Everything I Wanted - Billie Eilish

There's this anxiety bubbling up in Taemin's body when he soars up the stairs of Yeosang's apartment building, not even feeling tired like how he usually would after climbing up a whole fucking stair case because of the adrenaline but he doesn't care.

None of that matters.

He needs to get to Jimin.

That's it.

With that being the inpulse he needed, he finally got to the sixth floor and dashed down the hallway, arriving in front of a door and not wasting time to barge inside as Yeosang said to do since the door was open.

The sounds of instant sobbing and screeches is what nearly felt as though Taemin got punched across the face. It was by how familiar the noise is what clenched his heart in his chest with wild eyes instantly looking around the living room after closing the door behind him.

Right there, sitting on the couch, sits Jimin with arms hugging his small scrunched up body, crying so hard that his face is now red and cheeks drenched with tears. Yeosang is sitting beside him, rubbing his back with a deep frown as he tries to calm him down but nothing is working.

Jimin is going through a very horrible and deep mental breakdown.

Without even thinking about it, Taemin instantly rushes in front of him, gets to his knees in front of him so Jimin can look at him, "Hey Jimin, it's relax okay. I'm here-"

"GET AWAY FROM ME!" Jimin suddenly screams, pushing Taemin's hands away from him frantically with such an anxious expression on his face that Taemin has ever seen before, "DON'T TOUCH ME! Y-YOU'RE JUST GOING TO FUCK WITH MY HEAD! JUST LIKE EVERYONE ELSE!"

To say Taemin was so hurt and awestruck would be an understatement. He's completely destroyed as though he was stabbed by a fucking chainsaw, slammed by a dozen bricks, just everything all at once.

What hurt the most has to be the horrified look in Jimin's eyes as he looks at Taemin.

As though he doesn't know him anymore.

What the fuck happened?!

Taemin glances at Yeosang, who is looking at him equally as shocked as he is, before fixing his eyes back to Jimin. The poor boy looks absolutely mortified, almost as though Taemin was the demon of his nightmares right in front of him. It's such a look filled with so much fear and pain that Taemin has ever seen.

No this isn't right....

This is not right.

Taemin softens his gaze and tries to touch his hands again, "Jimin don't say that. What happened-"

A loud slap echoes the room that only followed by a sting on Taemin's cheek when his face flew to the side.

Silence.

A deafening silence.

It wasn't even the pain of the slap that had Taemin slowing looking back to Jimin so hysterical with his own tears burning his eyes, but it's the fact that Jimin even decided to hit him in the first place.

His Jimin.

He's never this violent, ever.

He's in a deep hole now and he can't seem to wake up from it, from the ongoing nightmares of his own reality that he use to live in.

He has to snap out of it.

Now.

So Taemin was bold enough to clasps both of Jimin's cheeks with his hands, instantly making an immediate reaction that forced Jimin to sob louder.

"GET AWAY-"

"YOU KNOW ME JIMIN!" Taemin explodes back, forcing Jimin's lips to choke on his words that he was about to say, letting more tears glide down his cheeks but Taemin didn't stop, "YOU KNOW ME! YOU KNOW I WOULD NEVER HURT YOU, EVER!"

And gently he leans their foreheads together, letting his own tear slide down his cheek, "Come back to me Gatita. You know me. I wouldn't hurt you. It's okay, come back to me."

Jimin's sobs quiet down to sniffles yet his panting remains hard as he kept his eyes closed, letting that nightmare slowly fade away to the back of his head.

Taemin......

Taemin..... Would never hurt him.

He takes care of him.

Makes sure he always eats.

Helps him with any homework that Jimin doesn't understand.

Got him MinMin as an emotional support cat whenever he feels anxious and no one is home.

Taemin...... Is nothing like how they said he is.

They don't know him.

Not like how Jimin knows him.

"Taemin," Jimin breathes quietly, slowly snaking his shakily hands up and clasp them to the back of Taemin's neck as an emotional support, "My amor."

Taemin hates it so much when he calls him that.

No, not because he doesn't like to be called my love, but because it raises his hopes up too high.

Amor is such a heavy and intimate word, filled with so much loving emotions to another person.

No matter how many times Taemin has explained that to Jimin, the other still calls him that.

And it always makes Taemin's heart melt inside his soul from just hearing it.

He couldn't stop himself from twitching a smile and gently caress Jimin's cheek with his thumb, "There you are."

Jimin stays silent for a moment before slowly coming to more and more realization to the present, suddenly gasping and pulling his head back. For a good second Taemin believed he hurt him or something.

But no..... Jimin was just looking at his slap mark on Taemin's cheek, not growing more hysterical than before.

"I'm so sorry! I d-didn't mean to!" Jimin squeaks in panicked, moving his hand to feather the swollen skin with his touch that Taemin fought so hard to not flinch, "I'm so so sorry. I just..... Ah I don't even know what I was thinking-"

"Hey relax," Yeosang quietly interjects, still rubbing Jimin's back that instantly made him calm down, "I'm pretty sure Taemin will treasure that mark on his face for a long time."

Taemin was unable to hide a poker faced look to the other male, even though he's low key right, but yet that managed to make Jimin just twitch the corner of his lip so it wouldn't be so sad.

However they didn't say anything more at the moment, just to let Jimin take the time he needs to calm down. As much as those impulsive thoughts of Taehyung and Jeongguk's words kept slamming into his mind, having Yeosang protectively hug him from the side while calm rubbing his side while Taemin rubs his hands with his thumb really pushed that all away.

And for once in so long, Jimin didn't feel afraid.

It's funny because they didn't have to do anything....... They're not really doing anything besides comforting him, yet that still felt as though they were like a protective shield around his body to seal him from the world.

Honestly Jimin didn't even know what he was thinking when he called Yeosang to pick him up, but all he knew was that at the moment he needed him there. The few times Jimin had been around Yeosang, it always has felt as though Jimin was walking with a sword.

He didn't feel weak or worthless, he actually felt strong.

Meanwhile with Taemin he felt safe and protected, like a shield and armor. Even if the world is all against Jimin, just by having Taemin by his side makes it all feel better.

The two are his safe haven.

Where he feels the most safest.

And then such a relief to feel after years of being so afraid.

After a while Jimin finally managed to stop sniffling and raised his hands from Taemin's gross to wipe his dry tears away, letting out a heavy sigh under his breath, "I don't want to open up about what happened yet-"

"No rush Minnie," Yeosang quickly interjects, rubbing his hair tenderly, almost like a mother rubbing the hair of their small child, "Take your time."

Taemin stares between the two of them, feeling so relieved that Jimin also has Yeosang in his life; who seems to care about him a lot despite the small amount of time they have since they've met.

It's reassuring to know Jimin can rely on more people and he's slowly getting use to it.

He's coming out of his shell, baby steps but it's there.

And Taemin can't help but feel so proud of him for it.

Jimin turns his head to Yeosang and manages to weakly smile, now moving to lay his head on his shoulder, "You two are very patient, thank you."

The soft compliment made Taemin smile, being bold to interlace their fingers together while rising his other hand to boop his nose, making Jimin scrunch it up cutely.

"That's what happens when you care about someone, you're patient."

The two shared a sweet smile to each other, one that seems all too familiar to their fragile hearts. Meanwhile Yeosang gulps thickly and averts his eyes away, growing tense to how Jimin is on his shoulder naturally.

And he couldn't stop the way his heart began to accelerate so fast, to the sight of Jimin and Taemin alone.

And he knew that was going to become a problem in the future for him.

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A/N:
This chapter....... Wow.....

Ugh these three are probably going to be the reason I cry the most in this story :')

Okay actually-

Anywaysss next chapter let's see what Jeongguk and Ten are up to!

I PURPLE YOU! <33