I know I am stupid when I always told him that we won't make it together but always end up standing in the kitchen cooking for him, with his arm around my hip.

Listening on his voices when he is humming random songs, and sneakily stealing once or twice kisses on my cheek. He is giggling happily when I sway my body following the song, leave another kisses on my neck down to my collarbone.

"You'll make the steak burn." I said softly, closing my eyes as I get into the feeling of his lips on my skin. I am happy to feel him around, to hear how wonderful his voice when he sings, to hear how he scrunches his nose and showing his bunny tooth when he smiles. I love him. Everything in him.

But this love, also make me wonder, will I survive after he get bored of this everything, of me.

She is sure still can see how he diligently wearing his wedding ring on his finger, or when he simply replying to Jen's message when he is still with me. I wonder, how can I survive this far.

He makes my heart beating so fast because of the love I felt, but it also hurts in every beat, how can one person make you happy and hurt at the same time?

What kind of thing I should sacrifice to have him with me?

"What are you thinking?" He whispers on my ear as he flips the steak that almost burn. I am zoning out again. I shook my head inhaling the heavy breath. It always hurt to imagining that one day he will leave me in loneliness.

"Just random thing." I speak. He then helps me to put the last steak on the plate, turning off the stove and whirl my body to face him. To look at those beautiful eyes that drown me.

"Let's be happy, baby. Don't think too much, lets cherish the time that we have together. Hmm..." he put his hand on my cheeks as he smiles at me. Knowing that I am sad to think about us. About our future. I nod and he hug me tight. "I love you, Lisa baby."

I sniff and hug him back even tighter, burying my face on his chest, swallowing the lump on my throat.

"I love you more."

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"I'll get in the office." I speak as I gather my make up stuff into my handbag ready to leave. Jungkook beside me nodding and helping me make me smile back at him. "Don't be stubborn about lunch. Okay?"

"Okay mom." Jungkook playfully answer chuckled to my bossiness. Can't help. He always misses his lunch from what I heard from Jin oppa. Workaholic and everything. "You, too. And don't forget to reply to my message."

"Hmm." I nod and hugging him from the passenger seat, sniffing on his scent, the things I always craving on. And I am glad that he stays the night almost every night this week make his scent filling my unit. Make it more alive. Make me alive. I let him go and caressing his cheeks, swooning over his beautiful features, those eyes, those thin upper lips, those mole under his bottom lips. Those everything on him that makes my heart aches, knowing that he is not mine to show off. Knowing that I become a cunning lady, taking what's not mine.

There was a silence when we just exchanging gaze to each other. Feeling the sadness, cherishing the moment because who knows when will God decide to separate us to each other.

"I love you." That, the things that I won't ever hear anymore when he left. So, without thinking much I kiss him on the lips, savoring the taste that will also lost once he wake up from all this messed up thing.

His lips as sweet as cherry, I won't ever forget and feel bored of. We break the kiss when the needs of air forcing us too. Leaving us panting and he smirks as he sees me out of breath.

"Damn it you'll make me harass you in front of your office baby." I chuckled at his remark and once again give him a slight peck at the corner of his lips before leaving.

"I will cook bulgogi tonight."

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"I am home." Jungkook said as he frowns, watching shoes sprawled around the front door of Lisa's unit. He found his home smiling from the kitchen, wear her yellow apron but giving him signal that someone is around.

"Kookie."

"What the f-" Jungkook lost his words when he sees Lisa's place transformed into feast place. "Hyung?" His eyes widening on how his hyung sat comfortably to each other, waving at him while Jimin is busy to take his attention.

"Hi too." Said Rosé and Jisoo who just come back from the kitchen brought some side dishes to the table.

"What are you doing in here?"

"Oh, Lisa call us for a dinner together."

"For what event?"

"I got promoted, thank you." Jisoo then tapping her chest proudly make Jungkook look at Lisa who is still in the kitchen.

"I also wanted to taste Lisa's homemade food too, Jin hyung said it's the best." Said Taehyung eagerly.

Jungkook then let his hyungs and noonas to talk to each other and approaching Lisa who made them juice. He put his bag on the counter and gave him a back hug and sniffling her neck eagerly. Filling his lungs with the painkiller who made him stay alive painlessly.

"You don't have to do that; you must be tired." Hum Jungkook make Lisa smile and reaching for his hand on his hips.

"They are your family, aren't you happy when they do?" She then responded make the man catches her chin and give him a passionate kiss on the lips still back hugging her.

He is happy. Surely happy that the one he loves can loves everything that he has. Family. Even though she has no obligation too.

"Thank you, baby. Thank you to love me this much." He murmurs as he nuzzles his face on the crook of her neck.

"Don't be that dramatic." She chuckled and releasing his hand from her hips. "Go upstairs and wear something comfortable to eat together. They must be so hungry now."

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"For the better future of Kim Jisoo." We all cheer while take a sip from white wine that Jin brought. Feel the sweet taste on the tip of their tongue.

"So, what's your next plan?" Ask Jin to everyone, the things they always talk with. To keep their friendship, stay intact. To not left behind and as the form of care to each other.

"I'll have upcoming winter season shoot. Few fashion shows for the upcoming collection of Gucci. I might travel across the globe for the rest of 3 months." Said Taehyung and then his eyes darted on Jimin.

"Well, what can I say, I face the divorcement every day. Nothing special as a lawyer like me." Everyone chuckled at Jimin's word. "Baby you?" He pointed at Rosé.

"Eummm. I have 3 weddings project, it's so tiring." Whines Rosé. "Ah and a week ago Jen surprising me. Asked for organizing the wedding anniversary of her and you Kook. She even wants me to arrange some trip to Europe." She speaks absent mindedly before she feels a tight hand gripping her hand.

She was taken aback and watch the room got silence after what she said. Watching everyone shifting uncomfortably on their seat, and the tensed Jungkook who is now looking Lisa in front of him, pale and scared.

"I am - I am sorry." Softly Rosé said watching Lisa who feel like can't functioning her brain well. Nothing said until Hoseok speak and bring the situation cheerful once again.

"So, I am going to make another branch of my dance academy next month." He smiles watching everyone that try to look excited and faking that they ruin their dinner that night.

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Wake up, Lily.

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