"So was this is what you thought I'd hate you for?", Jake's voice sounds pissed.

"I don't want to put pressure on you or whatever. You don't have to deal with the consequences. I'll cope with it. Damn, I know we are far too young for this and it's not what we planned for. But I can't give this baby up. It's a miracle it survived the crash and all the medication. Of course I know it's your life too and please Jake live it to the full. Live it as you had planned, there doesn't need to be any consequences for you. I'm not demanding anything from you." I think I've never spoken this fast in my whole life.

"Sam are you fucking serious?" He's fuming, his hands running through his hair while walking back and forth. Knew this wasn't going to end well. "Is this what you think about me?", he yells and I fight back the tears. This is my fault I have no right to cry.

"Calm down mate", Evans interferes.

"Calm down? The love of my life, seems to think I'm a fucking monster. How am I to calm down? How long do you all know, huh? Am I the only stupid guy running around not knowing it? Gosh you puked during class and I couldn't even put one and one together, how stupid could I be?", his voice isn't calming down at all, it's getting louder and angrier by the second.

Evans puts a hand on Jake's shoulder trying to calm him. "I only found out on Thursday. Sam and I had an argument about it too. She made me promise not to tell you yet until she has sorted some things out, because this stubborn girl thinks she is messing up your life too much. Believe me, I was angry with her too."

"And you, how long have you known about this?", he spins around to me and points accusingly one finger at me.

"I found out two days before leaving hospital. So about two weeks now", I almost whisper.

"Is this the reason you were ignoring me so determined?"

"That and of course I was still hurt about all the secrets you kept from me. Secrets which have changed my whole life. But yes it was the reason I was more determined. Your parents made you live a life you never wanted, I'm not doing the same to you."

"Don't you think you are being a hypocrite right now? You were angry for me keeping secrets from you, secrets I had to keep to protect others. And now you are keeping secrets from me, because you think you are protecting me? What about my wishes, about my rights? When was I supposed to find out? Or did you intend on leaving and never letting me know I have a baby?" He tugs his hair hard while yelling.

"Of course I was going to tell you. I just wanted some time to sort things out. To have somewhere to live with the baby and make sure I can take care of it. You weren't supposed to feel you have to take care of us, if anything you should have the chance to decide without pressure if you want to be part of our or just the baby's life or not. And I was fucking afraid you wouldn't want it in the first place. I can't give our baby up Jake, I just can't."

"Gosh Sam I really can't believe you are saying this or even thinking this way. You ever listened to yourself?", he's beyond furious right now.

Jake grabs a jacket and runs out on me, slamming the door behind him. Defeated I slump down on the couch and start crying. Evans comes up to me and holds me. God why was I so stupid to pretend everything was alright between Jake and me beforehand and fucking slept with him. Landing in his arms and seeing his beautiful green eyes, my mind switched on to autopilot, it took what it was longing for so deeply without thinking about the consequences. I should have stopped him before we went that far, I should have told him beforehand. Fuck Evans was so right about telling him beforehand. It's just like Jake said, I'm a stupid hypocrite deciding to keep secrets from him when I was so angry about him keeping secrets. Ok, my secret has nothing to do with anyone being killed and yet I'm not giving him a chance to decide for himself.

Fuck I thought I was done with crying, but all these stupid hormones just make things even worse.

A loud banging makes me shriek, Evans opens the door and Jake storms past him straight up to me. From the corner of my eye I see the worried look on Evans face, ready to kick Jake out if he acts stupid.

"You say you love me, right?" Jake crouches down in front of me. His voice still stern but calmed down to only minutes ago.

"I do.."

He cuts me off. "Then how can you think I am such a monster? I mean I get it, you thought that way during the rape, as you didn't catch on I was trying to help you. And I get you lost your trust in me after everything that happened. And yet you love me. How can you even think I wouldn't want this baby?", he touches my belly. "How can you even think I wouldn't want to be part of this? This may not have been planned, but Babe I was the one who fucked you in that shower without a condom. I'm not naive, of course I know this could have been possible. Gosh Sam, I love you so much it hurts, how could I not want or love our baby? You are my world and now you my beautiful girl are making me a daddy."

Oh these stupid tears. His voice suddenly so soft, loving and totally contrary to seconds ago. And then him touching my belly, I start sobbing loudly. "You aren't mad about me being pregnant?"

"Hell no Sam, I am mad you thought such stupid things about me. God, I love you Sam even if you are the most stubborn person I have ever met. I knew all along someday I want you to be my wife and have children with you, fuck even as eight-year-old I knew it. Admitted this went faster than expected, I did think we'd be finished with college beforehand. But suck it, we are going to make it even with college and you know why?"

Needing to hear this I look up at him waiting for him to continue. "Because this is us Sam. Other than my parents, we will be great parents, our kid is going to grow up with parents who love each other ever since. Who can say that nowadays? And we are going to be super cool parents too, our baby will probably be on a skateboard before it can even walk decently." I chuckle by the thought of it.

"I love you Sam and honestly this is going to be one of the greatest gifts you could ever give me. Fuck I hope I didn't harm our baby. I mean I just fucked you really hard on that table, that can't be good for the baby."

"Hey, keep your dirty little secrets to yourself. Fuck I will never be able to sit at that table again. And honestly, I don't want to know how hard you fucked or whatever other detail you have about your sex life."

Damn for a moment I was so lost in Jake's words I even forgot Evans was still standing there. My face flushes immediately and I want the invisible super powers again. Out of all the people who could have heard it, it had to be Evans. The guy who's my best friend and has feelings for me. Hopefully he doesn't feel too hurt about it.

"Ok, before I hear any more details I don't want to hear, I'm leaving. Oh and glad you guys finally worked this out, it was about high time."

With that he leaves. I know I have to thank Evans for so much, he's been so great with everything. Jake is still on his knees in front of me, his hand caressing my belly while he still has a worried frown on his face.

"Jake it's fine. Sex won't harm the baby. You don't need to be more careful now because of it, we can have a normal sex life. Only once the belly starts getting in the way, then we might not be able to do every position, but who knows we might find new ones. I'm sure there are plenty left we haven't tried yet."

"And I don't need to worry about condoms, you felt amazing beforehand. Now that I know the difference I don't want to use one ever again, you feel so damn good", he growls and comes up to kiss me. "Babe promise me to never keep things like this back from me ever again. And I promise to do the same. No matter what, we are in this together and I told you, I'll never give up on you again."

My eyes focus on his lips again. Will I ever get enough of those god sent lips? His tongue dampens his lips, only making it even more fascinating. Without even thinking I automatically do the same. Jake reaches out to touch my bottom lip, his thumb driving over it. No idea why, but every time he does that, it turns me on like hell. My mouth opens for him and I see his eyes widen at the sight.

"Do you know, that no lips have ever turned me on like yours do? Lips that have my mind going all over the place, causing all kind of dirty thoughts", he whispers with a hoarse voice.

"You want to show or tell me some of those dirty thoughts? Cause I am too curious to know."

I wish I could read his mind, so badly. I love when he talks dirty to me.

"I'd love to see those dirty lips wrapped around my dick, sucking the hell out of me. I want to kiss and feel every single inch of those lips, suck them in, feel them swelling from me. I want to bite them while you moan. I want to see how they form O's while I am fucking you."

"I want you to show me", I reply, feeling the need of him.

Jake lifts me gently up from the couch, carrying me bridal style. "Tonight I am going to show you how much I love you, again and again. I want to treat you and make you come for me. Give you pleasures only I can give you. And watch you unfold right in front of me."

"Are you promising me a long night Skater boy?"

"A damn long night my Skater girl! But I'll be taking it easy on you, as I know you aren't quite fit yet. So lean back and enjoy. The other thoughts on my mind I'll show you bit by bit another night."

Jake lays himself next to me, cups my face and whispers how much he loves me while I drown in his beautiful eyes. His lips brush over my jawline giving me sweet shivers.

"I want to kiss every inch of your body", Jake whispers just before he starts peppering soft kisses on my jaw, on my neck and finally on my lips. "How can you always taste like sweet cherries? You are so addicting you know?", my mouth parts for him letting his tongue glide inside my mouth. This kiss is different to the one in the staircase beforehand. Beforehand we needed to fix things show each other how much we have missed and need each other. This one is no less passionate, but all insecurity has left, this is fire, the fire which is burning deep inside our hearts and souls. He's only holding and kissing me and yet I am a moaning mess already. Jake pulls at the hem of his t-shirt I am still wearing, with one swift move I am totally naked.

"You naughty girl didn't even wear panties when Evans was here. You know how crazy that made me?"

"Crazy in a good or bad way?"

"Both", he answers while biting my lip until there is a very slight pain, a delightful pain sending waves right to my core only getting me more and more wet for him. "It killed me to know what was waiting for me underneath that t-shirt and it was eating me up Evans might see something he shouldn't. Thank fuck you drown in my shirts."

"I thought you were mad and yet you were thinking about me being naked?" I ask a little amused while dragging my fingers down his perfect toned chest.

"I was mad as hell and when Evans had that thong of yours, I swear I was on the edge to kill him. As soon as I grasped the truth, my focus was on your little fabric you were wearing. No matter how mad I am, you'll always be naked in my mind. And from now on no one else will ever get to see that."

His hand cups my breast, his thumb playing with my nipple, while Jake is fixated on it. Jake gives it a slight pinch, my peaks harden automatically from pleasure while a moan escapes my mouth.

Jake leans over me, he's only left in his boxers. Too focused on the feelings, I have no idea when he got rid of his pants. His pelvis grinds against me, while his hand digs into my hair, holding me tight while his kiss is ever so hungry. Him rubbing so hard against me and this unbelievable kiss is making me lose track of everything again. Jake groans loud at the friction, god I want to feel him in me.

Suddenly there's a loud bang and a second one. Fuck was that just a gun shot?

Jake seems to have heard the same thing, alarmed he moves his head around. My bedroom door crashes loud open.

OH MY GOD!!!

All the guts I had last night have left me now. How the hell could he find me? I see the bruises on his face, caused by me punching him and smashing my crutches into it. As fast as possible, I grab my mobile lying right next to me and dial Evans number which I have on short cut, hoping he will hear it. Michael couldn't have seen it, as from his point of view it's right behind Jake.

"Seems like I am coming in the right moment. Mind if I join in? Oh no wait, I'm not joining in, as I am going to have you for myself. Jake can watch from the side-line, you know how that feels anyway, don't you Jake?"

Jake pushes me protectively behind him as Michael is aiming a fucking gun at us.

"Michael please, there's no need for this put the gun down", I plead and hope Evans is hearing that part. "Please let's just leave the past behind us."

"Oh I was willing to last night. All I wanted was some fun with you Sam and look what you did to me", he points at his black eye. "Jake doesn't deserve you, remember how he ditched you? He didn't care we both fucked, he betrayed you for his family. And yet you still only have eyes for him. It's always been Jake for you. You never saw me the way I saw you. You never looked at me like you did at him. I was always the one to watch from the side-line with the two of you. It's always been Jake on your fucking mind, you didn't even notice how I was craving for you. None of you noticed, to all of you I was just the best friend Michael. Now I'm sick and tired of being on the side-line, it's time for Jake to take it."

"You had plenty girls craving for you. You were in the sports team all the girls were ready to give you whatever you wanted", Jake yells.

"The only girl I ever wanted was Sam and you always had the upper hand. Oh I remember too well how you told me how perfect she was, how she was driving you crazy but you would never dare to touch her." A dirty smirk appears on his face. "Well I beat you to it, didn't I? Did you hear her cry out? Did you see her tits move to me fucking her? What did it do to you Jake, tell me?"

I feel Jake tense up even more, ready to do something dead stupid. "No Jake", I plead and hold on to him.

"Go ahead Jake. As I am ready to take what should have been mine all along."

"You are sick Michael", I spit out.

"Come on, I know you liked it Sam, you like the hard way, play hard to get and how I tore down your clothes. So how you want us to do this? You coming on your own free will this time, let Jake watch once more? Or shall I give him the bullet first and take you hard after it. It's up to you Sam."

Blood is rushing through my body, I feel helpless and terrified. I don't want him to ever touch me again. I don't want him to force me but I'd go through all of it to save Jake's life.

"I love you", I whisper in Jake's ear while sobbing and trying to move away from him.

"No way Sam, I'm not letting this happen again", Jake holds me tight behind him.

From far off I hear sirens, god please let them be here for us. Evans appears in the door heading direction Michael. Relieved I wrap my arms around Jake.

A loud bang echoes through the room, I feel a rush of air against my skin while I scream terrified.

Evans somehow manages to hit the gun out of Michael's hand with a chair, while Jake crouches down.

Moments later police rush through the door taking Michael down, while I am still screaming hysterically, holding on to Jake lying in my arms.

A/N: Aggggrrrr I am soooooo sorry. I did want to write a happy ending to this chapter, but somehow I felt blocked and I realized it had to do with Michael. He is too sick in his mind, he wouldn't put up with Sam cutting him out the way she did.

Please don't hate me!!!

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Listening to the music for this book, I couldn't get past this one, on this chapter......love me when I'm gone...... oh my heart is breaking 💔😭