{A/N: This is REALLY long so you really don't have to read this. Its just for people who want to hear a little bit about Angelina's background. That's all}

9/14/15

Todays my 14th birthday. I haven't realized how much I've been developing and growing. My mom bought me this apparently saying "I need it to express my emotions" since its my last year in Junior High. Though I still think its weird for me to write my emotions in and to a diary. I probably wont be writing in this a lot though...

9/16/15

Wow! I never realized how weird our science teacher is. She told us one time when she was little she tried to set the house on fire to see if she could create a chemical reaction from it! That makes me kind of uncomfortable around her now.....

9/17/15

Hey my friend Hiromi insisted that I start using Dear Diary at the beginning of my writings. Should I? I mean I've seen people do it and it didn't interest me that much. But I guess I could try it out. I don't see anything wrong with that.

9/19/15

Dear Diary,

I saw a stray dog while I was walking home from school. Luckily I brought a lunch to school and had some leftover meat. I decided to give it some of the meat. But it ran off. Oh well...I'm sure it'll come back, secretly thanking me for its small meal...

9/21/15

Dear Diary,

I had a sleepover last night with my friends Hiromi and Anna (She's American!). We watched funny videos, did pillow fights, and they both put on makeup. I didn't because I don't usually wear make up and I prefer not to. But what shocked me and what is worth writing about is when I was going to the bathroom Hiromi stopped me and started whispering about how she had this crush on this guy!

She said his name was........um.....Hiro. I've heard of him and seen him. I guess he was handsome I never think of boys really. Well there is one boy....but the problem is he doesn't even know I exist!

I feel weird...I'm going to go now...

9/25/15

Dear Diary,

Wah! Sorry for neglecting you for so long! I had to study for a test that was today. I think I did well and Anna does too. Hiromi said she thinks she sucked at it considering she didn't study. Oh Hiromi.....

8/3/15

Dear Diary,

Something shocking happened today. Hiro talked to me. Weird...He was saying something but I was too much in a daze to listen. For some reason I just didn't feel like talking to him even though I've never talked to him. I'll admit he is kind of cute but I would never fall for a guy my friend likes. That's just plain wrong....

We're too young to think about such things.....

8/4/15

Dear Diary,

I think something's wrong with me! I forgot about my violin! I found it in the case under my bed. I haven't played it in a couple of weeks but its not like I've forgotten how. When I played it again it felt wonderful! Like everything disappeared and it was just me and the violin! I cant wait to perform live again....if there's going to be another competition soon....

8/6/15

Dear Diary,

My parents got mad at me today...they caught me listening to vocaloids other than doing my homework. I really despise homework. Teachers probably created homework just to make me personally mad...honestly....

But its only English homework and I'm good in that subject..I guess I should get started now...

8/11/15

Dear Diary,

Out of all the 26 kids in our class my math teacher just had to chose me to solve the math question. Ugh!! It wasn't hard but I didn't feel like dragging my legs up and moving my fingers and hands. That was too much work!!

Then I had to walk ALL the way back to my chair and listen to him blabber on and on about something that quickly flew away from my brain the moment he started talking.

I wish school was more fun.....

8/12/15

Dear Diary,

I'm scared...

Anna just told me that she had a crush on some guy. She was red as a beet and she was so nervous that you could literally see the sweat falling off her! Not joking! I was like "I'm your friend why are you so nervous?" You know?

She was about to tell me but then quickly shooed it off. Cool, didn't think anything of it. Until I saw her face get redder when Hiro walked past her. Trying my best not to think anything of it....

Then Hiromi comes up to me saying "Whys she so red?" in a almost rude tone. I just wanted to go home and rub my violin strings....

I hope drama doesn't evaporate in this school.....

8/14/15

Dear Diary,

There's thins new girl at our school named Kanako. So this girl is really talented! I must say! We had swim class today (Sadly) and everyone knows I cant swim. I was sitting down watching the girls flap around when Kanako swiftly jumps in and starts thrashing around like a freakin boss!

How do you do that!? Do you just kick and throw your arms and legs around while holding your breath? I tried that once but a lifeguard came into the picture....

8/19/15

Dear Diary,

Oh my gosh!!! Hiromi brought a batch of brownies at lunch for her, me, and Anna to eat together! Mmm her mom makes the best brownies ever!!! The chocolateness in them is perfect! Like a reach baker! Imp not even a big fan of chocolate but her moms food makes me one.

While we snacked on the treats we discussed our planes on living a healthier lifestyle.

Which is not going to happen.

8/20/15

Dear Diary,

I finally finished learning that song Romeo and Cinderella by Miku! Ah it sounds so good on my violin! Even though that song is kind of inappropriate I truly think I did beautiful with playing it on my violin!

8/21/15

Dear Diary,

Today was really funny! So our English teacher, Mr. Ojima was currently teaching and a boy (I think his name is Daisuke) raised his hand and told Mr. Ojima that he had a cat in his backpack. Mr. Ojima rolled his eyes and continued to teach the class until Daisuke raised his hand up again and said "I really have a cat in my backpack."

We all thought this was a prank and turned to him as Mr. Ojima walked to him angrily and sighed. He started to say things like "Please don't interrupt my class" and "Stop lying." So he goes back to the board and starts to talk again.

All of a sudden I heard this meow sound. I widened my eyes and glanced behind me where I'm sure the noise was coming from the backpack rack. I then informed Mr. Ojima and since he believed me he went to Daisukes backpack and a orange fat puffy cat popped out.

I shook my head while everyone laughed out loud. I couldn't believe he really  brought the cat to school. Why?

9/3/15

Dear Diary,

I.Forgot.We.Could.Eat.On.The.Rooftop.

Shoot!!!!!!!!!!!

So obviously me and the other took our lunch up on the rooftop. It was a little chilly up there and made me shiver a bit but it was still fun! My dad made bento for me after I begged him almost to death! The rice, fish, cooked vegetables, MMM! It smelled so good!

I would've devoured it like a beast while my friends laughed at me but I heard a voice that said "May I sit with you guys?" It was a guys voice so I almost choked on my food and looked up. Shoot. That was the only word that ran through my mind.

Dang it Hiro can you not! Anna and Hiromi both immediately lit up and I rolled my eyes in annoyance. They were over here like "You wanna sit by me?" "there's a free spot by me!" I was like shut up!! Please!!!

But no he sat beside me and smiled at me charmingly me. I did a pleasant smile back and looked away still mad about him eating with us. But getting to know him he wasn't such a bad guy and its not that I didn't like him.

I just don't want a guy to ruin my friends relationship. But its not his fault also. If Hiromi and Anna's friendship breaks that's there fault.

And I have nothing to do with it.

9/7/15

Dear Diary,

My music teacher Mr. Tanaka asked me to play a classical piece in front of the class with my violin. I only brought it because he told me to do so Friday. I really didn't feel like it but I did so anyways. I promise you that music can take you to places!

After I was done the whole classroom applauded my hard work and dedication! I was so proud of myself! Hiromi though wasn't clapping and just staring at me sternly. Weirdo.....hmm....I wondered what was her problem. On the other hand Anna was clapping viscously with a bright smile.

But I realized why Hiromi was giving me that look. Hiro was lightly blushing and slowly clapping for me.

This is going to be such a great year...

9/10/15

Dear Diary,

I'm so tired today.....I don't feel like writing.....

9/11/15

Dear Diary,

Ugh!!! We have a stupid test in a couple of days....I hate this..... But the good news is Anna and Hiromi are coming over to h-

-

I flipped the next pages to a different and full written page.

12/4/15

Dear Diary,

I'm surprised at how close Hiro has gotten to us (Well me). Hiromi and Anna still act the same way but Anna has calmed down a bit. Afterschool I texted her a little bit and then texted Hiromi. But Hiromi randomly started to complain about how I spend more time with Anna and not her.

Do I? No. Am I sure? Yes.

Just because I may talk to her a little bit more doesn't mean Hiromi should get all jealous right? She's so childish...I hope she grows up soon...

12/9/15

Dear Diary,

I cant believe its almost the Christmas time!! We got our tree up, decorations, and random stuff!! Eeek! I cant wait!! Baking cookies and singing Christmas songs! And the wonderful gifts! I am totally in the giving season this year! Especially since I've heard that Kousei has been playing again.

That's nice...I really admire Kousei Arima...the famous pianist.

One day I want to play with him...

Back to the main subject, I performed a song for the elderly at a nursing house. I was up for the Christmas sprit and I have done my deed!

I'm so proud of myself once more!! :)

12/11/15

Dear Diary,

The trouble maker of our class got in trouble again like always. Anyway Anna was telling me, Hiromi, and Hiro (Since he's been hanging with us more) about the fireworks that were happening on the bridge not to far from her house.

Of course we were all going together next Saturday we just have to ask out parents for permission! Hiro glanced at me a couple of times with that dorky smile of his.

I just know that he's going to be the root of our problems soon.......

12/20/15

Dear Diary,

I knew it would happen....I didn't know when but I knew it was coming..

Hiromi was becoming more and more distant by the second of each and every day. Today was the day that we all went to see the fireworks. They were all gorgeous. Red, orange, green, blue, yellow, rainbow colors.

It was magical, like something you'd see at Walt Disney Parks or something. Afterwards we started walking home together and that's when it happened. It all happened so fast...my gosh...

Hiromi stopped and took a deep breath and confessed. Oh and let me tell you she yelled it out. "I love you Hiro!" Oh my gosh so dramatic! Anna was watching sadly but then she looked okay. I was just looking at the sky tempted to just walk home by myself.

I really care for my friends but I'm just tired of this guy being our obstacle. Then the worst thing happened. He rejected her.....but that's not all.........he confessed to me.....

I just stood there like a statue...I mean what could I do.....

When he finished I really didn't know what to say...I knew both my friends liked him so I didn't want to accept and even if they didn't like him I still wouldn't have accepted his confession. I don't know...

So I gently rejected him and happily he understood completely....Hiromi then began blabbering about how this was my fault and I was wrong for that and all this crap.

Anna just hugged me saying that what I did was for the best which made me happy. Anna's a good friend....I feel like karma will hit Hiromi one day....

But for now I just want to silently cry and sleep the night away....

-

I flipped through the paper again....

10/8/16

Wow.........is been a while since I've last written in this dusty thing.....wow....looking back I really had a dramatic and childish life huh?

Well I'll update or you diary. Its been months since all that drama. Hiro and Hiromi ended up dating but he cheated on her. Karmas such a imbosol.....

Anna and I remained friends until the very end. She had to move back to America and I was lonely for some time. Until I decided to move forward and attend a music school. I'm glad I did I really enjoy it here.

The best part is that Kousei goes here. I use to always go to his concerts as a child. Memories....but he's different now....obviously....

I don't wanna be weird and just pop in his face...so I just shoved him out my mind for a minute.....

yeah I'll do that for a moment....just shove everything out my head and relax...

oh I forgot to write this...Dear Diary...

9/12/16

Dear Diary,

I met him............I MET HIM!

I met Kousei A-Arima today! I had no idea my friend Tsubaki had a bond with him! I invited her to come to my concert and to my surprise I saw him with her and another guy too. I'm pretty sure he's a playboy though, I've heard girls say that at my school.

He tried to flirt with me but I kind of rejected him I guess. It was more of a dream then reality. I never thought I would ever meet Kousei ever...

But he was more distant and cold....like he never played the piano before...it was weird...

I'm sure we'll get along...

After all it is a wish come true right?

-

I chuckled and scanned through all the pages. They talked about my whole life after I met Kousei and the gang. Did I really spend minutes writing and wiring?

My licked my lips when I saw that there was one more page left in the diary book..

I hummed and looked around before spotting a clean black pen on my bedside. I reached over and grabbed it hovering it over the blue lines.

I took a deep breath and wrote:

Dear Diary,

Hey....its been a while huh? I'm sorry for neglecting you for such a long time...I've been in the hospital so you probably understand.

Hey this will be my last time writing in this okay? Lets hope that they don't throw you away okay? I'm going to miss this place. Earth itself. The green trees and grass, the warm and chilly air, the clouds that look like food, the things that I could've discovered and the things I've never tried out...

My friends, my crush, my opportunities and dreams. I'm going to miss them all....

I'm going to miss my family, neighbors, and my past...

I'll miss a lot of things when I'm gone...

There will be tears, hardships, and tragedy my loved ones will go through...but I hope they can get through it together...

The world is so wonderful..

Its cruel

Its beautiful

its challenging

don't be afraid. Its an adventure that you should be dying to explore...

I should apologize for letting this be my last entry to you...

I should also apologize to everyone out there...

But I'm sorry to myself as well that I couldn't say those three little tiny words to Kousei...

I'm really sorry guys.....

I love you all......

Sorry...

My lip trembled and I wiped away my big droopy tears that traveled down my cheeks but more and more came.

Maybe I shouldn't wipe them away just yet...

There going to be my last ones after all..