I feel like my world shattered. Jennie is right, there is no good think will ever come to me.

I was watching her in fuming anger but who am I to complain about that. About her who just come out from her apartment with only bath robe, wet and messy hair, and a man with her. I am the husband from another woman. Of course she can do the same.

But my heart can't take it. I didn't do anything with Jennie, not a kissing on the lips. It's only a light holding hand when the peoples around us, nothing more. And even after I confess my feeling and she return the same favor; Lisa still remains with her man.

"I am sorry for disturbing." I said after she called my name with a shock face. She never thinks I will come to see her in her unit right.

"Won't you come in?" She even talks calmly now. I am surprised. But I had to leave, I am afraid that I will not be able to handle my anger. I can't just bang the head of her man to the door repeatedly so I will just be the only one to have Lisa.

"No. Just go on with what you are doing with your boyfriend." I know I sound rude even thought I try to be calm. I just can't help it.

She looks taken aback for a while before a rude smirk painted on her lips.

"Yeah, sure. Goodbye then." She then said rudely before closing the door hardly in front my nose. I gritted my teeth and throw the bouquet on my hand to the floor hardly.

Fuck it.

I turn around with a pathetic smile on, walking to the elevator with a heavy shoulder. I was about to touch the button when the door of her apartment opened once again as I look up and found the man walking toward my direction.

Man, I am not that weak person. But I didn't go to gym for so long. Hopefully I will still have those same energy to fight with this man. I look at him sternly as he enters the elevator and standing beside me. The door closed and I stay still watching his reflection.

At least I am hotter.

"Jeon Jungkook?" He asks suddenly to make me hesitate to look at him. "The husband of Kim Jennie?" Does he know Jennie too?

I nod and then looking straight again.

"Lisa's boyfriend?"

Fuck.

"You know?" I ask him instantly to make the man chuckled.

"Yeah, of course man. She never carrying secret alone. Too heavy to handle." He said calmly with a smile on. He seems a bright person. I nod awkwardly. But he continues to talk. "I knew it seems like we are something but man, if you knew what she did to me you won't think whatever you think I am anymore."

"What do you mean?" I ask confused at what he said. He sighs and leaning his shoulder to the elevator's wall.

"Your words. You hurt her."

"I didn't say something bad, did I?" I ask defending myself.

"You doubt her. Thats your mistake. And now if you let the jealousy eat you whole as you exit this building, I told you, she never gave the second chances to anyone. It will be the end. Over."

"And why you tell me this?"

"Because this is the first time my Lalice fall in love again. And even though with the wrong way, as I saw you, I thought it's worth it." He then patting my shoulder giving them a gentle squeeze. Why would he do this? Doesn't he, her boyfriend?

"But you are her boy-"

"I have wife, man. I life in New York, she came to visit us when the first time you two sleeping while hugging each other. She was depressed after your wife hurt her with her words, Lisa blame all to herself that time. She already through so many things to be in this stage with you. Never doubt her." I was shocked to hear what he said. Damn it, I am too judgmental and only thinking about myself. I should have belief on my instinct rather than flowing with the anger that the devil inside me made to burn me.

"And if I were you, I will go upstairs." He said when the elevator door opened. He steps out from the elevator, and I frown at his appearance, still in bathrobe, with a sandal only.

"You sure?"

"Yeah, she needs you more than she needs me."

"No." I shake my head and trying to sound cool. Despite of how hard I prevent myself to not laugh at him. "You, go out like that." I point at his direction make him to looking at his attire and then giving the bunny smile to me.

"No worry. Womans like me the most this way."

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The door opened as I sat straightly on the sofa inside my bedroom. My heart still fuming with anger and weighted with disappointment. The teeth pressing the other side, clenching the jaw, curling the fingers till the nail near cutting the flesh which is against them.

And watching who's entering the room not helping the anger to turn down in me. I hissed and looked away, the breath of mine just got heavier.

"I am sorry." He said and I smirk, sorry he said? "Lisa, please look at me I am sorry." He approached me and took my hand while squatting in front of the sofa. I try to prey my hand away from him but damn it, he is just too strong.

"Where is Bobby?" I hissed as I can't take my hand from him.

"He stays at my hotel."

"What?"

"Do you want him to roam around the city with only a bathrobe?" He told me and he got the point. Those crazy jerk, why should he leaves anyway. "He took my car too." What??

"So what? You still had to leave, Jungkook-ssi." He looks stunned as I call that name again, and then he grasps my hand tightly caging me on the sofa.

"I am sorry. Okay, I am so self-centered. I didn't think about you. I know I am sorry. Really do sorry. I'll take your punishment but please don't stay away. I need you." He sounds desperate make me for second wanting to hug him and assuring that everything is okay. But no.

I am disappointed.

He doesn't believe in me.

"I didn't know. I just assuming from what I see. I-" I glare at him, and he lowers his gaze to our hand. "Sorry. Please stay."

"You doubt me."

"My mistake."

"You. Doubt. Me." I hissed at him again wanting him to know how bad it feels for me.

"I won't do that again."

"You-"

"I love you."

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It was hard. To bring back her smile for me was so hard and I swear to myself to not ever doubt her anymore. How come I doubt the most genuine person I ever met in this world? How stupid.

"Is this, okay?" I ask as I am spooning her body to spread the warmness from mine entirely. We just had fight and make up with a warm hug. On her bed, under the blanket which is full of her delicate scent. I like them.

"Hugging is okay." She hums between her calm breath.

I am just so worried. I wasn't asking anything, but she spills it so sudden.

"I am sick. I can't do skin ship too much with man."

After telling me that, she didn't say anything anymore. We just hugging like that.

"How far you can do skin ship?" I ask trying to get to know her more. If only I can help, I will do everything. Like what she did to help me getting out of my pain.

"Handshake is okay." She beams. "Hugging, I don't know." She huffed frustrated. "It looks like only working on you and Bobby."

"Why Bobby?"

"I was practicing with him. Also, for the handshake. He is the closest person that I ever had."

"You practice?" It's weird thought.

"Of course. I can't even touch the man skin when the first time I had this weird thing on me." I can't say anything for a while. Imagining how hard the life for her. When she can't interact with her opposite gender. Even my disorder can't compare with hers. But she never shows it to everyone. She always covering her weakness with her sweet smile, and polite attitude making anyone else not that easy to touch her.

"When?"

"Near the graduation of my high school, I think."

"Was something happening?" Out of curiosity I ask her again. But there is no answer. "I am sorry." I beam after the minutes of silence. "I cross the limit."

I can feel her breath calmed, make me relax too. At least she doesn't angry to me. I shouldn't ask more. The fact that she tells me about her anomaly should have been enough for me. I don't need to dig more. It's not my area to know.

"Why me?" I ask again. There was a minute of silence, she doesn't answer me. Should I give up and just sleep right now? She probably asleep right now. I was holding her waist tighter and nuzzling my nose on her neck ready to sleep.

"The same reason why I should be your painkiller. Why me?" She asks back softly with her sleepy voice. The sexy husky of her. I smile at myself to realize the reason. Because I never choose, it just happens like that.

Maybe, a Fate.

Or we had been cursed together.

I don't mind though, as long as its together with her.

"So, no kiss?" I ask again half curious half nervous.

"As long as I pract-" she halted her answer as soon as those thought come up to the surface. We both widening our eyes, and my hand work itself to flip her to see me in the eye. Her face was crimson red, shocked are written all over her face.

I smile teasingly at her before I took the strand of her messy hair and put them behind her ears carefully.

"Shall you practice the kiss with me?"