"My colleague will find the better pill for you." Said Lisa while eyeing Jungkook who is laying on the bed, staring at her with a longing feeling in it.

Lisa could feel it, everyone could feel it, even Jennie who is choosing to stay outside the room, holding the pain in her heart for a better thing like Jin said.

This morning, Jungkook won't wake up, he can't. If it's not for Jennie who was keen to make Jungkook eating breakfast before he goes to office, he will never find.

And Lisa was on her way to her office when the number which is for so long never popped out on her screen phone just calling her.

Jennie unnie is calling...

Lisa was so shocked that she bumps on another car in front of her, luckily the man won't mind it since she looks miserably lost, blank with no words. Thats how a stranger drive her to the hospital where Jungkook is.

Her mind couldn't process anything until she heard Jennie's sobs and until Jin's hand gripping hers to later dragging her inside the room. To wake him up. And just like miracle, he opens his eyes again.

"Baby." Was the first word he said, Jennie immediately walking backward as her breath hitched, the baby in her was kicking, she needs to get out of that place. She won't contain it.

The next 10 minutes Jungkook was left with Lisa inside the room, with Jin and his assistants who were checking Jungkook's condition. The younger just staring with no words, so does Lisa make Jin sighing in desperation.

"They won't." Said Jin make Lisa shifting her gaze in confusion. "You see what happen right now? It's his heart, it gives up, if he keeps on taking the medicine he will die."

It left Lisa with no words, looking back at Jin and Jungkook, with fear, sadness too. What should she do?

"I don't know how the two of you will fix it, but one thing, I don't want to lose anyone anymore, okay!" Jin said emotionally and then leaving the two in silence.

"Can I hold your hand?" Lisa could hear how weak his voices is. The strong and bright Jeon Jungkook, turn to be a weak man in a sudden. It clenched her heart.

A week ago, when he hugged her in the cafe, she said no words mean rejection and then he left willingly tries to respect her choice. He tries to give Jennie and him a second chance but it just too hard to do, too impossible to happen. And when two days ago Kim Kai came in his office to give him their wedding invitation, it took him forever to comprehend what will happen.

He will lose her.

To be alive is not the right choice anymore.

Before he went home, he visits their shared unit, watching everything still on its place, even their shared bed is still in a mess, the make up on the drawer is still untidy. It's like yesterday when they still had each other form hugging, kissing, making love.

Laughing at every silly thing, even feel serenity when no one say anything. How they communicate just by looking at each other eye.

They were so close like the pulse, but now so far like the sun.

--

"Jennie is outside." I said, but in the end still giving him my hand to touch. He halted his movement when he looks at me.

"Really?" He asks now in amusement. "Even when I just woke up from the death, you'll still think about Jennie but not me?" I was tilting my head to try to understand it. "When will you think about me first before her? I am dying, baby, I am dying."

"Jung-"

"Fuck!" He cursed and then unplug the iv drop from his hand make the blood leak from his hand to the white bed sheet. "I don't want to live anymore. Just leave me. Just leave and never come back when I am dying. So, it will be easier." He tries to stand up make me startled. It took seconds when he stands and breaking the glass on the drawer beside him, taking the tiny piece of it, that's when my reflect work.

"No. What are you doing?" I scream and was fast enough to hug him, to hold the piece of the glass from his hand, to feel weight on me suddenly heavily increased. "Jungkook. Jungkook, no, holding on. Please don't surrender." I cry when I can feel his pulse, looking at the glasses on my hand, it's too late.

"What the- what happen?" I was relieved a little when Jin entering the room, quickly bring Jungkook to the bed and looking the wound on his wrist. "Jeon Jungkook, I'll kill you once you are awake." He shouts and quick enough to check the wound.

"How-" I was about to ask about the wound when Jin facing me.

"It's not that deep. You owe me explanation. But for now, can you wait outside?" I nodded as I walk out from the room only to face a blank Jennie outside, left hand on her baby bump, and her right try to hold on something to make her stay still.

The pain grew in me. Watching her like that.

"Unnie."

"This is because of you." I halted my step; I was about to hug her. To comfort her. "All the bad things happen because of you, Lalice." I am sorry.

"If law never exist, I will surely kill both of you right here right now." Both of our attention was on Jimin who was following by others, he looks beyond of mad, jaw clenched. "Don't ever think each of you are better than other, you are the same worst thing happen to my dongsaeng."

"You better shut up; you know nothing." Jen hissed at him angrily.

"You started it, hurting him badly until he needs another woman who won't fight for him like her." He pointed at me, in front of my face while talking to Jennie unnie. "And when he finally can breathe, this, what is the thing you bring for him, a child? None of us ever believe that the thing inside of you was his."

"Park Jimin!!" All of people, all of people who had the rights to be mad, it was me who can't handle it, who can't accept it.

He can't do this.

"Stop. She already had enough." I said now shielding Jennie from him. "Shut it and focus on Jungkook. You no need to hurt her just because you get hurt."

--
"I won't say thanks to you."

"I know." Lisa lazily replied, sitting on the bench, with Jennie beside her, sipping the orange juice Lisa bought for her.

"Then why'd you do that? All of people, you had to be the most hating me. Why stand for me?" Lisa smile thinly as her eyes wandering around the garden in front of them.

"I just... I just try to stand on your shoes. To try to understand the tangled strings. Everything happen with a reason, right?" Lisa said then looking at Jennie fondly. "I don't know what's the scenario you made, but I am just wishing the best for all of us."

"It's over." Jennie said smiling sadly. "It's game over."

"It's not." Lisa shut her. "You still had a long journey to go. You had that angel with you."

"To be honest I don't want it."

"No. You do want it." Lisa butted in again. "Actually, you love it." And it makes Jennie's eyes stinging. The older feel something in her heart. "You'll be a great mother, unnie. I just knew it."

"You think so?"

"Emm.." Lisa nodded with a smile with no hesitant in it. "You saved me. You teach me a lot of things. You are my savior. You are a wonder woman in my life."

"But..."

"But you are just lost on your way back to love yourself." Lisa holds Jen's hand carefully. "Please respect yourself, you deserve equal love as what you can give to someone."

"You don't understand-" She get her hand back.

"I do understand. Just look forward, freeing yourself. Move in."

"Move in?"

"Move in." Lisa nods again, talking lightly with smile still painted on her lips. "Moving on to love yourself, not just using the next man to erase the past. Trust me it feels good. You'll probably will laugh at what had happened with you and Kai one day."

"Lis-"

"You can." Lisa said in final. "If you going to stay with Jungkook, promise me, promise me you will touch his heart carefully, dearly, to love him genuinely. I believe it will move him. It will heal him."

"Then what about you?"

"What about me?"

"You'll trap yourself with him? I got the wedding invitation."

"I am okay." She said cheerfully while a tear just smoothly falling betraying all the fake smile she painted on her lips. "It's my way to protect what I should protect."

"He threatened you, doesn't he?"

"Jungkook will be a good dad and a good husband."

"Lis, answer me."

"Just please make him happy."

"LALICE!"

"THEN WHAT SHOULD I DO RATHER THAN GIVING MYSELF TO PROTECT THE TWO OF YOU? DO YOU THINK HE'LL LET YOU GO; HE'LL DESTROY ALL OF US MERCILESSLY."

Why it should be me?