I'm still crying 4 months later.

He's really not coming back?

I'm still being blamed but now I'm sick of it. So is Emily.

I still write songs, me and Em still hang out but it's different.

Felix doesn't sing with me or help with the timing, he doesn't pick movies with us,

We stopped our pranks, Emily helped sometimes but it felt wrong without him.

The Crew left me and my only friend left was Emily.

She was the only one who believed me.

My only friend.

The kids at school were either scared of me for making my friend disappear or bully me for being a big enough jerk to make my best friend leave.

The teachers only really liked me when I was with Felix. No idea why.

My parents were mad because they loved Felix more than me and I was punished for making him leave. They would beat and cut me. All over. I was forced to wear my tank top and a pair of shorts for the bearings so they could do more harm.

His parents were mad and believed it was me too. His mom would hit me and his dad would pry her off me sending me a sympathetic look. And a sad smile. He may believe it was me but he wouldn't hurt me. The only time was when he was mad but he felt bad about it.

Then a few weeks after my birthday we were celebrating Em's birthday by having some fun with just the girls. We were in the car, about to be hit, and everyone got out of the car but Emily. She was killed. Every one blamed me for it cause I was sitting next to her and wasn't able to save her.

Her birthday was miserable.

Her father was too sad and depressed to hold our mom's back. Abuse got worse and teachers didn't help too I was unconscious. I hated it.

So it's been almost two years from his disappearance. I will be 18 soon. Felix's birthday was sad. He would have been 19 a month or two ago.

I was healing from my "punishments" while watching Peter Pan and practicing the song I wrote and memorized.

I was at the part in the movie where the shadow came and took them after the two magic words. I started to stuff my bag as much as I could.

I grabbed the most important things I need.

My stuff for writing songs, my phone and chargers, my headphones and ear buds, 2 clean shirts, 2clean shorts, some clean under wear, and a few sports bras.

I wasn't sure if it would work but I had to be prepared so I grabbed a water bottle and a bag of pretzels.

Me and Felix's favorite snack when we were together...

I got a little sadder thinking about him but I couldn't stay here.

I put on comfy gym shoes and put my bag on my back.

I went to my window.

I thought of Felix and Emily.

I missed them but they were gone.

I quickly grabbed the dagger I was going to give Emily.

I slid it in my hidden pocket of my left shoe. My dagger was in my right.

And now I would be too.

I whispered 2 dreadful words.

"I believe..."

I was knocked back by air and saw a black figure fly down.

Pan's shadow...

It looked at me and I said it again.

"I believe."

It reached out a hand and I grabbed it fast and tight.

it pulled me out the window.

And I held it with one hand and onto the a strap of my backpack. I couldn't drop it now.

The shadow flew me to the second star to the right.

and straight on till morning.

I looked forward and saw an island.

The shadow practically three me down my bag landed a few feet a way.

I heard movement and crawled against the hot golden sand to my bag.

I heard voices next.

It sounded like boys around my age.

2 of them.

One has a kinda cute British Accent.

The other sounded oddly familiar.

I looked up and gasped.

"Maddie?!"

"Felix?!"