this chapter gets way sadder then what i planned. you have been warned

After school my mama picked me up and drove me back to our house. We got home and walked into the house. Mama turned to me and spoke. "ang iyong tatay ay nagpunta sa isang paglalakbay sa negosyo." (your dad went on a business trip) She doesnt speak good english, which is part of the reason dad gets mad at her a lot. I nodded and looked around the house. She already picked up most of the glass bottles and beer cans. I could smell the febreeze she sprayed to cover the alcohol smell. It almost seemed like a different house. A house without him.

I helped pick up the rest and wash out the stains they left. "Mama! Tapos na ako, pwede bang pumunta sa kwarto ko?" (I'm done, can I go to my room?)

"syempre. ang hapunan ay gagawin sa isang oras" (of course. dinner will be made in one hour)

I ran to my room and flopped on my bed. My room was the only clean room in the house, mostly because mama wouldn't let dad into it. I relaxed a bit before deciding on texting in the groupchat.

AvatarTherapy: Hey guys! You wanna hang out?
CouldBeGayer: I'm with Joan rn. Who's house we meeting at?
DisneyPrince: We can meet at my house. My dads seem to like you guys and Remus went out with a friend
Marco&Joan: sure. we'll be there in a bit
AvatarTherapy: I'll ask my mama

"Mama, may I go to Roman's house?" I walked out to the kitchen where she was looking through a cookbook. She looked confused for a moment before recognizing  Roman's name. She nodded and pointed to her watch telling me not to be to long. I smiled and walked to Roman's house. I was the last to arrive but no one seemed to care. We sat in Roman's room and talked for a bit.

"Hey Roman, you excited to work with Virgil for the singing competition?" Joan asked.

"Actually we made our own little bet earlier involving that. I get to take the emo nightmare on a date if he backs out, and I'll leave him alone for however long if I back out, which I wont be doing." He smiled.

"What happens if both of you back out? Or neither?" Thomas asked. Roman seemed shocked for a second. He really didn't think about this. Then again neither did Remy when he started that whole bet thing.

"We didn't really talk about that. I'll ask him about it tomorrow. When is that competition anyways?"

"I think a bit before school gets out" I answered. "We'll probably have to look at the flyer or ask Chad, Brad, or Kyle about it." Everyone nodded and silence fell upon us.

"Hey Em?" Thomas turned a bit to face me.

"Yes?"

"Can you sing your song? You havent sung it to us since grade eight" I chuckled a bit before seeing Roman and Joan looking at me with pleading eyes. I don't know why they like my song so much. I'm not much of a singer but they always ask me to sing it for them.

"I'm not getting out of this" I chuckled.

"Not as long as I'm gay" Roman laughed. I giggled and took a breath before starting.

"Well, I found a man stronger than anyone I know
He shares my dreams, I hope that someday we'll share a home
I found a love to carry more than just my secrets
To carry love, to carry children of our own
We are still kids, but we're so in love
Fightin' against all odds
I know we'll be alright this time
Darling, just hold my hand
Be your girl, you'll be my man
And I see my future in your eyes...."

I paused for a moment forgetting the words...I took another breath and started singing again.

"So I'm sorry to my unknown lover

Sorry that I can't believe that anybody ever really
Starts to fall in love with me
Sorry to my unknown lover
Sorry I could be so blind
Didn't mean to leave you
And all of the things that we had behind

Oh
Oh
Oh

I run away when things are good
And never really understood
The way you laid your eyes on me
In ways that no one ever could
And so it seems I broke your heart
My ignorance has struck again
I failed to see it from the start
And tore you open 'til the end..."

I stopped when everyone showed a shocked expression. Then it hit me. That's not my soulmate song. Th-thats a sad song. My soulmate....

I broke down crying. I don't know who it was that called for Roman's dads. I don't know who it was to move me to one of the twins' bed. I don't know who it was that answered my phone when it started ringing. I just cried. And soon. I was asleep.

{time skip brought by Nate, how are those chicken strips?}

I woke up in Roman's bed. I looked around to see Thomas asleep next to me, Joan was sitting on the floor leaning against the bed asleep, and Roman wasn't here. I tried to get out of the bed without waking anybody but that didn't really go to well. Thomas grabbed my arm and looked me in the eyes.

"You okay Em?" I took a breath to process what happened before answering.

"Y-yea. I'll be fine. It happens. I didn't know them. I'll be fine." I'm sure it sounds more like I'm telling myself that but I just need some fresh air right now. Thomas nodded and reached to wake up Joan. "Let them sleep. I'm just gonna take a walk. I'll call you guys if anything changes." He nodded and handed me my phone from where it was sitting on the bedside table.

I made my way through Roman and Remus' house and got to the front door. I opened it and stepped outside. I took a few breaths and started walking around the block. I checked my phone to see a few texts from mama, two missed calls from Remy, and a few texts from Remy. I clicked on mama's first.

Mama(Mia): Are you okay baby?
Mama(Mia): Patton told me what happened. Call me soon.
'Miles: I'm fine mama. I'm just taking a walk. I'll be home soon
Mama(Mia): Ok. Come home soon

I smiled a but and clicked on the texts from Remy

<Coffee3: where would your dream wedding be?
<Coffee3: and would you go on a honeymoon or stay home?
<Coffee3: emile?
<Coffee3: u ok em?
Em&Ems: Yea. Something just came up
Em&Ems: I think I would want a wedding in a meadow up at the cliff. and a honeymoon would be nice. why?
<Coffee3: thank fucking god. i thought you up and died or some shit
<Coffee3: no reason. just trying to get opinions on something
Em&Ems: you mind if I video called you?
<Coffee3: ofc not ems

I pressed the call button and Remy immediately picked up. He seemed to fit with the phone for a moment before putting it on a surface and going to one side of the screen. "Wassup cutie?" It sounded like duck tape was being ripped off something.

"Just walking right now. What're you doing?"

"Dee came home so I got in trouble for taping Virgil to the wall. I have to take him off, by myself, now." He paused to look at me. "Have you been crying? He picked up the phone and seemed to be studying what he could see through the screen.

"Yea...something happened." I looked away from the phone a bit. Remy was silent for a minute before the sound of tape ripping off something came through. It got so loud that I had to turn down the volume. It went on for a minute before a thud. I looked at the screen to see Remy holding Virgil with his mouth duck taped shut. Remy ripped off the tape to which Virgil barely let out any noise of pain. He looked ready to kill someone.

"How do you help me when...." Remy trailed off.

"Why asshole?" Came Virgils voice. They seemed to whisper something before Virgil looked at me.

"Emile? Tell me what happened." So I explained it. I explained going over to Roman's house. Them asking me to sing my song. The song changing partway through. Even me breaking down.

"It'll be okay Emile. Just go home and do stuff that makes you happy. Listen to music that makes you feel better. Drink plenty of water and eat food that makes you feel better." Is this still Virgil? From what I've seen he isnt so caring. And from what Roman tells he isn't like this. Does this have something to do with a secret past? Ooooh like Rose Quartz and Pink Diamond. I nodded and Virgil handed the phone back to Remy.

"You want some company?" He asked. He seemed a little tense but I assume that's from me almost breaking down while on the phone with him and his brother.

"That'd be nice. I'll text you my adress"

"Alright, see ya soon Ems"

"See ya soon Rems"

Word Count: 1550
damn that got sad. If you have any questions about the soulmate thing feel free to ask. it's 2am and i'm writing this on my roof....
Bye for now guys, gals, and non-binary pals