"Till you'll see him this way?" Rose was the one who uttered those words, as Lisa sat inside of one café across the café they should have been meet for their weekly greetings. Watching how the love of her life sat gloomily, unmoved with whatever joke that Jimin and Taehyung tries to crack right there.

Lisa hold her breath as her obsidian catch Rose's figure who's sat in front of her chair, hiding the view from across the café, hand crossed in front of her chest, eyes look at Lisa angrily. Rose was always with her smile no matter what, with her soft and feminine thing. But once she was angry it won't be your last.

"Lisa, why don't you just sat with us right there?" Rose quickly reaching for Lisa's right hand as she catch Lisa's movement to leave the table, to leave her, to leave them. "Why you choose to be like.. like.. like this?" it breaks Lisa's heart even more as her friend looking at her pale, and weak figure, a pity.

"Because I have no rights to hurt more people than what I've done, unnie." She softly, sadly answered the question. "I won't bear the blame. Because I am not that special."

"Don't you love him?" Lisa hold her breath as her heart cracking, looking away as a tear falling down to her cheek, nose red. A weak woman like her, what's her value to make people's life as miserable as hers? "Look at me and tell me you don't love him so I can be sure to help him to erase you, to move on from you." Lisa looks up and sobbing as Rose stand up and reaching her for a warm hug.

"Why can't anyone understand that I did this for him?" she said between her cries. "How can everyone questioning my love when I already gave so much. This much." She tightly hold onto Rose's arm, seeking for a safe place to hide.

"I understand that you want him to be safe, to be happy, right?" Lisa immediately nodding her head repeatedly. Then Rose took her apart from Lisa's body and then pointing at the glass window. "Then tell me what you see right now in front of you, is he happy?"

She knew what's the answer, but that's more complicated than what anyone know except her and Kai.

"Can't you just stand by his side and being happy together with him? Come through the storm together, holding hand, can't you do that?"

"You don't understand what happen." She was hiccupping so bad that the people around them start to look at them.

"So tell me, tell him, tell us. Lalice, speak yourself! Don't just burry yourself alone! It won't help you, it will only hurting everyone." Rose become so emotional starting to shake Lisa's shoulder lightly. "Lalice!"

"Let her!" both of them look at the voice's direction and at that fast Lisa looked away wiping all the tears. "Stop telling her to read when she is that blind."

"Jim!"

"Let her, Rose baby. Jungkook isn't someone who have no value, if she doesn't want him, he'll get hurt for sure but will move on one day." Jimin spoke emotionlessly looking at Lisa. "Don't humiliate our Jungkook by begging for a woman to love him back. Let's go."

Rose was hesitant looking at Lisa and Jimin in turn, until Jimin extending his hand to her.

"Let love work, let miracle work, let destiny work." He said and biting her lips Rose once again tightly holding Lisa's hand for the last time.

"4 days, 7 p.m at the guys dorm, Jungkook's birthday, I'll wait for that miracle, for that destiny. Okay!" that's the last words Rose said before she took Jimin's hand and away from her. Crossing the street and try their best to smile, as for Lisa, she was soullessly walking out from the café and drive her car toward her new shared apartment, where she was chained with an invisible chain on her heart.

She stands there under the shower, which is wash away her pain, try to control her pain with the cold sensation from the water. She looks up on the mirror as she dries her hair, no smile, no colors, just her and her pain.

There is no word, no voices, no sound while her heart screaming inside. Her chest so in pain but she can do nothing.

Can't she?

"No fair." It said as 2 hand circling her hips from behind, head kissing her cheeks lightly, and Kai was in the mirror with his wide smile on. "You don't wait me for the shower." She has no word to say as she recall the memory days ago when he force her to try her limit, they shower together. And it still clear in her mind, her brain and her heart, the pain is so real.

"I'll cook." She said shortly as she try to let go his hand from her hips.

"No need, we'll have ordered meal in no time." The man said lightly as he faces her. "You should try this movement." He commented as he touches both side of her upper lips and move it upward. "Smile, doll."

"Why?" she innocently asks him to make him pinch her nose.

"Because I like to see you happy."

"Smile doesn't mean happy." She said again.

"At least you'll feel better even if you don't." the man said put her on his laps as he sat on the sofa inside their shared bedroom.

"I don't know you'll like it when I become a fake doll."

"You aren't fake, you just paralyzed, your heart, it doesn't wake up yet to knowing me."

"It works, it can feel you." And his smile got even wider when she said that words. "I can still remember every touch, every feel you caused me." He caressed her hair carefully, admiring every inch of her feature, his heart, his love. "The pain." His hand stopped automatically as her words flowing. "Every memory caused me pain, it made me happy, it just hurt me now. Killing me, destroying me."

"Lily!" he softly said, sad.

"You were the love in my life, that I thought I will never experience again but you, hurt me. Paint me black, all black." The tears flowing like her words. "I still want to believe that I love you, but I don't. I can't. I love him, and I am sorry, Kai, my bear."

That's the first time she call him with that pet name again, he was dying to hear that, as the reminder that she loves him that much every time she shyly call him 'my bear'. But it just hurt him right now.

"He is no good for you." He hardly said.

"He cured me." And his heart broke in thousand pieces as he heard that right. He holds her tighter than ever, sniffing on her smell, feeling her.

"He will only cut you deeper."

She said no word but for the first time hugging Kai back, for the first time she uses her heart to touch him, crying on the crook of his neck.

"Let's make a deal, and doll you can't betray this." His cracked voice sounded so in pain that her heart moved by that. "Once he hurt you, you'll come to me, and be mine forever."