Chapter Thirty Two

It isn't until James walks into the gym and talks to Reid, who looks sad and disappointed, is when I feel knots in the pit of my stomach. Why is James here? Where is Hayes?

Questions flies throughout my head and I can't answer any of them. The only conclusion I can come up with is, something came up and Hayes had to leave to take care of it.

I hope that's the situation and not anything else and Hayes would be back soon.

Lily notices Hayes is missing, too. "He'll be back." She assures me but it does little to help.

All through class, I keep glancing at the door to see if I can spot a glimpse of a dark headed and grey eyed guy walk through the door but I never did. He never came.

It's the end of the day and Sophie constantly keeps asking me where her brother was and I can't answer her because I didn't even know. I asked Reid and he didn't reply back to me. He just gave me a cold look and his eyes burned with hatred. I quickly left him alone after that cruel look. Lily even asked him and he just muttered Hayes was taking care of something.

I try to ignore the way my stomach twist in knots but it isn't easy. Something is wrong and my heart is in pain.

You miss him. My heart tells me.

You're better off without him. My mind butts in. She's weak and wants you to get hurt again. My mind is talking about my heart.

Once again, my mind and heart have an internal battle. Where's the voice when I needed it?

I'm pull out my thoughts when Mr. Dean calls my name along with Sophie. I get the impression, Mr. Dean has been telling us what are assignment was for a while now but I wasn't playing much attention to him.

I stand up and follow Sophie onto the stage, hoping whatever Mr. Dean told us, is the same assignment.

"Sophie what are we doing?" I whisper as I stand beside her.

"We have to sing a song that represents our topic Mr. Dean gave us and everyone else has to figure out what our topic was."

I nod my head. "Okay so what was our topic?"

"We have to sing a song that makes us feel good about ourselves. Like we're confident and we don't need anyone to help us." She explains.

"Alright. So we're pretty much improvising right now?"

"Pretty much." She agrees, nodding her head. "You can take the lead."

"Girls you can begin now." Mr. Dean tells us.

"Okay." I reply.

I search for a song that I can use in my mind and one pops up. I look at Sophie and smile.

I must confess you're looking fresh.

She recongize the song as she repeats after me.

So fresh
Yep I'm the best, go ahead and flex (flex, turn up)
Everybody be hating the way you be stealing the show
Cause boy you be killing them just like little Terio

Ooh you can get it anything you want
(anything you want)
And can't no body (can't no body) tell you no (no, no)
Don't need no filters on your pictures before you post them on the gram
You can shut down the internet
They don't even understand

Like ooo they don't make them quite like you (like you)

We finish the song and Mr. Dean begins to ask everyone what they think our topic was about. Some said it was about being stuck up and they want all the attention to theirselves. Others said it was about being confident about themselves and not some much as cocky. Which they were right about it being our topic.

Mr. Dean tells us, he just wanted us to know that lyrics can have more than just one meaning to them and we just proved it. Now that I think about it, he was right.

School ends and James walks me to my dorm. It's silent as we walk and James doesn't bother to make small talk like usual.

"Um, James?" I say, getting curious and worried.

"Yes, Princess?"

"I was wondering if you might know where Hayes was?"

He shakes his head. "I'm sorry. I don't. All I was told was Hayes had business to take care of and I was to watch you until farther notice."

I nod. "Oh okay. Thank you."

No one knows why Hayes left and that scared me. What did he had to do? Where did he go?

We reach my room and James give me a slight bow before leaving. I walk into my room and stay in there with only my worrying thoughts to company me. The knots in my stomach seem to get tighter and I have a feeling something is going to happen. Something I don't want to happen. But I don't know what that something is. I just know it has something to do with Hayes.

***

Two long days past before Hayes emerges from where ever he was. He hasn't said much when he came to pick me up, not that I expected him to. I just hoped he would.

As usual, we walk in utter silence and I keep chewing on my lower lip to stop myself from asking him where he had been for the past two days.

Taking a quick glance (which isn't as quick as I thought it would be) at him, he is looking in the distance. He seems to be lost in thoughts but is pulled out of it when he feels me staring at him. He looks at me from the corner of his eye and I quickly look away, hoping I wasn't blushing.

"What?" He asked with no signs of either being angry or anything. His voice is deplete of any emotions.

I glance at him and he is still looking at me. "Nothing."

He doesn't say anything and we continue our silent walk to the school. Kyle walks up to me wearing at huge smile and I return it.

"Why are you smiling?" I ask as he slings his arm over my shoulders and brings me closer to his body.

He looks down at me. "Because I have you in my life and I'm so lucky to have someone as beautiful as you."

I should be happy and bubbly inside but I'm not instead my heart sinks. Kyle's words made me feel like a horrible person. He doesn't deserve someone like me. Someone who doesn't know who she wants.

"I'm the lucky one." I tell him. "You're such an amazing guy."

His smile grows wider and the guilt eats me up. I need tell him but I don't know how. How can I explain it to him when I can't comprehend it myself. He wouldn't understand because I don't.

"Okay! Enough with all the Kyllie moment." My dear friend, Daniella, says, inturrupting us. "I already have Lucian locking lips now I see you guys with lovey-dovey eyes and it's making me sick."

I smile at her as I playfully roll my eyes. "You're over dramatic."

"I told her the same thing." Laura says.

The bells rings and Kyle kisses my goodbye as Daniella pretends to be sick. Laura just shakes her head.

I walk to my class and Lily and Lucas are already there with Reid standing in the back. He gives Hayes a look I couldn't quite decipher. Hayes doesn't say anything as he takes his place next to Reid.

"Did he just get back today?" Lily asks, looking at Hayes before looking at me.

"Yeah."

"Did he tell you why he left for two days, unannounced?"

I shake my head. "No but my guess it has something to do with the mood he's in right now."

Lily is staring at me but she isn't seeing me. It's like she's looking straight through me. Lucas notices too. He waves his hand in front of her face and she blinks a couple of times.

"Are you okay?" He asks.

She nods her head. "Yeah. I, um, kinda blank out."

She gives me a look and I know she just had a vision. I want to ask her what she saw but I can't. Not with Lucas sitting beside her. He doesn't know she's the seer.

Class begins and I hold my tongue until we get to the locker room to ask her what she saw. We make sure everyone is out the room before she starts explaining what she saw.

"It involves you. I don't know when but it feels like it's gonna be sooner than later when you receive a letter. And I don't think it's a good letter."

I frown. "Why not?"

"You were crying."

"Are you sure?"

She nods her head. "Yes. I'm positive."

"You're positive about what?" A new voice asks.

We turn our heads and see Sophie standing by the door. Lily and I exchange glances.

"I'm positive that I'm gonna get your butt in dodgeball." Lily says, smoothly.

Sophie grins. "You're on." She grabs her knee pads before we follow her out the door.

The day seem to drag on. At some point, I felt like school was never going to end, but it did and I was happen. We don't leave the campus until after five.

I say goodbye to Kyle and Lily says goodbye to Lucas. Sophie talks to Hayes and she looks sad. He tells her something and her eyes fills with tears. She hugs him and he returns it. They hug for a while before Hayes breaks away and hops in the car.

Reid turns on the radio for Lily and the SUV instantly fills up with some Selena Gomez song. I don't pay much attention to it as we drive to the mansion my thoughts are on Lily's vision.

I wonder what the letter said. I wonder who sent it to me and why they sent it to me. But of course I don't have any answers to them so I push the vision away for the moment being and watch Lily dance or try to dance.

Half an hour later, we pull up to the gate that surround the manison. The gate keeper lets us in and Hayes parks the vehicle and we climb out the car. Abe is waiting for us and we hug him as we head inside the warm house.

He asks us how our week was and we fill him in and Lily just had to tell him, I had to get a shot in my butt and Abe laughed and I tell them it wasn't funny which made them laugh harder. I just roll my eyes as I stalk into the dining room where the food is being served.

I make myself a plate and Lily joins me. She sits beside me.

"Do you know why Sophie was crying?" I ask.

Lily shakes her head. "Nope. Not a clue. I was wondering myself. It had to be something Hayes told her."

We finish our food and I follow Lily to her art room and she continues to finish her drawing from the last time we were here. It's a picture of the sun and the moon and stars. It looks incredible. She begins to shade in the sun.

I watch her for a little more before I feel the urge to play the piano. I tell her I was leaving before I walk out the art room. I head up the staircase, praying that the music room will be unlocked.

Last time I tried to sneak in there, it was locked. I don't know why I didn't ask Abe about it but I feel like I wasn't supposed to be in there. I don't know who it belonged it but I figure it might belong to Abe since he's into music like me. But, then again, if it does belong to Abe, he wouldn't have the needs to lock the door.

I decide not to dwell on it as I grip the doorknob. I twist it and to my surprise it's unlocked. I quickly slip inside and shut the door, surrounding myself into pure darkness. I find the light switch and it takes a moment for my eyes to adjust to the brightness.

I sit down on the bench and my fingers immediatly touch the keys, lightly. The keys feel cool on my fingertips. I smile at little as I think back to the time Lily made a big scene when I refused to play a One Direction song. Yeah I liked them, but Lily is in loved with them.

It was one day after school and we all decided to get together. It was kinda an excuse to spend more time with our boyfriend but we had fun hanging out with Laura and Daniella too. Kyle suggested he wanted to hear me sing and Lily quickly picked a One Direction song and it didn't go to well with the rest of the group. Sophie wanted to come but she had a lot of homework to do.

Thinking about Sophie, I wonder what Hayes said to her earlier. I ponder with the image of Hayes finally telling Sophie about the missing files but I quickly vanished that thought. There's no way Hayes will tell her anything. It has to be something else but what?

My fingers move across the keys, absent-mindedly. When I force myself to listen to what I'm playing I immediately regret it and my heart sinks.

I'm playing the song Abe sang at my mother's funeral. I can't stop myself from playing so instead I finish the song and wait awhile before I begin to play another song.

I didn't plan to stay in the music room as long as I did so when I finally emerge from the secret room, it's time for dinner. No one seemed to notice I'm a little late and I'm glad. I didn't want to tell them where I've been the last couple of hours.

I take my sit beside Lily and I pick my fork up as I see Hayes talking to Abe. Whatever they are discussing it seems important. Abe's eyes are fill with sympathy as he clasp Hayes' shoulder before he comes to the table. Hayes stays where he is for a few seconds before he sits down too.

Dinner is as normal as it can be but to me it isn't. I feel like something is off. I can't pinpoint it but I knew it isn't good. Once I'm finish I head to my room and gather my night clothes.

I head into my bathroom and take a much needed shower. I dry my hair and throw it up before I climbed into my loving bed. I wrap my arms around my cool pillow and fall asleep.

It isn't until much later into the night when I hear paper crunching. I move my hand to where I hear the noise and my finger comes across paper. I open my eyes and I sit up.

I bring the folded up paper closer to my face. I slowly unfold it and I see writing on it. It's too dark to see what it said so I turn on my lamp that is beside my bed.

I gasp but it isn't because it has my name on it, I kinda figure it was mine since it was in my room. I gasped because I knew who it was from way before I looked at the signature at the bottom of the paper. It's from him. I know his beautiful, elegent, handwriting from anywhere.

Millie

When I first saw you I knew it. I knew. I was scared. I was scared of what you would do to me but I didn't need to be. You made me want to be a better man. I wanted to be that man for you. I wanted to be the only one for you and never let you go. I failed, miserably. I hurt you in a way you should never feel in your life. Your life is suppose to be filled with smiles, joys, and love, some much love. You deserve to be showered in kisses, not tears I have caused. Words cannot express how truly sorry I am but it's the only thing I have left. I'm sorry for hurting you. I'm sorry for wasting your time- time I didn't deserve to be with you. I didn't deserve you. I never will. I have caused you so much pain in such a short amount of time. I'll do anything to make it up to you. If you want me to leave, I will. If that's what it takes to make you smile again, I will do it. I'm never going to let you go even when you let go of me. I will still be here, waiting for you. No matter if it's weeks, months or years from now, I will wait, because even when you don't know it yet, we were meant to be together and I'll wait as long as it takes for you to come to me. I love you. I always have and I always will.

Hayes

Tears fill my eyes way before I finish the letter. They fall out my eyes and I don't bother to wipe them away. Hayes is leaving because of me. Because I won't allow myself to be with him anymore. Everything is clicking together now. It explain why Hayes vanished for two days and all the cruel looks Reid has given me and the tears Sophie cried. Hayes is leaving. He's no longer my guardian.

Then do something about it. The voice says.

I climb out my bed and head toward the door. And for once, my mind doesn't try to stop me.