"Is everything okay, baby?" he startled her, cutting her thoughts, her sadness that is just filling her entire soul, forcing her to stop function because of all the useless feeling.

All day long she just lay on her bed, their bed, not attending her office, not cleaning the house, not cooking for him. She is shifting her gaze lazily from the closed curtain toward the direction of the door, and she is flinching once the light turning on. Suddenly hurting her entire body.

"Baby!" he softly calling her and take a seat on the space beside her on the mattress, reaching for her hair and combing them neatly. "Are you sick?" he said again but there is just no response rather than a soft stare from her to him. "Baby!"

"I am okay." Finally, she answers him after he tried to kiss her cheek. She awkwardly dodging him make him frown. "Have you eat?" she asked again avoiding his questioning gaze at her.

"No." he whispers while watching his woman waking up and leave, he forces himself to not sigh Loudly and just walking toward his woman in the kitchen. "We can have delivery." He said watching her from the back pausing as she took the pan on her right hand. "Honestly, I already call them. We will just wait while talking." He then walks and took the pan from her hand, lead her the nearest seat. Her on the chair, him on the floor holding both of her hand, watching through her eyes which is holding more than what she can take. "Now we talk."

"And I want us to be honest to each other." She sternly said between her fear, but she just knows she can't hide from the matter. Soon or later, they should talk. He looks at her and just paused for a while, biting his lower lip before blinking his eyes and nodding. "Fine, we talk."

"What's with the cold shoulder."

"I am not-"

"Be honest baby, remember!" he said, and she is stagnant.

"Because I am such a failure." Her voice cracked, speaking the truth that hurt her.

"No, you-"

"I heard what Jimin told you, I can't give it to you."

"I swear I don't need-"

"For fuck's sake be honest, Jeon Jungkook-ssi!"
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"Did I ever lie to you, Lis? If I say I don't then I really am. If it cost your health and safety to make my need fulfilled, then I will never do that the entire of my life."

I chew my inner cheeks thinking about what had happened two days ago, the last time I saw Jungkook in my unit. His voice, especially this statement will always replay in my head make me feel, I don't know, maybe guilty? His eyes looking at me with disappointment before he left and never come back.

"He is in our house." Said Jisoo when she visits me this afternoon demanding for a lunch together. "Tell me what's going on between the two of you guys, all I know you two look okay when we had dinner that night." I put my spoon on the table and forcing myself, straightening my back then I face Jisoo.

"I can't give him what he needs the most. And-"I play with the napkin on my laps looking down out of guilt. "And we fight." The big heavy load in my chest start to make me feel the aches again and I don't like them.

"Don't be fooled, Lis." Jisoo chuckled and rolling her eyes looking out the window of the café. "You are the complete package of perfection matches for Jungkook. Everyone knew that." And I hate that I should tell someone else again about my insecure.

"I am not." I whisper and lowering my head even more when the first tears come out and in no time Jisoo already beside me. She hides my face on her shoulder, and it makes me feel secure. "Unnie, I can't have sex with him. I can't do that with anybody. And he needs it." I was hiccupping hard as I feel Jisoo's hand move up and down on my back comforting me.

"Ssssss... don't cry, Lis." She whispers and I really sorry to not able to stop. "Hey, we will find the way. There must be a way." She then brings my face to face her, wiping my remaining tears she then smiles. "And we know that Jungkook is a good guy." I nod with no hesitation. "He is the sweetest, and I can guarantee that he isn't there beside you just for sex."

"I—hh—Know..." I speak between my crying mess state.

"Then why'd you doubting him?" and I hug Jisoo once again feel disappointed to myself even more. How can I disappoint to Jungkook when he is always optimistic about me. "He loves you and you love him back, and the rest can be followed, am I right?" I nod on her shoulder. "Jin oppa tell me that you did therapy."

"It didn't work that much."

"Maybe because you didn't let go of the past, the story behind them." And in an instant my cry stop, maybe that's alright. "Maybe you always thinking about them alone, then it became a burden. You curse yourself because all of the guilt and the fear, tell me if I was wrong!" and I can't say anything.

"Lis, do you know that when we were in school, every time we didn't pass an exam teacher will do the remedy for that topic again and again until we pass them?" I keep quiet but listening well of every single word Jisoo told me. "I guess the same work for us in real life. God, will replaying the same problem that we didn't pass yet until we face them, until we pass them, until we understand them."

"Unnie.."

"Hmm.."

"I think you are more compatible to be my therapist than my current doctor." She chuckled as a little smile painted on me. I took a deep breath and stay on her shoulder feeling the comfort from her hand on my back. "Unnie..."

"Hm..."

"Can you keep a secret?"

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"Do I smell good food?" Jisoo screams from the front door make the two men in the kitchen startled.

"Yeah, my girlfriend didn't make me dinner, so I make them by myself." Jin screams back while Jungkook still pouting doing the dishes after he got scold by Jin.

"Do I smell something burn too?" Jisoo then came to the view while kissing Jin's cheek.

"Jungkook burn 3 of the 4 muffins." Jin spoke out make Jisoo laugh and walk to Jungkook.

"Maybe our Kookie need some medicine to clear his head." Tease Jisoo make Jungkook let out his breath harshly. "And fortunately, I bring you one." Jisoo then proudly smiling at Jungkook.

"I don't want any of the medicine." Jungkook said coldly. "Nonna-nim." But instead of disappearing Jisoo slap Jungkook's right hand.

"Ey, don't be shy. Use your medicine wisely." Jungkook was about to complaining again when he smells the scent that is too familiar, that stopping the pain in his head. His heart pounding hard as he looks at Jisoo questioning with his eyes and Jisoo can only smile while shrugging her shoulder. The moment he looks away, it took more than 30 seconds for him to breathe again.

"I'm home."