This is going to be switching from the past to the present, so regular text will be present and italic text will be past. Alright that is all ^-^

I have nightmares a lot, every night even. Waking up in a cold sweat with the thought of your dead comrades in your head was something I was used to. It's gotten worse though. I haven't had a nightmare about him in a while now,  but now he's suddenly coming back to haunt my dreams again. Sometimes I just wish that I could just sleep. These nightmares keep making me stay up late so the bags under my eyes are obvious. Ana keeps telling me that she can help me with the nightmares, but I know she can't. Only he can. But he's dead...or at least gone. Gabriel Reyes is no more, instead he's been transformed into the enemy. I need to stop thinking about him...but how?

My eyes shoot open. My breath is quick and sweat is visible on my forehead. I choke on a sob and feel as hot tears fill my eyes. I try to hold it back but my tears spill and I start sobbing uncontrollably. My sobbing wakes Gabe up and he wraps his arms around me. He turns me over so I'm looking at him and he sighs. His face is barely visible in the darkness of our room, but I can still see the pained expression on his face.

"Another nightmare?" He asks, his voice raspy and sleepy sounding. I nod, attempting to wipe the tears from my eyes. He kisses my forehead and pulls me closer to him, "Do you want me to carry you around again?" He asks. I nod again and he nods back. 

He sits up and pulls me up with him. He slides off the bed and stands up before helping me sit on the edge of the bed. He stands up and looks down at me with the pained expression still on his face. My hands are shaking violently as I stare down at my lap.

"Hey, calm down cariño." He says as he kneels down and takes my hand in his. He leans down and kisses my knuckles softly, carefully, caringly. This calms me down like it always does, but I still shake. But this time in smaller doses. He reaches up and puts a hand on my cheek, his thumb caressing my face softly. I lean into his touch and he weakly smiles at me. "Are you ready?" He asks. I nod again instead of talking. I feel as if I'm a mute, unable to speak. Only communicating in silent nods.

He lets go of me making me lean forward to try and savor the touch. He stands up and I reach up like a child, asking him to lean down. He complies to my silent wishes and leans down so I can wrap my arms around his neck. He wraps his arms around my waist and pulls me up off the bed with a small grunt. After a moment I get settled in his arms and I rest my head on his shoulder, my tears staining his shirt.

"S-Sorry..." I say, barely in a whisper.

"It's alright...don't apologize Jackie...." He whispers in my ear. I nod and burry my face in his shoulder.

You see, whenever I would get nightmares Gabe never knew what to do to calm me down. So he would just carry me around the room until I would calm down and eventually fall asleep. Sometimes he would even sing to me. It was a song originally in english, but he would sing it in Spanish. It always seemed to make me calm down....

"Want me to sing again?" He asks, nuzzling his nose in my hair.

"Mhm..." I hum as I nod my head.

"Alright." He says as he starts to walk around the room, carrying me carefully in his arms. He starts to hum the starting tune of it before singing;

"Oh, Sra. Believer, mi lindo durmiente Tu mente retorcida es como nieve en el camino...." He begins to sing.

I barely remember the name of the song... I believe it was called 'Oh, Ms Believer'? I'm not exactly sure though....

"Tus hombros temblorosos prueban que está más frío dentro de tu cabeza que el invierno de muertos..." He continues. The more he sings, the less I cry and the calmer my breathing gets. He smiles when he notices that it's working. He continues to sing the song until I've completely calmed down, falling limp into his arms as he sways me with him.

"Nos ponemos más fríos A medida que envejecemos Vamos a caminar Mucho más lent." He finishes the song. He still keeps a firm grip on me, making sure that I'm still comfortable in his arms. I nuzzle into his shoulder and sigh.

"Thank you." I mumble as I rub my tear stained eyes.

"No problem mi amor..." He says as he kisses my cheek.

I smile at him as a way of appreciation. He smiles back with a genuine smile. The pained look on his face disappearing, instead being replaced with a look of relief. He carefully places me on the bed, leaning my head back onto the pillows and placing the blankets over me. As if I'm some delicate piece of pottery. He makes his way over to the other side of the bed and he lays down next to me. I turn my body towards him so I can see his face. He looks so calm...as if nothing happened...maybe I shouldn't believe these nightmares... No matter how much they say Gabe will die, he will never actually be dead...

Yes, it was called 'Oh, Ms Believer'. I remember that I asked him about it....

"What's the song called that you always sing to me?" I ask as I stare into his eyes. He chuckles before answering,

"It's originally an english song called 'Oh, Ms Believer'. It's quite a nice song actually." Gabe says as he wraps his arms around my waist and pulls me closer to him.

"Hm...I'll check it out..." I mumble and he nods.

"Not right now, now you have to go back to sleep." He says chuckling and I smile and nod.

"Of course." He smiles down at me and kisses my forehead.

"Goodnight cariño." He says as he closes his eyes, preparing to sleep.

"Goodnight Gabi..." I mumble as I close my eyes after him. The warmth radiating off of Gabe calms me, eventually I feel tired. My whole body sinks into a deep sleep. This time with no horrors, so nightmares, only Me and Gabe. The first time I've had a dream in a while.

That was the last time I ever had a dream. It was quite nice.

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I lay awake. The creaky uncomfortable hotel bed underneath me granting me no comfort in my time of need. They say that it takes a lot to make a grown man cry, and I've been through a lot. Every time I close my eyes or even attempt to sleep he pops up in my mind. The memories starting to become unbearable to think about. I can remember everything we did together so clearly. It is terrifying. Every night now, I have nightmares about Gabe. Nothing seems to help. I wouldn't dare tell Ana, she'd probably go ape-shit on me.

My eyes feel so heavy, the tears that irritate my eyes not helping much. I sit up and sigh as I wipe my tears with my arm. I'd hate to admit it, but God damn I miss him. I just wish I was in his arms again. I wish he could carry me around and sing to me. I wish he could comfort me, kiss me, love me...but instead he was taken away from me by the Reaper.

I hear a knock on my door and I sniffle and try to wipe the remaining tears from my eyes.

"Come in." I say loud enough for the person at my door to come in. The door opens and the elderly woman comes into view. It was Ana. She is holding a small cup of tea. She flips the light switch and makes her way over to me.

"I heard you crying...I thought maybe I could get you some sleeping tea to calm you down." She says as she carefully hands the cup to me. I take the cup carefully and peer into it. Ana has always been like a mother or older sister to me. Always worried about my health and trying to help me.

"Thank you, but you didn't have to do this." I mutter as I take a sip of the tea.

"Of course I did. You haven't slept in weeks Jack, you need my help." She says as she takes my chin in her hand. She forces me to look at her and she checks out my tired and tear stained eyes.

"I'm fine, I promise you." I say as I try to pull my face away from her grip.

"No you are not Jack Morrison!" She scolds as he lets go of me. She sighs and calms herself down. "I'm just worried about you..." She mutters as she looks at me, a worried look on her face.

"Don't worry about me Ana, it's just some nightmares..." I say as I sip the hot tea. The tea wipes away the bitter taste in my mouth and I sigh with relief.

"About Gabe?" She asks and I nod. She sighs and runs her hand through her grey hair. "I'm sorry Jack...just...try to get some rest at least." She says.

"I'll try, but I can't promise anything." I mumble. She sighs again and leans over to hug me.

"Take more care of yourself Jack..." She whispers in my ear before pulling away and heading to the door. "Goodnight Jack. We move tomorrow so be ready by ten." She says and I nod. She smiles at me before closing the door and leaving.

I sigh as I set the tea cup on the bedside table. I'm suddenly feeling very tired. Ana must've drugged the tea. Damn her. I sigh and fall back onto the bed, sleep swallowing me up immediately.

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Alrighto! Sorry if this chapter was in any way confusing!

I thought that the song kinda went with this chapter (Also I just love the song lol)

But thanks for reading my trash

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