Chapter Thirty Three

Hayes' P.O.V.

It's way past midnight and my eyes refused to close. My mind was restless and instead of trying to force myself to sleep, I got off my bed and head to the other side of the headquarters.

Time like this, I couldn't go to the music room. It reminds me of her and I didn't need to be in there. Not when I'm leaving in a couple of hours. Not too long ago, Abe tried to talk me out of leaving but I didn't budged. I needed to leave. It was best for everyone. Reid and Sophie didn't think so but they'll get over it.

I knew Millie was curious why I vanished for two days and rather than telling her face to face, I wrote her a letter. At first it was just going to be a letter saying how sorry I was and that I was leaving but then it got deeper. I told her I loved her and I always will. I figured she wouldn't noticed the letter until after I left. But that didn't mean her sister wouldn't noticed.

Lily was posted outside my bedroom, with her arms folded over her chest. She had a vision, I wrote a letter to Millie. She disagreed with the fact of me leaving because she knew we were both hurting and we both needed each other but she didn't try to convince me to stay either. She wanted the best for me and if leaving will help me cope with the pain, then carry on. That's what she told me.

I didn't know what to tell her so I just nodded my head and enter my room. Little did I know, my mind wouldn't shut down.

So here I am, in the work out room, trying to tire myself out. I head to one of the punching bag and did a combo on it. Once my fist made contact with it, it never stops.

I kept punching and kicking the bag as if it was a danger to everyone. Sweat covered every inch of body and my hair clings to my forehead but I don't stop not until I notice a figure.

At first I thought I was seeing things but when I close my eyes and open them again, the figure is still there. I don't know who it is because not all of the lights are on.

I stop the bag from swaying side to side as the figure steps into the light. I frown as she continues to walk towards me.

"Millie? What are you-"

Before I have a chance to finish my sentence her lips crashes into mine. I don't question it as I snake my hands into her hair and brought her closer to me. She pushes me back until my back hits the wall and we slide down until we touched the ground. She staddles me and continues to kiss me.

Finally we break apart to catch our breath. Her forehead rest on mine. She's breathless. She bites her lower lips as she glances up at me through her eyelashes.

She slowly shakes her head. "I don't want you to leave. Stay with me." She begs.

I swear if this girl told me to jump off a cliff, I would do it in a heartbeat. I wouldn't care if I hurt myself or worse. She has that much affect on me.

"I will." I promise her. "As long as you want me to."

"I'll always want you here."

That's all she gets to say before my lips captures hers again.

"I love you too." She mutters against my lips and I grin. I've been waiting for her to say those three words for a long time.

She pulls away and looks me in my eyes. She's studying me. She wants to ask me something but she doesn't know how to put it in words.

"Go ahead and say it." I tell her.

"I have a lot of questions."

"And we have a lot time. So ask away."

I can see her search through her mind trying to find a question she wants to ask first and I wait patiently on her. Once she finds one, she glances at me.

"In your letter, you said your were scared to be in love." she states. "Why?"

I had a feeling she would ask me that.

"Because I didn't think I could be able to return those feelings others felt for me. I grew up learning to be strong and detached from my emotions. Especially love. If the Morches had even the slightly clue about my feelings and connections to others, it'll haunt me for the rest of my life."

Millie's hazel eyes holds sadness. I know her too well to know she feels guilty. She's blaming herself. I caress her cheek.

"Don't do that." I say. "Stop blaming yourself. It wasn't your fault I fall in love you with."

She can't argue with that even though I know she will try to find a way to put the blame her. She won't find one.

"Can you explain everything to me? I know you tried to before and I wouldn't let you finish but can you tell me now?"

I nod my head. "Sure. You know my history with girls aren't the very best."

"Yeah I know. Even before I actually knew you, I had a feeling you were a player."

I ignore the sting in my heart. If I couldn't fall in love, then there wasn't anything stopping me from becoming the player everyone knew about but yet wanted a chance to be with.

"I know Daire didn't make it any better."

She makes a face when I mention Daire's name and I chuckle. You didn't need eyes to feel the tension between them everytime they were around each other. It became worse once Millie and I started "dating".

"Yeah sorry about that. Daire was super clingy. She had this thought she could make me fall head over heels for her but I couldn't. No matter what she did or say I couldn't feel anything for her. I sound like an asshole but that's just how I grew up."

"That would explain why she hated me so much." Millie says. "She was jealous of what she thought we had."

"I'm sorry for using you. If I could go back in time, I'd change everything. The thing is I wasn't suppose to fall in love with you. I was suppose to make you happy again for Abe's sake. He wanted you to sing again and I couldn't figure out another way to make you happy. When I first saw you at the tattoo parlor, I couldn't help but want you. I desired you."

She doesn't look at me as I speak and I understand why. She's processing what I'm saying.

I continue. "Everyday, every single second, you were on my mind. When I was around you, I was glad. I never been so happy to be around someone so much before. You brought the best of me out."

"When did you realize you were falling for me?"

I smile. "I fell for you the moment I first saw you and that feeling grew when I kissed you for the first time. But I didn't comprehend it until that day you asked me what I felt for you was real or not. That's when I realized you had me total hooked on you."

She grins. "I had you hooked, huh?" She repeats.

I roll my eyes, playfully. "Yeah you did and you still do."

She punches me in my chest with her small fist. "You should've told me there was a law forbidding me from being with you. Do you know how much pain I was in. It was hell."

I gather both of her hands in mine. I smirk. "I'm sorry. I should've told you."

"Hell yeah you should've told me. I never seen that side of you before. You were like a stranger to me. A cold, distant stranger."

I know she's referring to the time in the limo when I told her we were just a fling and nothing more and every little cold moment we shared.

"I thought that if I was jerk to you, those feelings would disappear but it didn't." I explain. "It actually got worse. I couldn't sleep at night because I dreamt of you."

"I knew those feeling couldn't just disappear into thin air." She says. "That's why I kept trying to make you see what kind of love we had but you didn't want to listen to me and I finally couldn't handle being rejected and unloved again."

Tears fills her eyes and I crash her body into mine and wrap my arms around her, holding her tightly to my chest. "I'm sorry. I'm so so sorry, Millie. I'm sorry for putting you through all that pain. I promise I won't ever do that again."

Her tears stains my shirt and I hold her tightly. Finally she pulls away.

"I'm sorry too."

I frown. "For what?"

"For not letting you explain everything to me, not giving you another chance and not running to you after you sang to me."

"It's okay."

She shakes her head. "It's not. You were in as much pain as me maybe even more. I had Kyle and even moment we had, we pretty much rubbed it in you face."

"That was just a small amout of prize I had to pay for being a dick to you."

Her face falls. "Kyle. What am I going to tell him?"

"We'll think of something." I assure her. "Don't worry about it."

She grins at little. Changing the subject she says "Speaking of singing, I wouldn't mind hearing you angelic voice again."

"I'll sing to you whenever you want."

"I might take you up on that offer."

For the next hour or so, we talk about everything. Reminiscing the past, we laughed for a long time. We talked about the day she jumped off the cliff and when she hit me with a water balloon. We even talked about the time Eli Smith tried to kill her.

"I thought I was going to die that night." She says.

"I wouldn't have let you die."

"I know that now. I still hate the fact he hurt because of me."

"It's fine. It really just a graze." I lift my shirt up for her to see for herself. Right below my belly botton there's a thin line from when the knife pierced my skin. She touches the scar with her fingers.

"See it's not that bad. I had worse."

She nods her head. "I'm surprise the Morches didn't cause more damage to you."

"What? You don't think I can handle them?" I joke.

"No. I'm just saying there was like eight of them."

"It wasn't like I didn't have Reid with me. Eli just took me by surprise."

We talk a little more before it's time for us to leave the gym. I walk her to her room and she takes me by surprise when she kisses me like she isn't going to see me ever again.

"I'm not leaving." I assure her, smiling.

She nods her head and walks into her room. I stay outside her room for a few seconds before heading to Abe's office to see if his offer is still available.

Millie's P.O.V.

I feel the bed sink under new weight being added to it and I barely open my eyes to see Lily wearing a huge smile.

"What?" I groan.

"You know what?" She says. "Hayes decided to stay. I know you had something to do with it. So what happened?"

Closing my eyes, I find the letter for this morning and hand it to her. Hugging my pillow, I start to fall back to sleep. I'm asleep for about two minutes before I hear Lily squealing with excitement.

Seeing I'm not going to sleep anytime soon, I sit up and Lily begins to shoot questions out her mouth 100 miles per hour.

"Oh My Gosh! What happened? How did it happened? He said he loved you! Did you say it back! I knew something was gonna happened! Wow! How long did you guys talked? Or did you guys even talk at all?"

Reaching over, I cover her mouth with my hand, silencing her.

"I'm going to tell you but promise me not to go all crazy."

She nods her head motioning she promise. I drop my hand and begin to tell her everything that happened in the last four hours. Her smile keeps growing and growing and at one point of time I thought her face was about to split into two.

"Aww! That's so cute." She gushes. "You guys deserve to be together."

"Yeah but what about Kyle?"

She waves it away. "Forget about him. I never really liked him."

"You didn't? I thought you grew fond of him."

"I did but then I started hating him because I really wanted to believe that you and Hayes would be together."

We talk for a little bit before heading downstairs into the dining room. Breakfast is already serve and of course Reid has his plate ready but instead of greeting me with glare he actually smiles at me. Hayes is sitting beside across from him and he flashes me with one of his sexy smile and I return it.

I fill my plate with pancake, sausage, eggs and bacon before I sit across from Hayes. As much as I wanted to sit beside him, I know that will be too tempting. I won't be able to resist from touching him. And everyone thinks we had this icy relationship, anyway.

After I finish eating, I head to my room to get ready for the day. Lou, my stylist, is in my closet.

"What are you doing, Lou?"

"I wanted to find you something to wear and I need to talk to you."

"Okay..." I sit on the edge of my bed as I wait for her to talk.

"I always knew you two would end up together every since you guys met back on Arsyn."

I frown. "What are you talking?"

"You don't have to pretend anymore. Your secret is safe with me."

I drop the façade. "How did you find out?"

"I'm observant. You guys are drawn together. I don't know. It's like you're much happier whenever you're around him and vise versa. Hayes wouldn't have left without a valid reason and he mind set on leaving then sudden he changes his mind. He's like a moth drawn to flame and you're the same way. Back on Asryn, he was always overprotective of you. He swore up and down he would never fall in love. That he couldn't fall in love and now look at him, head over heels for you."

I smile. "I'm glad he fall in love with me but I hate the fact we have to hide out love because of that law."

Lou rolls her eyes. "That stupid forbidden law. Your mother told Abe to get rid of it a long time ago and he won't listen. He has this thought that no one would be perfect for his little girls but sooner or later he's going to have to give it up and face the fact that love is boundless. It has no rules. You fall for the one who makes you happy and smile and laugh everyday."

I take her words in. "You're right Lou. Thank you." I hug her and she hugs me back.

"You're welcome."

One day Abe will understand how much I love him but for right now, Hayes is my little secret.