Hello, Wattpad, long time no see. Life's just a mess right now. I'm not busy or anything, just mentally exhausted.

Have you ever felt worthless? Or like your feelings and opinions aren't valid? Or like you're constantly ignored? Or like people step- or do whatever they want with you, just because they think they can? Yeah, I've been feeling like that for a few days. I usually can deal with negative emotions pretty well, but something feels different this time. I feel like I can't go back to being my normal self. For the last week or so, all I can think about is this constant feeling of worthlessness. And it isn't easy to let it go, since people that surround me make me feel like I don't matter. I know I don't, but getting a constant reminder of it isn't nice.

Every day I wake up feeling numb, you know? I'm there, but not really there. I can notice it, and it bothers me. What bothers me even more is that I can't change it, not right now.

As I'm writing this, I feel like a statue. I'm just watching everything in silence, unable to talk or feel anything. I just sit and stare as I destroy myself inside yet again.

Anyway, I don't know where I was going with this. I guess I just needed to vent... And, gosh, I want to cry so badly and I can't. Well, thanks for reading this ramble-y chapter. Hopefully, I'll see you next time.

Luv, Angel