"Then, you can call me if you need company, ok!" Jisoo cheering Lisa as she stands up from the bed where they spent their time talking before, they realized its already late. "I save my contact in your phone. I wish you can be comfortable around us."

"Thank you unnie." Lisa said happily with her bright smile as she waves at Jisoo. "See you again tomorrow."

She sighs as she closes the door. And it's all about her and herself again. Begin the war again.

She honestly doesn't know why she agreed to end up in a mansion with Jisoo and the rest of her friends, and also with Jungkook. She had been shocked on the plane to see the appearance of Jungkook and Jin who greet her.

She tries to act normal beside Jungkook, even thought it was awkward as hell. They keep on silent. And when they decide to break the ice both of them just saying something in the same time. They then keep silent again.

Upon arrival, Jin introduce her with all of his friend, 6 boys and 2 girls. One of them is his fiancé, Kim Jisoo. She is so friendly and trying to catch up with her as much as she want. Thats what make her opening herself faster to Jisoo.

Its been weeks since the last time she saw Jungkook. Its a calm morning, so heavenly and beautiful when she woke up near his face, in his embrace on the sofa. She smiles with no reason, it's so comfortable but she should leave. She should collect herself. He is off limit.

"So, you fuck my husband while I am away? Great Lalice Manoban."

The nightmare came without any sign. Red handing her who is in his embrace. She won't be as guilty as that morning when her friend caught her like that with her husband even though they don't do anything.

He is just being kind. But of course, Jennie won't buy it.

"Unnie, it's not like what you think."

"I'll hire a maid. You are not expected to come again." It's truly hurting her. She is sincere to help her friend. It just happens that she become blind, feel too comfortable around someone who she doesn't have to. "Stay away before you face what won't you capable to handle. Me and Jungkook living hard life, you will only make his more miserable."

She still remember that time. The first time she doesnt flinch at the touch of someone, and she should stay away. Its her number one fearness, to be a burden for others life. So not even talking back she just walking away leaving Jungkook sleeping tightly on the sofa. Hiding her sobs on the way her home. She cant even make her heart better, she cant handle the disappointment inside her chest for days.

"He only loves me. Jungkook only love me." Her words won't ever stop playing in her memories even though she already left. She shouldn't be angry at these words.

Everything got worse in every aspect, she tends to be angry at everything and everyone. Fortunately, Bobby, her long last best friend come and make her day better. He came to see his new nephew, Raon, in Seoul. But he flights to U.S 7 days ago.

She feels better, but she saw those face. The face of her every nightmare. She cant focus. She is afraid and needs some refreshing. She needs to escape. So she just pick random flight, and tripping without destination. It's so random but it's made her end up with Jungkook again.

How small this world can be. It's so funny.

She shrugs the problem off and heading to her bed when a knock come to visit the door of her bedroom. Twice. Thrice. And she hesitantly opening the door.

Its Jungkook.

"Hi."

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She sips the wine on her glass silently, awkwardly watching the view from her room's balcony, the city light across the ocean. It's so beautiful.

Honestly, she doesn't know what and where she will end up. She went there without plan. When Jisoo come and offering her a tour together she is so happy. Without knowing that she will end up with Jungkook again. In her room, standing side by side approving the invitement of him to drink together.

She cant reject the offer, he seems in so much pain. She can't see him in pain, she likes to be his painkiller but at the same time she hates to be close to him, knowing how Jennie starting to distance herself from Lisa.

"It's been a while." He starts the talk. Without giving her a glance. He just keeps his gaze on the city light. She nods anyway.

"Jennie unnie hired new maid. I am not expected to come again." She said softly knocking the fence to distract her mind.

"Thats night-"

"It's never happened." She quickly blocking his words making him look her way. Frowning. Confuse. "I don't know what happen with me, I know you intend to make me feel better but no, it won't happen. It never happens."

"When did you leave?" Instead giving up he just step up her way by caging her to the wall but not too close. "Why did you leave?"

"Jungkook-ssi."

"Oppa, you always calling me oppa when there is no Jennie."

"We can't do this. I can't call you with anything while hiding it behind Jennie unnie. It's something wrong to do."

"What she said to you?" He won't buy anything she said. She got annoyed but can't do anything. She better be quiet. "Lisa, what she said to you? Did she hurt you?"

"She hurts me because I hurt her first." She shouts shaking her head and walking to the fence try to escape from him. "Which wife will be fine to see their husband sleeping with other woman-"

"We did nothing-"

"Just stop this. This is all wrong." She cuts him. "Please stay away and do your life well." She softly speak, hesitant but she should do that. "Please stop to look at me, to call my name, to touch me I-"

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"I.... feel disgusted."

At least that's what I heard from her the last time we met few hours ago. It's a fantastic feeling, to face rejection.

Since I was young, mom dad and hyung spoiling me with everything. Nothing I want that never I have. Including Kim Jennie, the girl who I admire the most the first time I met her. I want her. In that boring party of our company. I ask dad about his personal judgement about her. And its 10/10. I want her so bad.

The next week, dad said that I will get married. With the Kim Jennie. She didnt reject it even thought everything I sense is only coldness. Little did I know she never want a piece of me but only our bussiness matter.

And every dissappointment come here and there, they died, noone want me. I live like zombie, even more when I had this stupid unnamed disease. I am the definition of flaw, pity and unwanted.

I should have known that Lisa won't want me either. Of course, she helps only because she has kind heart. She will do this to everyone even though it's not me. I was flying too high on hyungs words.

"I believe she likes you too."

That time I feel like flying to nine clouds. All happy, to feel the weird feeling that I had before, before the pain taking over my world.

Even until now I wonder how it works. How come my pain goes away when I have her on my side. Why it can't be Jennie, my legal wife. Why it should her best friend.

I can't even feel angry toward hyungs to make me like a fool, nearly confessing. Or did I already do that? I cant even feel the pain or the disappointment of rejection.

I-

feel numb.

My weak self feeling nothing, only laying on the hard floor, blinking, no sorrow, no tears. Only sweat and blood.

I wish its over now.

"Jeon Jungkook, get out of your damn room brat."

For what I live anyway.