Regret,

That what should I feel toward Kim Kai, but instead I feel happy and pray that this sweetness will never end. Rather than make it fast, I intentionally extending the time together with him.

I didn't feel sinful, not even as the tip of my nail.

"The lunch is ready." I said excitedly as I finish organizing bento that I brought for him.

Yes. This past 5 days I've been so clingy, kissing and hugging is very common I did first rather than him. I even initiate to seducing him first with lingerie that I bought with Rose.

Well Rose's choice never disappointing.

I was so shy when I try them, watching my self just like a slut wearing them. It's like I am begging someone to touch me, to destroy me, but it's Jungkook, he is fine, he is not just someone. So, with a braveness that I told to myself I never failed to make him scream my name every night. To see how his body and face shining from the sweat, he is glowed with happiness, and it makes me happy.

I always kiss him, cherishing the time when his skin touching mine every time, as if it's my last.

He come with the sweetest smile, blinding my world for a while as his warm skin engulfing me. He hugs me and kissing my temple.

"When you ask for lunch together, I thought it would be us in the restaurant." He said softly as he sat in front of the table that I set for him. Looking at the menus I made for him. "You aren't coming to office?"

"I did.'" I said shortly taking a small plate and put variant foods on it. Grabbing the chopstick, I gave them all to him. "I just come home earlier to make you lunch." He takes his first food and smile widely once he tastes it.

"Why'd you do that, baby?"

"You aren't happy?"

"I am happy. Very happy." He quickly said that thing. "I just don't want you tiring yourself. We can always eat outside."

"I love to make something for you, to see smile in the end when you taste them." I said while looking at him, full of love, but it hurts. This love hurting me. "It makes me happy." He just looks at me with a smile that will never be faded on his lips, I like this view, he really looks good with that smile on. "And I decide from now on, I, Lalisa Manoban, will come over every lunch every day, bring my home-made lunch for you. The one that I love."

He stands there watching me without saying anything, he is sure like an angel. And I will hurt this angel, for good.

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She stood there saying those words while smiling at me. She looks at me as if I am the worthiest thing in her life. And I feel happy.

I am happier than happy.

Jeon Jungkook, on my 28 years of his life, finally, can cherish the feeling again.

The feeling when someone willing to sacrifice for you without wanting anything back.

This woman in front of me give me everything that I want without I need to say that. She knew me more than me myself. What can I do without her?

"One day, I hope, I can give you son and daughter." She said makes my tears fall itself.

Finally, I can be happy.

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From: Kim. K

I am watching you, doll.

Seen.