Three days and four nights..

Naina dreaded seeing him. Fearing he might pull her back into that black hole of pleasure from where she fought very hard to come out. Not only this he is not that pathetic lover she thought her to be. He is more than that. The relation they shared now has come out of the sham of being a mere tool to make Kashish jealous. Naina knows and she knows that he knows it too.

In past one month they had been a wife and husband. Not only in bed but in some other senses too. Sujal had been doing her duty of husband and she was doing hers. For one month she was somewhere else. With someone else. The initial time they spent together was actually what they were meant to. But in past one month, those thirty days managed to give her a glimpse of life perhaps Kashish had had with him.

they had sex. plenty of it but instead of being so casual about it there was a hidden sense of closure they were giving each other. it was marvelous. seeing him daily besides her and getting that cuddle every night, nsina could feel so alive. not that it was new. but the feel with sujal was different. it was exotic. she could argue with him, he could make fun of her but in the end when they slept together in both biblical and real way she was damn sure of a long sought solace. he ran back to her. she strode for him. the way they should not have but they did. change in the dimensions of their relations....in explicit and fictional way...which Naina never imagined nor ever thought of...

Like when they had that talk about his schooling out of no where. He had told her how good of student he was. And being rich has its own benefits. The way people gathered around her. And yes..the so called chess defeat he thrusted into face of his classmate who had bullied him. How patiently she had listened him. How animatedly he had told her that he was a cunning person when it comes to revenge. The only person who got him for nothing was one of his teacher who caught him easily when he attempted to cheat in his exams. That was a first time and he was caught the very first time..

It was so natural so easy to listen him and do nothing. Not Being complex was so easy. not that they never argued. they did but it was simple...the way couples do.

And that family picnic His so called Aunty had suggested, how she had ruined it. But it was a fun because sujal played along. She faked to be drunk. And Sujal faked to be the most devoting husband he never was. And the picnic ended without them. The time they got by not attending and entertaining the family was spent in running in jungle nearby where Sujal was scared to death when Naina rehearsed a story of haunted forest. Though in the end it had come out as a parody when they made out on the bed of green grass and dry leaves. His lips were so soft on her that day...that she still wonders whether it was Sujal or someone else. He had kissed her everywhere. Every damn place his kisses were present. The adventure in plucking fresh guavas from that tree was also something she enjoyed. They roamed. Marked some places. Saw some unseen trees. It was a fun to watch how Sujal misunderstood the Saal to Year. His question was so funny that she fell laughing..

'Saal ka ped? Ek sal hi jinda rahta he kya?'

That was hilarious. Those were the moments which she shared with him. Just simple moments..and she felt so good and alive. She never had to have those sleeping pills those months. It was normal and peaceful. 

But at what cost!!

She scolds herself with teary eyes. She should not think of that good time for it was momentary. She knows she is pathetic for Kashish has less disturbed life, less complicated husband and less miserable relations. She envies her..she hates her. If she had not been a idiot lover, naina' d be living her life in peace. Running after culprits of her brother, finding them and killing them... killers of Her dead brother.

God. She has nothing. She has nothing at all. Her hands are empty. When she looks at herself, a thin chain in name of nuptial chain hangs loose in her neck. Two weeks before Sujal had given her a ring which is now in her finger as a mark of her marriage to him. But in real when she spreads her hands they are empty. How hollow her life is! The urn has nothing. When she turns it upside down there comes nothing. Not even a penny of relation.

She is a loner..and thats why she is being punished for. She fought with her destiny. She fought for something she didnt deserved so...for going off the mark she is here crying and shedding tears after tears.

Naina is a pathetic sister. Naina is a loser. Naina is such a low case. She announces she is the best sister by marrying sujal for getting her access to HQ but in real she has been living with sujal for the pleasure he gave her. He gave her an escape and she took it.

She is pathetic.

Naina is pathetic.

She screams..she cries but no relief follows. Naveen was her centre of gravity. She let him escape out of her grasps. And now in heaven he would be crying over having such a loser sister.

Naveen would be so ashamed of her.

Her whole figure trembles. Her head so heavy as weight of a rhino or even a whale..She rums in room seeking any sleeping pill but gets nothing. Her hair in ger hand she is about to pull them out. Her whole world has come crushing down....with one person' entrance. Sujal Grewal.

Ohh...she hates him. She hates him too much. For he is the reason of her degradation. She proved to be a a failure as a sister...because he lured him into pool of passion which was in actual ocean.

Naina looks everywhere with desperation trying to find any pill she can get her hands on. The phone she can not use it. She doesn't want to. What the receptionist will think! What a pathetic loser Captain naina is! It goes out of her hands soon when in utmost desperation she drowns herself in bathtub. No relief comes The way No sleep has come since the past four nights. Her pills were left at sujal'

Sujal.

Sujal.

Sujal.

She hates himmmm......Her cries muffled in water and her head goes lower..water filling in her nose and for a second she feels she has no idea of her surrounding. She has stopped feeling. This pushes her to drown her head more. More water fills and soon she is not breathing...

This is how Sujal found her thirty seconds later...her head deep in bath tub and whole body clad in same shirt she was wearing when she left R &G mansion....