Words left me and my mind went cloudy by the sight. Gulat na gulat ako sa nakita at hindi ko nagawang maigalaw ang katawan. I was stuck there, startled to see them kissing!

"Tryza..."

Hindi ko nakaya pang hintayin ang sasabihin ni Yeri. Nilampasan ko sila at nagpatuloy sa mabibilis na hakbang, gustong mabilis na makaalis, pero naka limang hakbang pa lang ako ay napigilan na ako ni Yeri.

I faced her when she held me with no emotions in my eyes, just an emotionless stare. Nakita ko ang kaba sa mga mata niya. I almost let out a sarcastic laugh. Why do she looks so afraid? Guilty, huh? At saka hindi niya naman kailangang mag-alala kung sasabihin ko sa boyfriend niya— 'yan ay kung iyan ang inaalala niya. I don't know the guy, she shouldn't be too afraid.

"P-Please don't tell anyone. Please, don't tell them what you saw." She really seemed nervous.

I remained stoic and unfathomed, just watching her begging.

"It's not what you think it is..." She tried explaining but I couldn't seem to process anything except for the fact that I saw them kissing! "Please don't tell anyone about this. I'm truly asking you."

Bakit nga ba kasi may mga taong gagawa ng mali at kung may makakita sa ginawa nila ay magmamakaawa para huwag silang isuplong. Just... What's with people's logic? Can't you just be in a relationship with one person and stick to them? Why'd you have to cheat? What's so great about that? The thrill? Seriously, pity them.

"Try-"

"Just a friendly advice from a woman like you, Yeri eonnie," I mocked harshly, reminding her that she's older. "Don't eat two apple at the same time, you might choke to death."

Pagkatapos ay inalis ko ang mga kamay niyang pumipigil sa braso ko at tinapunan ng tingin ang lalaking naiwan sa harap ng pintuan ng comfort room bago naglakad paalis.

I don't know if I was mistaken but I think I saw him gulped when our eyes met.

Bumalik ako sa conference na parang wala lang nangyari. Only that I was more quite and my mind seemed to be in a different dimension.

Just two minutes after I went inside, Yeri arrived as well, looking tensed and slightly nervous. Nagtama ang mga mata naming dalawa at nakita kong mas naging kabado pa siya lalo. She's even walking clumsily. Good thing she did not tripped.

Pasimpleng tumaas ang kilay ko at pinakatitigan ang cellphone sa ibabaw ng lamesa. I was surprised that she's already here. I thought they would at least continue their make out session.

The meeting started and I can feel everyone's attention to what she's saying. I salute her for not stammering when it was pretty obvious that she's uncomfortable whenever her eyes lands at me.

She asked if we learned things from her and that if we could carry on without any guide. Each in everyone of us were asked and when it was my turn, I just nodded and answered the questions limitedly and directly.

Nang matapos ang meeting na iyon, nauna na akong lumabas at mabilis na naglakad. The only thing I want for the meantime is to leave the premise of the building. And it's a good thing that we only have the meeting for today's schedule so I don't need to stay here.

Dere-deretso ako sa elevator at mabilis na sumakay roon. When it landed on the ground floor, I took a step out but immediately stopped when I saw Jungkook outside the elevator's door.

Nagkatitigan kaming dalawa. He looked like he wanted to say something but decided to keep his mouth shut. Nag-iwas ako ng tingin at nagsimulang maglakad para lampasan siya. Hindi rin naman niya ako pinigilan kaya nagtuloy-tuloy ako. Well, not that I expect him to stop me. Wala naman siyang pakialam kung anong sasabihin ko, e. He didn't even look like he cared when I saw them kissing earlier.

Later that day, I went to dinner with Kevin on the usual restaurant. I was spacing out while eyeing the other side of the road where I saw Yeri with a man months ago. Then the sequence of events continued. I remember her talking to someone on the phone inside the comfort room where she addressed the caller as jagi. Then my thoughts arrived to the fact that it was an unrequited love... or was it now?

I remember the scene of them kissing. How could it be an unrequited love if that's the case? Moreover, why would Yeri kiss another man when she's in a relationship with someone else?

"Tryza!"

Seryoso akong nagbalik ng tingin kay Kevin nang malakas niyang tinawag ang pangalan ko. I arched a brow at him.

"What are you thinking? You seemed so drown in your thoughts."

Napatulala ako sa baso ng tubig sa harap ko. After a while, I clicked my tongue and put my arms on the table and faced him.

"What will you do if you see two people kissing and then the woman asks you not to tell anyone what you saw?"

"Then, I won't tell anyone. Simple."

"It's not that simple!"

Kumunot ang noo niya. "Ano bang sinasabi mo?"

"I mean, what if it's like, uh... the woman kissed that other person or the man even if she's in a relationship with someone else. Would you still keep quiet about it?"

"Well, that's indeed a complicated situation." Napaisip din siya. "But just let them handle their situations. 'Wag ka na lang mangialam. Baka madamay ka pa."

Natulala ako. "I guess... you're right."

"Where is this coming from, anyway?" He asked with his raised brow.

"Nothing. Just random thoughts."

"Random thoughts. Really, huh..." He seemed suspicious.

"Yeah," I answered.

He was about to talk more but the food arrived so he just decided to shut his mouth though his suspicious eyes remained. Tahimik lang naman akong nagsimula sa pagkain hanggang sa matapos kami.

Kinabukasan, balik trabaho na naman kami kaya maaga na naman akong nagising para mag-jogging. When I was already inside the BigHit Entertainment's building, tahimik lang ako naglakad hanggang sa makarating sa kwartong pinag-aayusan namin sa pito.

Nang pumasok ako, tumambad sa akin si Yeri, Sae Young, Chae Soo at dalawa pa naming kasama na nag-aayos ng mga gagamitin. Nagkatinginan kami ni Yeri ngunit mabilis akong umiwas at dumiretso sa upuan ni Jimin. I was quiet and only talking to Sae Young and Chae Soo if I were asked by them.

"Good morning," Jimin greeted me when he entered with the other guys.

"Hi." I smiled at him.

"You look good," he complimented.

I chuckled softly and I don't know why. Hindi naman ako ganito! What the hell?

"Thank you. Shall we?" I motioned the seat to him.

"Oh, right. Gimme a minute. I'll just change," he excused himself and went to the fitting room to change.

"You look unusual today," Chae Soo commented.

"I do?"

"Uh-huh." She nodded and raised a brow.

I chuckled and just shrugged at her. Seriously, I know! I'm acting unusual. Unsually cheerful towards Jimin, unusually quiet when the guys weren't here yet, unusually... weird.

I sighed. What the hell am I doing?

"Maybe, I just need someting ne-"

Natigilan kaming pareho nang may dumaan sa gitna namin. Napaawang ang labi ko sa kawalan ng respeto at sinundan ng tingin kung sino ang dumaan. I scoffed when I saw that it was Jungkook.

What is his deal, now?

Umirap ako at aksidenteng l-um-anding ang mga mata kay Taehyung. I saw him observing me with serious eyes. Natigilan ako at napakurap nang ang sunod niya namang tiningnan ay si Jungkook, pagkatapos ay ako naman. Vice versa.

I cleared my throat when our eyes met. He still remained serious but I saw a hiding smirk on his lips. Tumalikod na lang ako at dumiretso na sa pag-aayos kay Jimin dahil nakalabas na rin naman siya.

For the next days, it was the same setup. Napapansin ko ngang hindi na talaga ako nakikipag-usap kay Jungkook at Yeri. I wouldn't even look at them if it's not necessary. I also noticed that V's keeping his eyes on me and Jungkook like he's finding out something or he's confirming something.

I totally avoided the two. Most of the time, if we were to cross ways, I would just walk directly and ignore them. Katulad noong isang araw. Nagkasalubong kami ni Jungkook sa pintuan nang paalis na ako at papasok naman siya. Nagtama ang mga mata namin pero mabilis akong umiwas at nagpatuloy sa paglalakad habang siya ay natigilan sa pintuan.

I was very distant, and cold, and ignoring.

Isang araw, nag-aabang akong bumukas ang pintuan ng elevator at nang bumukas iyon, awtomatikong humakbang paatras ang mga paa ko nang makita si Jungkook ngunit agad ko rin iyong pinigilan.

I don't want to be obvious. Hindi ko gustong sabihin niya na iniiwasan ko talaga siya kahit ganoon nga naman talaga ang ginagawa ko. So, after taking a silent deep breath, I walked inside the elevator and occupied the farthest space from him. Pagkatapos ay kinuha ko ang cellphone at kinalikot iyon para lang matahimik ako.

"Tryza..." He called my name. Tiningnan ko siya mula sa sulok ng mga mata ko habang hawak pa rin ang cellphone. "Are you avoiding me?"

Tahimik akong nagbuntong hininga at itinago ang telepono. Alright, time to strike some annoying enlightenment.

"Why would I avoid you?" My voice was cold.

I felt him faced me. "Is this because of what you saw?"

Tumaas ang kilay ko habang tinitingnan ang mga button ng elevator. "What did I saw?"

"Come on, Tryza. You know what I mean." He seemed frustrated.

"I don't know what you're talking about," I denied.

He sighed. "Then, is it about my kiss with Yeri?"

I almost let out a scorn if only he wasn't looking at me. "Why would I avoid you because of that?"

"I don't know with you."

I rolled my eyes but nevertheless, still stayed silent.

"Tryza-"

"I am not avoiding you. Will you stop talking to me now, please?" Pagod kong tanong sa kaniya.

I never thought I'll ever have the chance to have this attitude towards him. In some point, naiisip ko na mali ito dahil mataas pa rin naman ang antas niya kaysa sa akin. But in some point too, I know that this thing has nothing to do with our levels in society or life.

"Then, why can't you look at me?" He's really pushing it. Seriously, why was it a big deal to him?

"Do I have to look at your eyes just to say that I am not avoiding you?"

"Tryza..." Sabay sa pagtawag niya sa pangalan ko ay ang pagbukas ng pintuan.

"I have to go. Excuse me," sabi ko bago mabilis na lumabas.

But... he chased me, and pulled me to an opposite direction.

Nang huminto siya, nasa isang tahimik na corridor na kami. Walang dumadaan doon at talagang tahimik.

"What are we doing here?" Walang emosiyong tanong ko.

"I think we need to talk."

"You think? Really? But I think we have nothing to talk about."

He groaned. "Jesus, you are frustrating me!"

Bahagya akong natigilan nang tumaas ang boses niya. Did he just lost his cool?

"Why are you frustrated?" I am keeping my cool.

I saw him gulp. "Tryza, I think..."

I raised a brow to urge him to continue. He parted his lips but nothing came out. Naghintay pa ako ng ilang segundo bago siya tuluyang nakapagsalita.

"Can I hug you?"

"Wha-" Hindi ko na naipagpatuloy pa dahil binalot na ako nang mainit niyang yakap.

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko sa gulat at hindi agad nakagalaw.

Kung hindi ko lang siguro sila nakitang naghalikan ni Yeri at kung hindi lang sana complicated ang sitwasyon, matutuwa na sana ako na nakatanggap ako nang mainit na yakap mula sa iniidolo ko o sa minamahal ko. Pero hindi iyon ang sitwasyon. I know my place... and that's not inside his arms.

"Let go," malamig na usal ko.

He didn't move. It was like as if he heard nothing.

"Jungkook..." I didn't know but my voice turned soft when I called his name. "Let me go, please."

"No..." His voice was husky.

Uminit ang ulo ko at pilit na kumawala sa kaniya. Itinulak ko siya nang sobrang lakas pero sapat lamang iyon para makawala ako sa kaniya.

I don't know why he's doing this. Umaasa lang ako sa ginagawa niya. He's just getting my hopes high again, and I don't want that.

"You know what? You are damn confusing!" I screamed in front of his face and marched my way out the building.