Sorry - Halsey

Taehyung was having a hard time not falling asleep as he lays back on Jeongguk's bed, watching him strum his guitar with eyes closed as he gently sways side to side to the rhythm.

The tone alone sounds a bit delicate and maybe a bit melancholy, but it definitely set the tone to how the atmosphere feels like.

A little depressing, not like Taehyung is about to say that.

Meanwhile Jimin is laying his head on Taehyung's chest, eyes closed but he wasn't sleeping. He kept tracing Taehyung's tattoos on his chest with the pad of his fingertip, relaxing as Taehyung runs his fingers through his fingers.

Things right now between them don't exactly feel so suffocating but it's tense, maybe because they don't exactly know what to expect, or maybe because they're a bit on edge since they haven't exactly fought. They haven't been together for awhile so this did feel a little weird too.

At least they haven't fought, which is a record.

As strange as it is, Taehyung can't tell exactly how Jeongguk or Jimin are feeling about the relationship. They do seem happy, theres no doubt that they're being just as careful as Taehyung is to observe how it's going between them.

They just don't want to commit something stupid like they did in the past. If this relationship ends up sticking around longer than they thought and they're not exactly as hopeless as they thought to be, than they will stay together.

That means they don't want to fuck it up.

If that is the reality that they will always end up coming back together.

What's hard for Taehyung now is the relationship itself. Yes he still has strong affection for them, and deep down instead he wouldn't have stopped being responsive to them whenever they reached out, but have the same feelings he once did in the past?

Probably not.

He has love for them as a first love, but not in love.

But if this works and the reality is that they are meant together, than maybe he can fall all over again, right?

The only problem for Taehyung now is Minho.

Shit, he misses him like crazy.

But with this relationship he'll forget about him eventually, or so Taehyung hopes. Not like they were something serious, he just misses his presence.

The thought of Minho only made Taehyung shake his head, brushing him off but he couldn't.

He remembered his face when Taehyung told him he was taken.

The bracelet that Taehyung had refused to take off and keeping the note in his wallet, safely there to keep at all times.

He doesn't know why but he just can't... He can't throw it away.

Fuck, he's losing his mind.

So he gently tugs Jimin's hair, making the other male flutter his eyes open and look up to Taehyung. No questions were asked, Taehyung went straight down and pressed their lips together.

He wanted to feel anything, something to cling onto that he didn't do something stupid by agreeing to this. It would be a lie if he said he didn't feel a pinch at the pit of his stomach through this kiss as Jimin responds back by kissing him, so that means there's still this part of him that still belongs to them.

And he needs that part to grow.

So he pressed Jimin down against the bed, hovering over him with a hand to his cheek, just like how he likes it, and deepens the kiss no matter how it feels like he's betraying his heart.

His mind blurred when he felt another pair of lips on his neck, fingers snagging the back of his hair and kept him in place. Taehyung growls a little under his breath to the sensation of being caged between the two bodies, so he grabs Jeongguk's hand from his hair and yanks him to lay beside Jimin on the bed, to which he moved to kiss him aggressively.

Taehyung is going to move on.

And this is the best way to do it, to face his demons of the same nightmare. Letting it determine if they're meant to be or better off apart.

And a small voice in the back of Taehyung's mind is hoping it's the last option.

His mind was blurred, he couldn't even focus anymore as clothes were stripped off and he was suddenly fucking into Jeongguk while the ravenette fucks into Jimin.

But Taehyung did feel.

He felt more than he processed what was going on, and what he felt was ache.

So much ache.

Especially when his gaze flashed to the bracelet wrapped around his wrist, the same wrist connected to the hand that's snagging onto Jeongguk's raven hair.

Stop feeling, please make it stop.

Angrily Taehyung bites down against Jeongguk's shoulders, hoping to mute a sob that desperately wanted to escape his throat.

It shouldn't hurt.

It shouldn't hurt.

They weren't together.

They weren't even in love.

Taehyung shouldn't be feeling like this.

And he's not going to.

Maybe not now, but he will soon.

With that determination he reached his climax, pulling out of Jeongguk and cums on his back, letting everything out to finally not feel anything as his vision blurred before his eyes.

Numbly he lets go of Jeongguk's hair and raised his wrist, pressing his lips against the bracelet before slumping himself on the bed beside their bodies. Jeongguk and Jimin are still going at it, reaching their climax moments later.

And then it was silent.

Just..... Silent.

Yet the sound of Taehyung's heart breaking sounded a bit too loud against his ears, but thankfully that's just a sound he dwells onto it alone.

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A/N:
Smut ish?

Yeah I know it's not exactly heated and passionate as the ones I've written before, reason being is that I want to show more of Taehyung's thought process while it was happening. How it wasn't something passionate or heated as he wanted, especially since he's going through an emotional dilemma.

Well let's see what's going to happen!

I PURPLE YOU! <333