I sit on a bench in front of the lake Aditya and my story took a turn. I have Aditya's letter in my hand and I look into the sky recalling each and every word that he has written. It's been exactly a year since he left me. I look around me and take in the serenity. I smile recalling my past and clutch the letter tightly in my hands. Do I feel sad after knowing the truth ? No, but do I feel sad that my husband didn't trust me when I said I would never leave whatever maybe the reason , Yes. I open the crumpled up letter again and read what I already know by heart. I trace the letter and think that this letter was the only thing that could make me believe that he is still near me. I close my eyes and remember the day when I got the letter.

Flashback

I woke up late that day. And I had a huge smile on my face because I was finally Mrs.Zoya Hooda. But when I woke up I was terrified. Aditya was beside me lying motionless with his hand intertwined in mine and our hands were covered with blood. I shook him. I told him to get up and not to joke with me but he being his stubborn self didn't get up. I called for the ambulance. I took him to the hospital where he was declared dead. I was numb. I didn't trust myself to scream or say anything. I didn't believe this was happening. I believed it was all a bad dream because I knew Aditya couldn't leave me, he had promised me he wouldn't. He had promised me that he would stay with me till I was alive.
Not a single tear escaped my eye because I knew if I cried the truth of Aditya's death would sink in and I would break apart. I went back to our house like a body without a soul. I was still hallucinating that Aditya would just come from behind the curtain and hug me. I sat down on the bed and found a letter addressed to me.
I opened it and found Aditya's familiar handwriting on it. I started reading it. What I read left me speechless. Aditya was confessing that he was the one to kill Yash and his wife. And on the last line he had written that he was going to leave me forever. I re read the letter. Now my tears flowed. It finally dawned on me that Aditya had actually left me all alone and also that he was a murderer.
A murderer who claimed to love me more than anyone else in the world. My heart was bleeding. I couldn't fathom what was happening to me. Just a few hours ago I was this happy bride and now my whole world had gone for a toss. I didn't know whether to mourn the death of my husband or to hate him for killing the first man I had loved. I stayed rooted on my bed for a week. I didn't move nor did I eat anything. I gathered myself after a week and went to perform Aditya's last rites. I gazed at the flames surrounding his body with dry and expressionless eyes.
I sat on the cremation ground watching the dancing fire and did what Aditya had told me to, I asked myself did Aditya Hooda the murderer actually love me or was it too a facade.
I thought 'Kya the Aditya Hooda? Hum toh unhe kabhi jaan hi nhi paaye. Ya kya hum unhe jaankar bhi anjaan rhe? Aditya , bure aadmi nhi the lekin unke halaat bure the. Pooja ke dhoke ne shayad unhe is kadar tod diya tha ki voh kabhi khud ko jod hi nhi paaye. Aur jab khud ko joda toh aise joda ki  ko pehchaan hi nhi paaye. Aditya jhooth bolte hai ki unhone kabhi  Pooja se pyaar nhi kiya tha. Voh pyaar karte the , bepannaah pyaar karte the kyunki agar nhi karte toh itni bepannaah nafrat bhi nhi kar paate.
Voh kabhi ek hatyaare nhi bante agar voh Pooja se pyaar nhi karte. Shayad voh apni jagah sahi the. Shayad voh us wakt koi zariya dhoondh rahe the jis se unhe chain mile, araam mile. Aur unke dimag jismein aag thi unke dil ko jala diya us samay.'

I was about to tell myself that whatever Aditya did was right and it was natural when again my brain tugged me and it said 'Lekin sirf unka rishta nhi toota tha, rishta toh humara bhi toota tha. Magar humne toh aisa kuch nhi kiya toh unka kisi ko maarna hum kaise jayaz bol sakte. Aur Yash toh bewajah hi humein humesha chod ke chale gye. Aditya ki naraazgi toh Pooja ke saath thi, Yash ko kyun mara phir unhone.
Agar Aditya ne yeh nhi kara hota toh Yash zinda hote, humare paas. Unki maa , behen har raat ko aansoon nhi bahate. Unke maut ka zimmedaar humein nhi tehraaate. Humein toh kabhi Yash ki bewafaai ka pata bhi nhi chalta agar Aditya ne unhe nhi maara hota. Hum ek jhoote rishte mein hi bande rehte , lekin hum khush rehte. Humein roz khud ko mazboot banane ki zaroorat nhi padti. Aur hum Yash se pyaar karte the. Aditya ka koi haq nhi banta tha ki voh apni khudgarzi ke liye humara aansoon bahaye.
Aditya ne jo kiya voh galat tha. Ek khooni kabhi kisi se pyaar nhi kar sakta. Unka pyaar bhi jhoota tha aur voh bhi. Achi baat hai unhone khud ko maar diya nhi toh shayad hum hi maar dete, humari zindagi ka tamasha  banane ke liye.'

I continue staring at the flames with tears of anger and hatred. I decide that this is what my heart says , Aditya was nothing but a man with venom who had destroyed himself and me. I wanted to leave the ground but I couldn't. Aditya's face kept flashing and I stayed where I was.
My heart questioned me , 'If you hate him so, why can't you leave him? And if you actually think about it , he has never actually betrayed you. This is where my the confusion of my head and heart took me. I decided to let go of my head and listen to my heart again.I shook  myself and again thought by closing my eyes

'Yeh baat kahin na kahin sach thi ki Aditya ne kabhi humein dhoka nhi diya. Unhone humein dukh pohochaane ke liye Yash ko nhi mara tha. Aur shayad Aditya apni jagah sahi the. Dil todna bhi toh ek gunaah hai. Aur voh bhi Aditya jaise insaan ka jo pyaar ke sabse paak rang jaante the. Jo pyaar ke aage kabhi kisi aur ko nhi rakhte the. Pooja ne bhi toh unhe maara tha , aur unhone bhi vohi kara. Aur Yash , unke Pyaar mein toh humne khud ki jaan lene ki gustaakhi ki. Yash ne bhi toh humein chodne se pehle ek baar nhi socha. Pooja se rishta banane se pehle nhi socha aur na hi dhoka dene se pehle. Haan yeh sach hai ki shayad humne bhi unse vaise pyaar nhi kar paaye jaisa ki voh chahte the. Humne kabhi unhe ya unki khushiyon ko pehle nhi rakha. Humne kabhi nhi socha ki voh kisi dukh mein hai ya nhi.
Hum unke dost bhi toh nhi ban paaye. Pyaar ka asli matlab toh humein Aditya ne sikhaya hai. Jab jab hum par musibat aai, tab tab voh humare saath the. Jab hum maut ke mooh mein the tab unhone humare liye goli kha li, jab dangon chot humein lagne wali thi , khoon unhone bahaya, jab hum kamzor padte the, dilasa unhone dilaya.
Aur uske badle mein na kuch maanga aur na kuch poocha. Humesha muskurake aur dil se humein sab kuch de diya. Aditya ne sikhaya ki pyaar mein khudgarzi nhi hoti hai. Aditya ki wajah se humein apna ek naya wajood mila. Hum voh ban paaye jo hum aaj hai. Haan Aditya galat the , lekin hum bhi pagal hai unke liye.
Galat toh nazariye pe nirbhar karta hai aur humare liye Aditya ne jo kuch kiya voh jazbaat mein kiya aur jazbaat mein sahi ya galat nhi hota. Hum jaante hai hum kisi ke maut ke gunaah ki safai kabhi nhi de sakte lekin Aditya ne apni jaan dekar un gunahon ko bhi mita diya. Hum Aditya se pyaar karte the aur aaj bhi karte hai aur aajevan karenge kyunki unhone humein kabhi pyaar ki , ek dost ki aur ek humdard ki kabhi kami mehsoos nhi hone diya . Humein aap mein khuda dikhte hai Aditya hum kya karein. Aur khuda se bhi galtiyaan hoti hai lekin khuda se khafa bhi toh nhi raha jata.
Humein yakeen aa gya hai ki aapka pyaar humare liye humesha saccha tha ,aap humesha ek ache insaan hi the bas shayad kuch halat aise the jismein aap bebas the. Hum aapko maaf karte hai Aditya kyunki hum jaante hai ki kabhi humse koi galti hoti toh aap bhi bina kuch kahe humare saath khade rehte. Bas ek hi baat ka gum hai ki aap ne humein bina alvida kahe chale gye.
Koi baat nhi Aditya , shayad humari kahani yahin tak hi thi, shayad AdiYa ki dastaan isi mukaam tha aane ka intezaar kar rhi thi.

Khudahafiz Aditya. Hum wada karte hai hum Khush rahenge kyunki aap humein humesha muskurata hua dekhna chahenge. Aap humara intezaar kariyega jahan aap hai Aditya , kuch saal baad hum phir milenge , aur ek nayi kahani likehnge.'

Flashback Ends

I open my eyes after my flashback. I had, had a tough time deciding what to do with the truth. Aditya had hurt me with his black truth but he had loved me like no one else had. He was right , I just had to ask my heart to get out of my dilemma and my heart won my head. I had forgiven Aditya. I didn't have any other option. I loved him way too much but not more than ha had loved me.I look at the lake for one last time today and keep his letter back in my bag and head home. I think that maybe our love story wasn't perfect but it was a very beautiful one. As I walk I feel the wind lightly brushing my face and I smile and say 'Aditya , aap mazak karna kab band karenge.' With that I speak to the wind till I reach  home and then I open the windows to let the Aditya in the wind enter our house.

Since everyone wanted me to give a Zoya POV, I did so. Do let me know how you found this two shot. Let me know if I was able to do justice with the emotions. I hope this never happens in the show but it was a very beautiful concept. Thank you so much for the love and appreciation. I would love your feedback. Lots of love to you my readers ♥️♥️