The reason for why I don't rlly like mentioning that I'm trans to ppl is bc I realized, that if ppl don't know your not trans, they are more prone to respecting your pronouns. Which is why I almost never tell anyone at first I am unless they ask me if I am. I'd rather have ppl think I was biologically born a man, even if I have to lie to them, then have them be aware of the fact I'm not. It also makes me feel less of a man. It makes me feel like I might never be the person I want to be. I want to be a man, yet I always feels some sort of dread when I remember I was never like this before. I was once a girl. It feels so weird and off when I say that. It doesn't feel right. I'm so used to thinking I am a boy instead of the fact I wasn't born as one. It's funny, cause there are some days where I see myself as a boy. I just completely let the idea of me being biologically born a girl slip my mind. I'm slowly becoming more of the person I want to be. And it feels so good. 

Sorry for that random venting, I just wanted to get that off my mind-