"You are yearning to be loved genuinely, right unnie? Them, they will undoubtfully will always running for a hug for you even when you hurt them."

I was bawling out of my eyes after Lisa gone. Everything she said always on point, she was selfless when it comes to me but all I did was took advantage from her.

Even when I chain the one she loves she will always be thinking about my goodness. I am a bad woman.

My heart aches when I see how something in my belly make a move, were they try to comfort me?

Will they really love me unconditionally just like what Lisa said?

Do I really want them?

Can I be a good mom when I can't even control myself for hurting people around me. Can I save them from the demon inside of me?

No.

I can't.

Tok.. Tok..

I look up after wiping my tears away only to see Jin oppa standing by the door, he looks at me pitifully and I hate it. I rise my right brow make him clear his throat.

"Are you good?" I nodded. "You should've let me to call uncle and auntie." I snort at him. They won't care anyway.

"How's Jungkook?"

"Stay asleep." His face turns to be sour at that sentence. "We already did our best to woke him up. We just can't let him give up. We can't give up."

"Is he always being like this?"

"Nope." He shook his head. "Just this time. He always been in pain but never in comatose more than one day. And it's been a week."

"Is there something I can do to help?"

"Lisa." Why?

"She refuses to visit him."

"Because she doesn't want you to get hurt, she believes that Jungkook can pass through the pain without her, by the pill. Which is he can't."

"I'll wake him."

--
"Don't you want to see Lisa?"

I smile when his eyes fluttered, slowly my hand reaching for his hand to hold. I chuckled when he opens his eyes fully, how those bambi eyes looking at me.

Look how whip this man for her.

By the mention of her name, she can make the dying Jeon Jungkook awake.

"Hi..." I start the conversation still looking at him with smile on my lips.

"Lisa." And that's what he said after all make me look down on the sheet, biting my lips and took a deep breath before facing the pale him in front of me.

"Later. Now we will make plan together."

--
"After a week of interrogation, we believe that the evidence was too minimum, its lack in every aspect." Her eyes trembled as she tries to not cry right there in front of the police after their last interrogation.

She looks forward to the officer, but she knew that Kai is looking at him with his smile, a sly smile.

Once again, he will win this.

She still remembers years ago, a week after what he did, Bobby force her to reporting Kai to the head of university.

Rather than protection, they are all blaming her for being too much to be slut. She stops there. Cause she knows Kai's family had everything that will make anyone to pick side on them.

And it happens again.

She lost the war.

"We can still bring the case, but if it's not urgent like the others, with the lack evidence too, it will be hard to process it quickly, Miss and Mr." No. "Or we can call it a day. Do the mediation between both of you, since you are supposed to be married weeks ago."

She clenches her fist on the hem of her dress, feeling the sharp pain attacking her.

I don't want to wake up.
Make me sleep.

"Well, I'll be glad to do the second option, officer." Kai is quick to say make a happy smile spread on the officer's face. "Doll!"

It's hard. It's hard to stay still, being keen on what she try to fight for. And it's hard to surrender. Again.

"I-" She found it hard to breath. It's stuck inside her lung that's make her in pain even more.

"Madam you can just get inside the-" All of them in the meeting room looking at the door when another officer back facing them after opening the door so sudden. "Sir, I am sorry but this madam-"

"I came for Miss Manoban." With that Lisa widened her eyes in surprise, but strangely her breath come to ease when she remembers that voice. "I am Kim Jennie, and I bring the evidence you need."

She looks at Jennie, with brick color cardigan and black legging, hair messed up and bare face too. She could never recall the time when Jennie did this. The perfectionist Jennie just forgets to show her elegant side. Lisa can tell that she is in hurry when she came to police station, and it makes her heart warm.

In the end they are best friend.

I'll save you for myself, Lily.