Despite of the anger which is burn her inside, Lisa put aside her egoistic and talk with Jin. They are discussing about Jungkook and Jennie's relationship. And also, about Jungkook's health after they didn't talk to each other for a week.

And is it right to feel bad and begin to blame herself knowing that Jungkook took the pill 3 days ago?

They come to the conclusion that Lisa will be around Jungkook as a friend while Jin doing his best to make the formula for the safest way for Jungkook's medicine. Thats what make Lisa end up showed up at the Incheon airport surprising everyone except Jin. Jisoo was running to hug her. Jungkook can't say a word but only watching her from distance. Confuse of how to handle his feeling.

He tried to step away, to only focus to his life even though it feels impossible. Day after day he only work and work, until the pain came again days ago. It's so disturbing since he stopped to feel it before, thanks to Lisa.

He does very thankful for Lisa, to take away his pain but also feel terrible knowing that he must hurt her feeling out of his will. He is still thinking about what Jin said. But he never met the conclusion. Jennie already back to the house in two days, they did the same boring routine life. Nothing changes.

He thinks that everything going to be okay, his life without Lisa. He could marry his job if it needed. But just right now, to see her being okay, happy, his wall that he built shattered like a dust. He falls again.

Even worse, harder.

He had to hold himself to not talk to her. To not approaching her. The pain in his head stops immediately. But something is wrong with his heart, it so damn hurtful. He is so relieved when they finally arrived at French, watching Lisa so excited taking pictures of giggly Rosé and Jisoo.

"I'll take the main bedroom." Said Jin while taking Jisoo's hand and walking up stair of the dorm he rented.

"I'll be down here." Said Yoongi walking to the right bedroom which is showing him the view of swimming pool.

"I walk with you." Said Taehyung but the hyung hissed and tiredly saying at him.

"You better behave or else." He threatened.

"Chae would you like up stair?" Jimin ask and the strawberry blonde hair girl nodded walking hand in hand with Jimin.

"Hyung, I prefer anything you choose." Hoseok said to Namjoon as the older checking on his phone after taking the call from his secretary. The older watch Jungkook and Lisa curiously. The two later standing awkwardly with their suitcase trying to avoid each other's stare, and Namjoon found it cute.

"Which one you like to take, Lis, Kook?" The older ask to make both of them snapped at him.

"Wha- what?" Jungkook ask nervously. He has been grown up, but for Namjoon, Jungkook is still the baby they raised together. Cute and naive as fuck.

After quite long argument with Namjoon, Lisa and Jungkook indeed choose the room up stair, the view is really good, aesthetic and Eiffel tower could be seen make the atmosphere quite romantic, and intimate. The opposite side of what both Lisa and Jungkook felt.

"Do you want to use bathroom first?" Jungkook finally take his courage to initiate a conversation to the girl who is now checking her belongings and put her clothes in the drawer inside their room. The girl looking at him and nodded after finish with her clothes. "Lis!" Even before the brunet taking a step inside the bathroom, he holds her hand and catch her attention. She furrowed her brows together.

"Yes?" Thats all what her mouth can say watching as his hand holding hers gently as if she was a porcelain that he broke once, not wanting to do it twice.

"I am sorry." He sighs and sadness can be seen through his eyes. Genuinely he took a step and hugging her hesitantly. The girl can only blink at the situation. She committed to herself that she will be fine. She will only come to cure his pain,

As a friend.

"I am sorry that I am being greedy." He said again right now tightening the hug. To hold onto her, to not be breaking. "That I can't choose you as easy as my pain goes away every time you are around, I-"

"Understand." She cuts her make the boy releasing her and place his hand on her both shoulders. "I am sorry for not talking to you, not asking why you are never coming again." She said with a courage looking straight to his eyes. He smiles to see her smiling face. Her eyes sparkling like always. His heart softened more and more. "I didn't even know what I want from you that I should keep quiet about your statement that night. And I guess it's just my ego."

She then took his hand on hers before squeezing it gently.

"And I am aware that I no one in the first place." Her words were light, because all the burden is in his heart. After her words, he felt something big placed inside his chest, heavy and disturbing. He can't say anything but gawking at her words. Like a fool. He should have not letting her thinking that way. But his brain is shutting down. "Thats so brave of me to think that I am more than that. I was only your painkiller; I should have been felt enough to be placed safely inside your pocket."

She fights her weakened heart, telling the tears to keep in her eyes at least until the water washed away everything in the bathroom. It feels like swallowing husk and should keep your straight face on. She felt her heart breaking but she should face it.

This is her fault to let her heart played, she played her feeling itself. No one force her to get between Jungkook and her best friend, Jennie. Of course he would choose Jennie without hesitation.

She doesn't have feeling for him because of her blind love toward a jerk like Kim Kai. But he does love her. His eyes screaming the love since the first time they met at his wedding. And she should know that.

"I don't think we can go on with our latest deal." She beams after she released his cold hands. "But I willing to help you get through the pain after Jin-ssi found the cure for you." Her voice nearly cracked, and she should clear her throat. "Until then,

let's be a good friend."

--
2 days ago.

Jen unnie is calling...

"Hello, unnie."

"Can you cook for me? I just arrived from state."

"....

Unnie I can't."

"..."

"Unnie!"

"You surrender already?"

"What's that about Jen unnie?"

"You, chasing after Jungkook. Is that really over?"

"Wha-"

"Don't play innocent with me. I know what you two did. So is that why Jungkook behave strangely at me tonight."

"Unnie you?"

"Yeah, I let you get between us. Thats how kind I am to you Lalice. You can chase after him behind my back. You can give him anything that I can't give, attention, a warm homemade food, a hug, kiss, sex."

"Unnie, we didn't have-"

"But in the end, you'll know that his heart only belongs to me. Only Kim Jennie."

The words that she spells break my heart more than what the bullies in the high school did to me. Even though I knew that I am in the wrong side. But Jen unnie clearly trapped me. She knew everything we did, just to make me learn, that I never been equal to Kim Jennie.

From the first place.

I can still hear her mocking tone, the chuckled that she gave to me. Thats the reason why I should cut everything before it kills me.

"Can I sleep on the couch, Jungkook-ssi?"