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"MINHO!"
Taehyung bolting. He's sprinting through the trees, down a pathway with heavy pants and squeaking shrieks ringing past his dry lips as his legs strides quickly more than it ever has before
His body is acting out of anxiety, not daring turning his head back as he moves with a purpose in desperate search of the familiar male.
"MINHO!" Taehyung shrieks again, finally coming upon a familiar creak to see the male he's been looking for sitting on a rock, meditating in front of the calm stream.
Taehyung didn't even think twice before throwing his whole body onto Minho, who didn't even flinch as he kept his meditated posture.
By now Taehyung is shaking and using Minho as a shield, "Minho help me! They're coming after me I know they are!"
By this Minho didn't even bother to go on edge, instead he takes a deep breath and lets it out slowly, "Taehyung, the bees aren't coming after you."
"YES THEY ARE!" Taehyung retorts as he claws his fingers against Minho's back and looks over his shoulder in case he sees any of his worst enemy, "They have been around me ever since I got here. They are plotting against me, I KNOW IT!"
Minho let's out an exasperated breath and slowly opens his eyes, his gaze unmovable from the stream, "Taehyung, please do us a favor and get off of me-"
"No! You're my shield right now. They'll attack you instead of me-"
"Taehyung," Minho says calmly, now placing his hands on his hips, "Look at how you're on me right now."
Of course Taehyung didn't think of the position he was in with Minho while he was shielding his life, but now that Minho mentioned it he realized how he's straddling his lap with legs around his torso and tied to the back. They chest are pressed up close against each other with absolutely no space at all, trailing to Taehyung's arms around Minho's shoulders and fingers digging against his back painfully.
This moment rights now through the eyes of anyone else would seem so entirely wrong.....
So, so wrong.
Taehyung pulls his head back and was about to scramble away, but then he met Minho's gaze looking up at him and he somehow froze.
Lately the once nerdy looking kid has been a changed man. His once plain brown hair is now covered with pretty blonde and light color highlights, brushed back and away from his handsome face to show better of every curve and strong lines molded that his skin forms; Especially without his glasses now Taehyung can see it better.
His eyes is what held Taehyung captivated. It was this familiar cold and transparent window of emotions, that held nothing but this intensity to conceal it all back.
Letting Taehyung only see his own reflection staring back out to him.
Something about this makes Taehyung feel almost breathless, despite the soft wind blowing against his now warm cheeks by how badly he's blushing. Minho gulps thickly and his hand on Taehyung's hips tightens.
When Taehyung moved his hips forward, it was as though Minho broke from his trance and blinks. He immediately breaks eye contact and clears his throat, tapping his fingers against Taehyung's hip.
"I um..... I'm not gay Taehyung," Minho says quietly, "I'm straight. So um..... Can you please get off?"
Wait he's straight?
Well Taehyung does get that vibe from him but sometimes people can be a bit curious? So Taehyung perhaps thought he was at least bisexual.
It's not like Taehyung was planning on hitting on him or anything like that because he's definitely not interested in him-
Ah forget it.
So with a stiff nod and a cleared of his own throat, Taehyung gets off him and sits beside him, saying a quiet 'sorry' for the personal space being invaded.
It was like a switch for Minho to go back to his previous calm and peaceful self as he continues to take deep breathes, meditating to find his center of balance.
"You should practicing unblocking your chakras, find a way to find balance your energy," Minho says quietly with eyes closed, "That's what I'm doing now at least."
Taehyung raises an eyebrow to this, fighting to roll his eyes, "I am very balanced, thank you very much."
"So you have nothing disturbing your peace of mind? Letting yourself not feel calm like the flow of the this stream?"
Well.....
Okay, maybe that's not entirely true but as if meditating is going to let whatever he's feeling go. He's seen a counselor and went to anger management classes and nothing has helps.
How would meditating do that?
However it's not like Taehyung had much to do since he has no service here, so mind as well do whatever this spiritual thingy is.
So he crosses his legs and mimics Minho's position, immediately feeling his back ache by how straight he's sitting up.
"Chakras are spiritual energy in our bodies, influences our state of beings in our everyday lives," Minho informs Taehyung as smooth as the stream, "Lets start by unblocking your root chakra."
By now Taehyung is shifting like crazy by how his back is uncomfortable, but after Minho peeled an eye open to give him a glare to stay stable, he buffs and remains calm with his own eyes closed.
"What's a root chakra?
"It's at the base of your spine. This chakra is as direct as the name, roots. This is the chakra that keeps yourself ground, like survival and security. Blocking it could be fears, worries, or something that is in the way of you being unbalanced. Could be thoughts of the future, fear of bees, having no food when you get home, childhood trauma, anxiety, things in the way of losing your stability."
Taehyung thinks about it well, not sure really what worries him thats in the way of him keeping a calm life.
But when he really thinks about it, its just more than one thing really.
This fear of exploding.
Not being comfortable in his own body.
Or being someone he's not.
"I don't know," Taehyung says quietly, keeping his eyes shut as he imagines all those horrid moments of losing control because of his thoughts, "I can't control my anger at times and it tends to get in the way of me being able to even breathe because it gives me anxiety about everything I do. I'm afraid I might hurt someone all the time, so I'm never confident whenever I meet someone new."
Minho didn't judge. He only responds back with a soft hum, "Remember those moments then. Every single one of the times where you would lose control because of your anger and anxiety, let the fears surface."
Taehyung takes a few deep breathes as he lets those memories flood his mind. Every single one he's held back by a cage, refusing to ever remember them again. It was almost so overwhelming seeing them flood his mind, observing the monster he becomes when surrounded by so much anger.
"And take a deep breath in, and gently let it go with an exhale. Practice that a few times until you feel every distressed memory of that slowly being let go, filling you with nothing but relaxation and a sense of healing. Take your time, there's no rush."
Taehyung's memories of lack of security has to go all the way to when his mother left him as a kid, being to only be raised by his father. Not like his father hated him, but their relationship could've been better. They rarely had anything to even eat at times and would starve for days.
So perhaps that's blocking his..... Sense of compassion with people?
Been a ghost that other will abandon him so easily?
Filling him with this sense that he can't even breathe properly because of constantly being paranoid of keeping everything in check, which results with him being so controlling.
Since he never had it as a child?
Fuck he doesn't even know if he's doing this right.
So with deep breathes, he lets the memories burn in his head and then slowly, just like his exhales, let's it go just like the river streams.
Finding himself a balance.
A way to keep himself steady. Letting go of those moments where he felt vulnerable to not let it drag his confidence now, and be able to uphold his own.
After practicing letting go every memory laced to that, he felt this relaxation start cruising through his body that even made his fingers tingle.
And just like that he unblocked his root chakra.
"Wow, that felt nice," Taehyung whispers quietly, letting the sound of nature and the stream cool every cell in his body, "I think I need more time to break that one through. May I know the next one before getting to it?"
Minho's corner of his lip twitches into a smile.
"Sacral Chakra, our emotions with ourselves and everyone around us. One tends to get very detached or refuse to feel emotions because of how much it hurts to do so when it's blocked; you feel like you can't control anything anymore, which is also where we rely to addictions for us to feel calm and also have sex in a way to brush the sense of feeling and could become manipulative. After unlocking your root chakra, with this one keep in mind of the things you can't control in your life, along with things that makes you feel guilty or angry and slowly start thinking of the things that makes you feel creative and passionate."
Hm, Taehyung will have to think about that one more before getting to it. Being able to pinpoint where his anger comes from and why he constantly has it is easy, but passionate?
That can be a bit hard.
Taehyung thinks about it for a moment or two longer but Minho suddenly exhaled deeply and rises to his feet, making Taehyung move his eyes to him with a twitching frown.
"We're done?"
"Dinner hour is coming soon," Minho says as he stretches his legs, "Also, if you want to unblock your root chakra, being able to move and be connected with nature is part of it. So let's go for a walk."
The more Taehyung thinks about it, the more this all makes no sense to him.
Why is Minho doing this?
Why does is he help Taehyung so much with this?
Since the beginning Minho has always mentioned his closed off and strict personality with Taehyung, avoiding him for so long and not wanting any type of interaction with him.
Coming here to this mountain, staying for a few days at a temple, to help Taehyung is just something so bizarre for someone to do for him.
That's something Taehyung will never understand however he's not complaining. Yeah the bees are shit, and maybe sleeping on the floor is not ideal, but having a moment like right now does feel like his life for once was in pause.
And he could focus the core of it to find a balance.
So with a small twitching smile, Taehyung also gets up and stretches as well before the two bowed to each other and headed back to the temple.
With now Taehyung focusing more on the beautiful trees rather than the bees that he was so afraid of.
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A/N:
I recently started to learn more about the chakras, so I apologize if I do get somethings wrong. I actually want to start meditating on this and finding a balance myself as well, so learning about this really does help lol
So far his weekend is going spiritual, let's see how it goes for the rest of the day!!
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