So he looks around the room and moved his shakily lips to his surroundings.

"A-A door. The floor..... U-Um, a bed. Lamp. A p-picture frame."

A picture frame....

He can't see properly who's being the picture with him but he knows someone is there.

"That's good. You're doing great!" The boy is check the pulses of his other hand while looking at his watch, "Four things you can touch."

Jeongguk feel his heart slowly slowing down but he's still shaking and sniffling hard, so he clears his throat, "Y-Your hand," He whispers, making the boy nod, "A-And your hand."

The one with the highlights smiles softly as he continues to caress Jeongguk's hair, hoping to calm him down. The ravenette gulps and looks around, "The floor....And wall."

Now the room began to feel more and more familiar, along with the two boys as his steadiness with the world completely comes into affect.

Slowly coming to his consciousness.

"Three things you can hear?"

No screaming anymore.

"My breathing," Jeongguk respond quietly and tries to pay more pay more attention to what else he can hear, "Cars outside..... Your watch ticking."

Woosung and Ten.

They're here.

They're helping him become grounded.

To not be afraid anymore.

"You're doing so good Bambi," Woosung praises as he he takes both of his band and tested them for any blood circulation and reflexes, "Two things you can smell?"

"Cotton candy," Jeongguk whispers, knowing very well thats Ten's scent with a small smile, "And maybe your lavender shampoo."

Woosung snickers as he puts his hands down and nods to himself as Jeongguk's body calms down, "One thing you can taste, the last one."

For a moment Jeongguk paused, thinking about it for a minute but when his eyes landed to Ten, he softly smiles. So carefully he leans forward and presses their lips together. A simple and tender kiss to completely wipe away the trauma from his head for good.

A sweet one, where all of his worries were gone in the back of his head and now surfaced with a delicate truth.

He never ever wanted for Ten to see him so weak and vulnerable. He never wanted him to see a fragile side of himself because he wanted him to see only the version that he wanted.

But with this attack, Jeongguk just couldn't hide himself anymore.

If whatever they have is real, he has to start being more real and facing this on a more real level.

To show his lowest, along with his highest moments.

Yet that didn't stop Jeongguk's worry.

So when he gently pulls away he looks into Ten's eyes, "I'm not strong. I tried so hard to be someone you wanted me to be and I lost so much of my stable ground, I failed you," He admits quietly, "I feel like I don't know who I am anymore. I don't even know if what we have is real or fake because of this, but I'm done hiding."

Jeongguk feels his heart weigh heavy to the truth now into the open, ready for Ten to take his leave and go to leave Jeongguk with his bullshit to deal with. Ten didn't sign up to be a baby sitter or to have someone who can handle themselves in his life, adding more baggage to his shoulders.

However he was surprised when Ten gently caresses his cheek and presses a kiss to his forehead, "I took interest on you for you. I don't want you to be anyone else for me, I just want you to be you, my stupid precious Kookie."

A breathless chuckle escapes the ravenette's lips, more so out of relief upon hearing this as he continues to stare into Ten's eyes with a twitching smile on his lips, "Then I guess I should start showing all sides of me huh?"

"Whenever you're ready baby," Ten whispers and wraps his arms around his neck and gently brings him to his chest in a tight hug, "There's no pressure."

Jeongguk flutters his eyes as he lays his head on Ten's chest, inhaling his sweet scent and feeling warm in his soothing arms. Yet while he felt this warm in the arms of Ten, his hand was interlaced tightly with Woosung tight grip.

Who felt so touched by this moment that tears were streaming down his cheeks with a weak smile on his lips, holding both of his and Ten's hands to keep them comforted.

Then Jeongguk realized something.

"Woosung, the party.... You didn't go to the party?"

Ten and Woosung suddenly chuckles to the worries of the ravenette, trying to figure out why out of all things he's worried about that specifically.

"Fuck the party, this is more entertaining."

"Ah yes, aiding a flashback panic attack, so ideal."

Woosung chuckles softly and rubs their knuckles, "Yeah, I guess it is."

Jeongguk's eyes were already fluttered shut by the time Woosung said this, but Ten was not blinded by that affectionate stare Woosung was staring at the ravenette with.

And his grin twitched wider.

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A/N:
Aw this last moment was so sweet!!

Makes my heart warm while writing it.

So just a warning, Taehyung's scene is not so triggering but perhaps Jimin's scene will so please be careful while reading it.

I PURPLE YOU! <333