~Y/N POV~

This past week has been awful.

Not only because of this massive hole in my heart, that's been missing ever since I left the castle that day but also I've been unwell.

Myself and my parents have put it down to the fact that I'm human and my soul is taken it on my body from rejected my vampire mates. I don't know but it's been a tough week as it has been. I've missed school because of it. The constant headaches and shakes and even sometimes a fever, it's not good.

It's shit.

Maybe it's karma. I've put it down to karma now.

"Joy!! I'm dying."

I swoon over my bed after coming back from the bathroom while she scoffs at me from the edge of my bed. She's not happy that I can't go to school but she's also sick of hearing me moan about my illness but she's still here.

"Oh shut up you're not dying. You've just caught something obviously." Joy

She rolled her eyes at me and turned her back to me. She's in a bad mood today. I scowled at her to pick up a pillow and throw it at her back.

"Hey!!" Joy

She turned back to glare at me but I acted innocent to pick up the covers and slip into them and picking up the cold wet cloth I brought through moments ago. My fever was picking up again.

"You know for someone that rejected your soulmates you certainly seem fine about it." Joy

Well that was out the blue.

I didn't know how to respond to that.

The truth is I'm not okay with it, it's very hard when I think about them. I actually try not to think about them. I constantly question if they're okay or if they've changed at all in anyway. I've asked my mom and dad but they always tell me its best not to think about that stuff anymore if I'm serious about this whole rejection thing and I'm actually starting to regret it.

Joy sighed heavily to move back and shuffle along the bed until her back hits the headboard and she's sitting next to me.

"I'm sorry. It's just, I've had a very bad day today and I've taken it out on you. I shouldn't and I'm sorry." Joy

I nodded to her, accepting her apology to then lean my head back with the cloth over my forehead and sighing in relief at the coolness. This fever is a pain in the ass.

"I, I just, I don't get it with you." Joy

"Get what?"

I shifted the cloth to now cover my eyes as well as my forehead.

"How can you just reject them like that when you didn't give them a chance to change. Maybe, if you had simply told them and gave them an option, maybe they would of gotten rid of that room without question. You would have to be blind to not see they would do anything for you." Joy

She chuckled the last part and my regret sunk in deeper. Why didn't I do something like that?

"Don't get me wrong yes, they did wrong but maybe you should of spoken to them first. I know you, you sometimes act first and ask questions later when you're too angry. HA!! A perfect match I suppose for them." Joy

She started rambling on, with a little more upbeat in her tone than before but I still couldn't help but feel so angry and frustrated with myself. Frustrated tears fell from my covered eyes but I didn't want her to think I was crying because of her. I was crying for them, what I had done to them.

"Y/n? Oh my gosh I'm so sorry I didn't mean to make you cry." Joy

She pulled me to her side for a hug and I leaned my head to her shoulder, allowing my cloth to fall off my face. My heart was burning so much with regret, if only, if only I did things differently.

Joy rubbed my arm soothingly to try and calm me down but, no. No matter how much she tries I cant stop right now.

There was a knock on the door and my moms voice was heard from the other side.

"Y/n honey? Are you okay? Joy?" Mom

My mom opens the door and when she immediately sees me crying she rushes over to join in our hug that's turned into a three way hug.

"Whats wrong with her?" Mom

I couldn't seem to stop crying or even find the words to use. Guilt, regret.

"I- I don't know. I was just mentioning a few things and she broke down." Joy

Her voice laced with concern and my mom sighed with her breath, hitting my bare shoulder from the vest I was wearing.

"What things?" Mom

"I just told her th-" Joy

"I want to see them."

I just came out with it and they both froze on each side of me. I spoke so confidently. I wanted to see them, speak to them. As I spoke those words my tears stop now knowing that what I need to do.

"Y/n are you sure about that?" Joy

"Honey you're not well. Maybe when you get better if that's what you really want." Mom

I wiped my eyes with the back of my hand.

"It is what I really want but I want to do it now. Mom maybe this fever will go away if I just accept it and make this whole bond thing right again."

There was a pause until my mom shifted off the bed to stand with her hand stretched out for me to take with a light smile.

"Well then lets go then." Mom

I thought I would have to convince her more but she actually seemed to like the idea. I took her hand and she helped me to stand up since I was a little light headed.

"Joy are you coming?"

I turned around to ask her and she widen her eyes at my question.

"What? Really? But I wouldn't want to get in the way." Joy

I shrugged and held out my hand for her too. She smiled at me to then jump up and to then take my hand to stand up from the bed.

"Lets go then!!" Joy

We all laughed and walked out my bedroom and down the stairs to get our jacket and shoes on. My mom guided me to the living room to take a seat while her and Joy went to go get our jackets and shoes.

The door bell went off and I stood to go answer it but my dads voices call from the hallway.

"I'll get it!" Dad

I smiled to myself to take a seat again. I listened to the door open just when Joy came skipping into the room handing me my jacket and shoes. I thanked her and slipped on my shoes, I then picked up my jacket to put my arms through the sleeves but both myself and Joy froze when we heard the voice from the front door.

"Hello, Mr Lee. I heard about Y/n being ill and I just wanted to make sure she was okay."

He spoke as smoothly as ever.

What's Kai doing here?

He's been missing and he just shows up at my door.

Both myself and Joy exchange a look, we both know somethings wrong. He knows how my parents feel about him and never came to the door before.

"She's perfectly fine Kai. Now leave." Dad

I heard his voice which was dangerously dark in tone. Somethings definitely wrong.

He may of never liked Kai but never spoke to him like that before.

"Oh, don't be like Mr Lee. Y/n and I are friends now." Kai

Are we hell!!

Joy was beginning to panic as was I.

"No you're not! Now goodbye!" Dad

The door slammed shut with Kai loud laugh. I breathed out a relief sigh and I think joy steadied here with her hand over heart.

I smiled up at her to stand with my jacket in hand.

"Are you two ready?" Mom

My mom comes into the room. She wasn't smiling like before, in fact she looks more alarmed than anything.

I nod at her and she grabs my hand and joys to lead us to the hallway, quite fast. My dad was still seen standing at the door, his shoulders tensed up and hands balled up in fists, glaring through the small peep hole in the door.

"Y/n, we need to get you and joy out of here." Mom

Instead of heading to the front door where my dad stood, she lead us towards the back door.

What the hells bells is going on??

"Mom? Wh-"

I was cut off when my mom pushed me down to the floor again along side joy when the front door slammed forced open with a loud bang and followed by a shatter of a glass window.

Where we landed was just at the kitchen door. My mom was still standing over us, red glowing eyes glaring at the men that just charged into the house.

They stepped over my dad that was currently wrestling with another man dressed in all black and I noticed how Kai stood at the front door outside watching in. He showed no emotion but I soon took my eyes off him when my mom spoke.

"Y/n! joy! run out back. You remember our emergency plan!! Go!!" Mom

She's right we do have one. It's to jump the back fence and hide in a underground room that's hidden with a rose bush my mom planted over it.

I grabbed joys hand to pull her up with me and my mom charged forward towards the men. She was quite scary looking, her blue veins popping out her skin faintly but noticeably. She had a lethal aura about her right now and I didn't want to stick around to find out what she was doing.

We ran through the kitchen hand in hand but I turned about to get on last look but I regretted it as soon as I did.

One massive guy dressed in all black, to even cover his face pulled out a long massive sword. My mom was too busy to notice since she was clawing out a mans throat while he lay on the floor.

In one quick movement he swung towards her, but not just any part of her body, but her head.

"MOOOM!!!!!"

I was too late.

Her head fell clean off and rolled across the hallway floor and her body fell limp to the side.

"NNNOOOO!!!!!!" Dad

Hi voice boomed so loud through out the house I wouldn't be surprised if the whole city heard it.

When I looked at him frozen in my place, almost blinded my tears my dad showed so much pain, in his face and his lips quivered and fast running tears down his cheeks. His body shook as a man held him in a held lock.

My dad then shocked me to look at me, dead in the eyes. His nose scrunched up in pain, his eyes expressed emptiness and loss. He lost his mate.

He nods to me and then find the way to turn around on the guy that held him and grab him by the throat and yank out his flesh. Another man attacked him but again my dad was quick to kick him out the open door.

Another man appeared with a sword and just as my dad turned around the stranger cut off his head. Just as fast as my mom. Watching how his head fell backwards just as his decapitated body fell on his knees first to then fall chest first to the floor.

"AAAAHHHH!!!"

I just witnessed my parents beheaded, a memory I could never get rid of. Everyone turned to me when I screamed and I fell to my knees. Joy tugged me to stand with my hand and forced me to run out the door.

We ran as fast as we could to the back fence and stared to climb but next to me joy yelped as we climbed. So I looked down to see her on the ground, unconscious and bleeding from her side.

The next thing I know I'm yanked from the wooden fence that I so desperately try to hold onto but it's no use.

I could barely hold onto anything and I was pulled into someone with my back meeting their chest as this person hold me close. I tried kicking and throwing hands and even to try elbowing this person but their arms around me tightened.

"Calm down y/n. It's only me."

"Kai let me goo!"

I tired hitting him again, squirming in his arms but I'm still so ill. I couldn't fight back as strongly as I would of liked.

"Shush now, it's time to go to sleep." Kai

A felt a pinch or a stab of something in my left arm and I kicked out but whatever that was started to make me more drowsy than I already was.

Soon I found myself unable to keep my eyes open or to even move a limb. I couldn't fight back anymore and darkness took over my vision.