A/N I left some of my spelling mistakes on this chapter after editing as I didn't want to lose the extremely precious comments on some paragraphs in this chapter just because of editing, it would break my heart

4 months later

Emi wraps her arms around me while I take a last look around in my room and take the last thing standing on my night table in the hand. A photo from Jake and me as youths, Emi had taken it secretly during one of our first kisses. My heart skips a beat looking at the happy couple. Little did we know what we would have to go through. I press it hard against my chest.

"So much for boys, booze and party", she sighs.

"We can still stick to party. I may be pregnant but not sick. I'll just skip the other parts. I'm sure some distraction won't harm me."

Emi came back during the night of the gun shoot, after Evans had given her a call. I know how sorry she is about not telling me the truth about how my mum got killed and what really happened with Michael and his family. She stuck day and night with me, taking terms with Evans while I was crying my balls out. I don't think me or our little baby would have survived the shock of all what happened if it hadn't been for those two.

Just thinking about that night brings the tears back to my eyes, I press the photo harder against my chest.

Michael's court case will be coming up in two months. Surely, I will need them all again then.

"You know you can stay. I haven't given the room to anyone else yet."

"You should Emi, I told you I can't stay here. Even if Michael is in jail, everything here reminds me of that night and all the other things that have happened. I need to move on, need to finally put an end to all of this and live my life. You know I rarely sleep in this room anyway as every time I see the terrible pictures in front of me, seeing Jake in the pool of blood, it simply terrifies me being here. I know this isn't how we had planned our time here in Oxford, but we will both learn to deal with it. And after all I'm only fifteen minutes away from here."

"Yes I know, closer to the skatepark", she chuckles. "I'm here for you, you know that don't you? You have plenty people here loving you and when panic comes up you have plenty shoulders to cry on."

"I hope those shoulders will be ready to babysit in between too", I chuckle.

"Oh if you don't hand on your fuck off attitude to the baby, I am sure there will be plenty. You've got a whole skater crew behind you."

"And you think they won't be running away from full nappies? After all they are guys."

"Gross, even I will be running away from them. But I am quite sure Evans isn't going to mind too much. He's all nuts about this baby already. Never seen a guy like that, especially if it's not his own child."

"Well you know Evans, his heart is huge. Talking of which, he's probably already waiting in the car with my last boxes. You coming across later on? Guess I could do with some support."

"Sure guess Ian won't be coming anyway."

"Still trouble?", Emi simply nods. Gosh these two need to figure things out badly.

"Could you give me a short second on my own in here?", I ask Emi.

"You going to be alright?", to be honest I don't know, but I need this last moment to myself, so I nod.

Once Emi has left the room, my hand moves over my now growing belly caressing it lovingly. I try my hardest not to remember the night Michael appeared here, even if the blood stain in the carpet makes it nearly impossible. As hard and often I tried to scrub it away, it never faded completely, guess who ever is moving in next will need to exchange the carpet.

Looking at the empty bed, I remember the first night I got lost in those green eyes here. How we rushed in here after nearly getting caught by Emi in the kitchen. The night which changed everything. Where ever I look around, I can picture Jake and me getting it off. Even the fucking door reminds me of him, I smirk thinking about Emi's words about us fucking against the door. There are good and bad memories of Jake in here. The shock when I realized I had slept with my ex-boyfriend. But the worst memory tortures my mind nearly every night, seeing him like that was the worst thing I've seen in my life.

This really wasn't the way I had planned my first year at college. Time to move on from here and from all my plans I had set years ago, as nothing is as it was supposed to be. One last time I turn around, walk out the door and don't look back. It's going to be weird when I come and visit, but this room is now officially history. I knew it the moment that bullet hit Jake. I wasn't going to stay here and live through that nightmare again and again. Even if so many more better memories linger here.

"See you later Sweetheart", Emi says while giving me one last hug.

"Emi think about Tracey, you know the girl out of my class I told you about."

Ever since that day Jake appeared in the ladies room at college, I started talking to Tracey. I like her, she's got a great attitude and it appears she is looking for a new apartment as she caught her boyfriend with her best friend.

Evans is leaning against the car, looking great as always giving me a warm smile. He walks up to me pulling me into his embrace, hugging me tight.

"You ok Honey? Ready for the next step?"

I take a deep breath. "Yep, let's get going."

"You look awesome by the way", Evans has never failed to give me compliments, even if I am sure he's lying as I must look awful tired.

It only takes us a five-minute drive to the small house. Evans starts unloading the boxes while I am still staring at the house, my new home. Things can only get better now. This has become my new device. Hell has had me long enough, not prepared to share my life with it anymore. After all my baby needs a strong mummy.

When I turn to help Evans with the boxes, he slaps my fingers. "Don't you dare. You take it easy, I'm taking care of this. Why don't you take a look around the house already while I take care of this. It won't take long and I'll be there with you Statement girl."

I laughed when Evans got me this shirt, it states: Baby inside!

Couldn't help but tease him by telling him, I think it's great he figured out how the internet works.

Entering the house, my eyes widen. A lot has happened since I last entered this place a month ago. Everyone was worried about the pregnancy, especially after me nearly having a miscarriage after all the stress because of Michael. I started bleeding that night and everyone got over protective. That night I could have lost everything.

So, as much as I wanted to help with the renovations of this house, I was banned. Entering the living room I place the photo of me and Jake on a sideboard. Taking a moment just to look at it and treasuring that memory I am lucky to have brought to this place. Jake, who has always been the love of my life, who's baby is growing inside my belly right now.

The place I am dying to see most right now is the baby room. I run up the stairs, it's directly next to the master bedroom. Bright sun light is falling in through the window, making the room even brighter. I wanted it warm and natural looking. The walls are held in a pastel yellow, allowing it to be right for any gender. The floors are a light wood and the furniture is in a shabby chic, off white tone, giving it a bit of a land house flair. Even the crib is already put up. Slowly I walk towards it, touching it carefully just in case this is just a dream and will disappear any second. My other hand caressing my belly full of love, while tears are streaming down my face.

God I've become such a cry baby.

Warm, welcoming arms wrap around me from behind. "You like it Babe?"

I turn around to look into my favourite green eyes, eyes full of love for me. Eyes I thought I had lost forever in that terrible night. The bullet had hit one of his lungs, the only way he could survive was doing a thoracic drainage immediatly, just like the one I had. We share similar scars now. Jake spent two weeks on the ICU and now I can imagine how it must have felt like for him, watching me nearly die.

"Not too bad", I tease him.

"You badass", he says smirking knowing I'm mocking him.

"Oh I know you like me being a badass. How about I show you how much I like this in the master bedroom?"

"Ehhhhmmm could you please skip that part until I have left the house?", Evans voice appears. "I mean it's not like I mind seeing Sam naked, but gross Jake I can miss out on seeing you."

Jake lets go of me and nudges Evans in fun. I know Evans is fine with Jake and me being together, more than that. He never fails to tell us, how glad he is we are both alive and together.

"Ok, I'll give you two another five minutes to yourselves, Emi should be here soon too. Stay decent", he chuckles and leaves the room.

"You put up our photo already. It was the first thing I saw when I came back in from the backyard."

"It means an awful lot to me, it's the first thing I wanted to put up in our new home. Especially as you and the others aren't allowing me to do anything else in here."

"I love that photo too. And I love you Sam, by the way I've missed you the last two nights", his nose nudges mine while he pulls me flush against him again.

"I missed you too, I hated to sleep in that room. And being there without you was even more of a nightmare."

"No more nights without each other my Sweet stuff. I'm not quite done yet, even if I worked through most of those two nights, to have the main things ready for you. But we have everything we need and I promise to make this our home. Now that you are here, you can even boss me around and tell me what else you want done."

"Right now I want you to kiss me."

"Thank fuck, been waiting for that request long enough", I had teased Jake beforehand he's first allowed to kiss me if I approve with the baby room.

Jake's arms wrap tighter around me and he kisses me with all the love he has to give. A kiss which expresses more than words ever could. I'm his air which he needs to be able to breathe just as he is mine. Our kiss gets deeper and hungry.

"Fuck I think I'll just go and chuck Evans out of the door and show you the master bedroom or any other room already", Jake says with a hoarse voice making me chuckle.

For a while I did worry the pregnancy and my growing belly would be a put off for Jake. After the doctor explained to him nothing could happen I was proven wrong though. We are always hungry for each other. I pull Jake's hand and take him across to the master bedroom and lock the door behind me. I don't even take a chance to look at the room first.

"He's just started chatting with Emi, this will give us at least ten minutes", I say making Jake growl.

"Ok, so a fast one. I will make up for it tonight." He opens my pants, lays me on the bed and pulls the pants off completely. "Leave the thong on, I'll simply push it aside."

"You like that don't you?" I give him a smile and bite down on my lip.

"It's kind of dirty, so yes. Now let me see how ready you are for me", his darkened eyes and husky voice giving away how turned on he already is.

He spreads my thighs apart with his flat palms and then flips the thong aside. "Spread your legs more for me, I want to see you", he demands. Gosh as always, his words get me going even more. He sucks in his bottom lip while looking at me. "I see your arousal glistening on that sweet pussy for me. You need to be quite my Love, remember we have guests. Now let's see how ready you are", he pushes first one and then a second finger in me. I bite my lip not to moan out loud. "Fuck you are dripping wet, you are needy aren't you Babe?"

"Yes my Skater boy, now hurry up", he chuckles at my small outburst.

Not wasting any time he only drops his pants and boxer to the knees. As we don't have time, he moves in fast making me cry out. I clasp my hand over my mouth while Jake keeps thrusting in and out of me, rubbing my clit at the same time with his thumb. I see him bite his lip too and sweat dripping from his forehead. His fingers dig deep into my thighs holding me tight while his thrusting gets faster. I know he is damn close and waiting for the final kick as soon as he kicks me off the edge. I bite my fist, my body starts trembling as my orgasm rolls over me and taking Jake with me.

Jake leans down and gives me a quick soft kiss. "Fuck Baby, you always get me going. As much as I want to lie down kiss and hug you now, I think our guests will get suspicious very soon. I'll make it up to you my Love, I promise."

Jake pulls back, places my thong back and gets himself dressed. "Take your time, I'll just tell them you needed to go for a pee again. After all nothing unusual with pregnant women, right?"

"Right. But Jake come here first", I chuckle while wiping the sweat beads from his forehead. "Guess if you went down there like that, there's no denying anyway."

The smirk on Jake's face tells me, he doesn't even really give a damn. As soon as Jake has left the room I take a look around. There's a huge wardrobe with six doors on it. Jake says I need space for all my statement stuff, he's hung our skate and biker gear in there already. The walls are cream coloured with stripes. What I love most about this room though is the bed. During the renovation I wasn't allowed here and Jake made a mystery out of a lot of the things, but he wanted me to tell him what kind of bed I wanted. He only had one request a decent stable head board. Well I got my dream bed, guess one every girl dreams of. A canopy bed out of dark wood. One like Edward and Bella had in Twilight the one Edward wrecked during their honeymoon night. I take a short moment to lie down on it, it's ever so comfy I can't wait to spend the night here with Jake.

Alright enough of dreaming, I quickly get dressed and head for the bathroom.

OH MY GOD!!!

Jake has outdone himself on this one. He must have had help with this. I can see he took down a wall to make it bigger. There's a huge walk in shower like the one at his old apartment, a beautiful free-standing bathtub a double sink and well of course a toilet. It's all held in a modern land house style I love so much. He really made this our home, a home I'll love forever.

We actually did a bargain with buying this house, as it needed a lot of renovations and restoring.

Jake had his share paid out by his parents, who still hate me, as they think they lost their son because of me. I don't care if they hate me, as I hate them too. But I do feel bad for Jake, after all they are his parents but he wants nothing to do with them.

Luckily, I got a really good price for Grams house. Leaving us a good lump sum of money left over, even once we have finished this house.

Entering the kitchen, Emi snatches my arms and pulls me out of the kitchen instantly. "You filthy bitch couldn't even wait till we have left? Now at least spill some sexy details."

"How the hell...?"

"The look on Jake's face, oh and yours doesn't look less satisfied. You are such a Queen getting that sex god. Gosh the way you two act like horny rabbits, you'll be having the house full of kids in less than five years."

Emi never fails to make me laugh. She is so bold. "You want details? Ok, it was a great quickie on my new bed, there will be much more to come. Jake is a master piece a god and really knows what he is doing and that's enough details for you."

"What details?", Jake asks while entering the living room with Evans.

"I guess Emi was pestering her about your sex life minutes ago." Evans says loud and Jake's and my jaw drop at the same time. Damn I still don't have that invisible power and now my cheeks are crimson. "Oh come on, that one was so obvious you two. How can you be shocked we know? We're not daft. You two can never go without each other for long. Gosh it wouldn't even surprise me if you had it off in the hospital bed."

While my cheeks redden even more, Jake tries to hide a smirk.

"You serious?", Evans bursts out.

"Hey, you just said it wouldn't surprise you and well we didn't have it exactly off. Let's just say, things got a little heated."

"Jake shut up", I demand embarrassed.

"Dude that was a fucking hospital."

"Yeah well I had a private room with a lock on it. And it got quite boring. Gosh I never said I'm a saint. And we didn't fuck, we just had some fun."

I think I'll never ever be able to look into Evans's face again.

"Well explains why you don't need a dildo", Emi laughs.

Ok there's only one way out of this. Sam style, big mouth. "Well seems like I'm insatiable and hell I enjoy being the badass, you all know it. So suck it, I just fucked my boyfriend and have been a naughty girl in hospital. Oh and I'll very likely have it off with him all over this place as soon as you go. You wanna hear how I suck his dick or something?"

Evans chokes and then everyone starts laughing. "As always, not lost for words my Love, right?", Jake states with an amused look on his face.

"Told you, not in my nature."

A/N: Did I catch you and make you worry about that first part? God I felt my heart breaking 😭💔with the insecurity, but I needed to be a badass. So sorry😅! Finally we are getting things to where we are wanting them to go, right? And Sam? I love she has her filthy mouth back at the end of this chapter. With all the trouble around her, she had lost it inbetween, but I needed her to be fully her again.

So we are nearly done guess 3 maybe 4 chapters to come. My heart is already weeping. Somehow I don't feel ready to let these two go.

Looking forward to your comments and votes.