"You'll never do something like that again." Its het first word he heard after he got his conscious back. He was stunned that there was no Jennie beside him when he woke up after he tried to do suicide, rather than Jennie, Lisa was there sitting beside him, looking at him with apologetic look.

The last thing he want her to look at him, that way.

"You are grown up enough to make decision." She said again looking at Jungkook who is still insisted to not looking back at those eyes, the eyes where he could drown forever, getting drunk of how it makes him lost his mind and just want to give everything to be with her. "And that's not a good one, Jungkook-ssi." He knew, but he can't handle it anymore. "You'll be a father. You should put your kids before you, don't you think?" There is still no answer, and she sigh at that.

After closing her eyes for a moment, she decides to reach his hand and touch it, feeling that magical electricity where the pain just go away like that. Like when you simply just need to push one button to make everything feels right. He is yearning for that sensation, to finally freeing himself for the merciless pain in his head, and in his chest.

"I know this is hard, but this seems the best we can do." At that he looks up at her, red eye, glistening with unborn tears, and a disbelieve was so real in it. "There are so many things to sacrifices only for our unreal and prohibited relationship. You are a married man, and I am a shameless friend." She tries to laugh it away, the bitter feeling in her.

"No."

"Let me finish it!" She cuts his words. "I love you. And I knew you love me." His hand tightened on their tangled hand. "And I am grateful for that. Really." The tears flowing from her eyes make the man quickly reaching her cheeks to wipe the tears away. "Kamsahamnida for that. Never have in my life I dare to imagine getting so much love from someone dearest, that someone I love can finally love me back. But. Thats it. We can't go on anymore." He looks terribly hurt even when their skin is touching each other's.

His painkiller is killing him with another pain.

"I need you."

"No. I need you to be strong. To fight the pain. To fight your anxiousness. You are worth to be loved, and maybe the kids will give you so much love more than what can I do."

"Please fight for me"

"It will hurt more people; it will ruin everything."

"It's already ruined. We are already hurtled. We are dying. You think I still care of what will happen in front of my eyes when I had you in my arms?"

--
"I can't believe I can finally have you as my wife, by tomorrow morning." Kai is smiling happily as he held her in his arm, after their making out. They are sweating so bad even though he can't get what he wants from her. Just not yet.

Everything needs time, right?

She can do it with Jungkook, why can't she do it with her?

The key, the answer, is the one and only about the time.

Once her body and feeling get used to him, he will never let her go anywhere.

Kai is never protesting about that thing because he knew it was his fault. It was the fruit he should cherish of his bad attitude back then in university.

"Don't be too excited." She lightly said, trying to prey his hand from touching her intimated area down there.

"I am just feeling happy." She gave no response on it, and he was too blind to realize that she never showing her emotion about their wedding which will be held tomorrow. "Have you sent the card to your friend?"

Still emotionless he shakes his head lightly. "Have no friend."

"Already guess that you'll say that I already sent it to yours for you." Her eyes focusing for the first time, she looks up to see his smile blinding his eyes, she wishes she is blind.

"Have you got my permission?" She fires back angrily.

"Come on, chill, doll. This is our big day. Everyone needs to see it."

"Don't you feel ashamed to be watched by many?"

"To be married with you? Nope. Doll, why are you so adorable?" She is still angry but shrugging it off in the end. "But Nayeon said you ask some invitations though."

"Thats for pers."

"Pers?" He asks now his turn to be shocked. "Why pers?"

"Tomorrow will be a big day, right?" He looks at her back with something in his eyes, try to find something in them. Cause some strange feeling creeping in his chest. "Why?" She stays calm asking that make him blink on her question.

"Just..." He got stuttered. "Thought you want it to be more private."

"Guess you invite every people you know that I don't. So, we are 50 50." He is still staring, and she grew tired of it. "The company will be affected after what will happen tomorrow right? And the fastest people know, the more it is benefiting. Pers can help."

And he smiles after her explanation.

"Why I aint ever think about it?" He said now chuckling while kissing his cheeks dearly. "I don't marry you for benefiting of my company, I marry you because I love you. And I wanted everyone to know that. To feel that." He hugs her, and she smiles at his words resting her chin on his shoulder.

"Sure."

--
Its 10 in the morning when finally, we arrived, in the church that's look like a castle from tale, so beautiful with blue roses everywhere, and seems anybody like it. Me too. Just not the wedding.

I sigh so many times, thinking that I should be strong just like what she wants me to be, to move in, to fight for myself.

The married is not the ending of everything. It will not change our feeling.

Her words were stuck in my head, the things that keep me alive.

"You, okay?" I look at my side to see Jennie in white dress smiling at me brightly, she has been a nice woman for past days. Always trying her best to cook for me even though end up with throwing up cause the baby hates smell of food.

She tried to initiate the talk first, asking how's my day, finally letting me attend our group gathering, and Jimin Hyung get suspicious for that. He said Jen was up on something, but I guess she just want me to stay.

Is she finally loving me?

Or she just needs me for the baby?

She took care of me, she respects my decision to not get involved in skin ship anymore, not even for the hug, and I am glad.

I know I am a bad person for not opening my heart, she is pregnant after all, but I need some more time.

"Yeah." I answer with a smile too. She nods.

"Then good."

"You look very happy. Are you okay about their wedding?" I cannot ask that to her. But instead of sad face, she just laughs at me.

"I am happy for what will happen today, and I wish you do too. Cause everything right in front of our face cost everything."

"Hmm.." I nodded. Of course. It cost my feeling and my Monalisa.

"Jeon Jungkook."

"Hmm?"

"Look at me!" I look at her who is smiling genuinely at me. "I am sorry, and I wish I can do a better thing to pay you back for the sacrifices and the care you gave for me." What's with her. "And for my baby."

"Jen what-"

"It took sometimes to understand about this life, and I am so sorry about what I did. The ignorant, the cheating, the bad words, the attitude. And here you are. Losing everything."

I look at her without interrupting his words anymore. I don't know what she talks about or why she is suddenly talking about the confession. Mood swing from a pregnant woman can always surprising me.

"And I need you to know that I hate to love you." And she cried make me look around while hugging her, try to make her calm, looking at the front where Kai is standing while talking with someone that I guess that his father. Waiting for his bride, my princess, my queen, my Monalisa to walk down the alley, to be his everything.

Kim Kai standing proudly with his glorious posture, his cheeky smile can always steal hearts of many, I wish he is really changing to be a better person.

Maybe Jennie got emotional because she was sad for his wedding.

"It's okay, Jen."

"You used to give me the world and I gave you pain. I am sorry."

"Jen, lets focus on the baby. You don't need to-"

But before my words finish, the main door opened. And I was looking back at the door expecting to see my lovely baby to walk toward someone but me in front of the priest.

But,

"Mr. Kim Kai, right?"

"Yes, sir. Anything I can help?"

"Sure. We will need you to follow us to the office." And I heard some whispers from the audience, and the pers on the right side of the row starting to take pictures now with their Hella big lens camera.

"Do you have your command letter?" This one is from his father, cause Kim Kai just look so lost at his spot while looking straight at my direction.

But why?

If this is you, I'll kill you!

I was stunned when I read his unborn words of his lips, and then it hit me, I look at my side to see Jennie is smirking at him. Fearlessly while her hand gripping mine tightly.

"I think this is wrong. His name is Kim Kai. But this is... This is the last thing my son would do, why would he do that?"

"Thats why we will need some talks in the office."

"This is my wedding day; you can't take me before my bride come to marry me."

"Kai-ya don't you understand? Do read this?" His father now asking in anger. "Lalisa Manoban. Your bride just sues you for rape and bribery. You won't get married today."

--
Ding..

From : My Doll Laly
I cut my hair this morning.
Do I still look good?

Anyway, I get my pain away by myself.
See you in the court, Kim Kai ssi.

Ps. Don't be too excited...

What's with the long face, doll?

I am in pain

Just get your pain away, because I am here.

Kai is still holding his phone on the way to the police station, smiling sadly feeling all the pain in every piece of his being. He thought that today is finally the day.

"You don't know that if you break me, you'll break yourself too. Stupid laly."

Let it go, I love to see your long hair.